Arjun's POV

When I opened my eyes after a peaceful sleep, I was upset to not to find Radhika coccooned in my arms. Where have you gone mama bear?! Yes, mama bear because she has perfectly slipped into the role of a protective mom. I think I should really go find her. She must eat on time and I must make sure of that. We also have an appointment and we need to leave soon.

I take a quick shower and exit my room but my face turned sullen as I ran in to Lily who looked as if she aged in a day. She looked so messed on whole. I felt bad for her but what can I do?!

Her eyes were puffy and blotchy from crying and when she saw me, her eyes watered again as she shivered looking at him. I know she still loves me and I am being unfair to her but I have no other option. When I take a step towards her, she took to her heel towards her room.

I look ahead and my eyes widened in shock looking at my insolent little vixen galloping down the stairs. What the fuck is wrong with her?! I jogged towards her and caught her by her shoulder. As much as I want to scold her but I don't want to sullen her mood.

"Radhika, stop jumping down the stairs. It's not safe."

I gently hold her and wrap my hand around her waist. Fuck! I feel tingles touching her there where my son is. I talk softly,"You have to be careful baby. It's not just you now."

Her face splits in to one wide smile and I cannot help but smile back secretly. I make her walk slowly and steadily and I think I have even caught her grumpily glaring at me. She thinks I did not see, but sweetheart I have eyes at sides and at my back too.

I pull out a chair for her gentlemenly and make her sit. I myself take a seat beside her. Now what would the new mamacita like to have?!

I chide her," You know what you must not climb stairs until you give birth."

She replies in a defiant tone,"You want me to fly from the room to wherever I want to go."

I hate it when someone disrespects me like that. Had she not been pregnant, I would have taken her to my room and spanked her until she says sorry but of course I can't do it while she is pregnant.

I say in a way to scold her, "Will you stop with that snide comments?! I think I am going to have a son who is going to back answer like you do."

God help me if this comes true! I'll go bald plucking out my all hair in worry and frustration.

She says casually, "Oh I'll be delighted if he comes out like me."

I retort, "Oh please I'll have a coronary if he takes after your personality. He should be my mini me."

A little Arjun! How fucking wonderful! What she doesn't knows is that I want him to have her beautiful brown eyes which warms heart in the first glance. If only I had one!

I find her lost in thoughts so I ask,"Thinking about me?!"

She replies, "No your son."

What is she thinking?! I hope about me.

I query, "Are you picturizing him like me?!"

"Yes."

Ah, How does he look in her mind?!

I asks impatiently, "He looks like me or you in your thoughts?!"

"I want him to look like you but should have my kindness and my compassion."

She wants him to look like me. This is just unfuckingbelievable! What I haven't done to break and bend her?! Even after all this she is sitting beside me and not throwing insults at me. She wants our son to look like me. Is that my long dead conscience pricking me?! I shouldn't feel all this. I cannot be weak and have a conscience. I am not supposed to have one. Still out of nowhere an urge to thank her takes birth but as usual I don't.

"I never expected you to say that. I thought...."

She locks her eyes with me,"I don't hate you at least not right now but I don't like you either. You hurt me, Arjun but you are also the father of my child. I cannot let my dislike and dissatisfaction towards my life come between both of you. That's just not me. I love my baby more than I have loved any thing else."

See Arjun she is trying. Trying in spite of all what you have done. She is trying to accept you as she has wholeheartedly accept this pregnancy. A small voice inside me squeaks and shakes my insides!

"I will try to be a good man for you but only for you. Don't expect an overnight change in me. I am not going to abandon what I do for living."

I am not saying this to make her feel good it's just that I want to contribute in some way. I cannot promise her something I can't do for her. I will try, Radhika for my son and for you.

"Okay."

I desperately want to change the topic, "You should eat now. What do you want to eat?!"

She eyes shine with childlike excitement, "How about mashed potatoes?!"

They are my favourite but I haven't eaten them since my mother died. The very sight of them ruins all my efforts to stay strong and composed. They bring back so many memories and accidentally I blurt out," My mom loved them and...."

Fuck! Sam is rubbing off on me. I am turning into a big mouth like her.

She asks, "You miss your mom a lot right?!"

Miss?! This word doesn't even come close to what I feel when I think about her. I have kept her alive in me and she'll stay till I die.

I reply honestly, "I breath her, Radhika. Do you miss your dad?!"

I purposely didn't use a curse to describe her fucking father. I won't because maybe it will dispel the mode of our conversation.

She stares into my eyes as she replied, "No I don't because after getting to know what he did to your mom then shame on me if I miss such a man."

I think today my revenge is complete. The one Rehan loves most she only hates him now! This is fucking wonderful! This reminds me I should go and pay a visit to my fucking father in law. He must also know what his one and only daughter thinks about him now. I think I'll tell him about my child growing in her womb too. That'll kill him for sure!

I discard the sensitive topic,"Hey I never asked you about your mom. You said you don't have many memories of her."

"She is no more."
She replied in a voice so sad and not to forget the tears pooling in her eyes.
I loop my arm around her and and squeeze her shoulder lightly.

"Did Rehan kill her?!"

I'll give him shock treatment if he was behind her mother's death. My mom use to say she felt bad for Rehan's wife for being stuck with him.

Her lips quivered, "No but he was the reason of her death. I think she was free from all the pain after her death."

"I have heard how he use to beat her until she puked blood. He was an unfaithful bastard. Is it true that he raped your mother's sister in front of her?!"

One of my men who had stayed in his squad for a couple of months had passed this shocking piece of news to me. There are very few things in this world which literally knock the wind out of my lungs and this one did. If my sources are to be believed, that girl was just ten or twelve year old.

"I don't know. Can we please stop talking about him?!"

I think she doesn't know but the look on her face says she is disgusted by hearing such a godawful thing about her father.

"Sure as you wish. I have to tell you something and I don't know if you'll believe or not."

"Try me."

"Okay so here it goes....You are an unbelievably strong woman and I am so happy that you didn't give up on me despite all the things I put you through."

I am amazed by the courage of this little girl who is half my size yet she is still taking me on. Earlier to fight me and now to make me mend my ways but darling, how can I abandon that path which helped me reach here, which kept me alive till now.

She blushes, "Do you really mean it?!"

I take her hand in mine, " Do you think I will say it if I didn't mean it?!" He pecks my forehead," I will try, Radhika for you, I will, I promise."

"It means a lot to me. I believe you but don't crush my hopes this time." She urges.

"I will try, Radhika for you, I will, I promise."

And I mean it with every fibre in my body!

"Can I ask you something?!" She asks me nervously.

"I will answer if I want to answer but sure you can ask."

"Did you love Lily?!" She asks me in a shaky tone.

"I don't believe in love. Lily and I were really good friends and I was very protective of her. Once we got drunk and crossed the limits of our friendship. I regret it till date. I thought I took advantage of her."

"She is deeply hurt."

"I know but I can't give her what she wants. I just hope she moves on."

"You can marry her still you know. I mean I wouldn't like it of course but...."

"No Radhika it's not right. I should not marry her even if I can."

"Why is it not right to you?!"

"Because I cannot hurt you or my baby. I have already wronged Lily's life in the past and marrying her would be nothing but a disaster. Moreover I am not interested in marrying her, all I want is you."

She looks earthward," You meant it?!"iti

I lift her chin up to meet my gaze," You like hearing it again and again don't you?!"

Her eyes express how much she wants to hear me say it. She looks so young, joyful and relaxed, a side of hers that I have not seen.

"It means a lot to me." She tells me softly. 

I cup her face,"I am sorry for how I behaved in the past but I am not sorry for marrying you. I liked you when we met at the airport."

I truly was an asshole to her without any fault of hers and I know I wanted revenge but I took it too far which I shouldn't have because she didn't deserve it. She is such a pure soul, no jealousy, no meaness, no deceit and I wonder sometimes is she really Rehan's daughter?!

"I tell you a secret. I felt a good kind of wierd feeling after meeting you for the first time."

"Oh no darling you were wet. I could tell by the way you had pressed your thighs together and the way you were all red in front of me."

"Oh shut up! It's nothing like that."

"You know Radhika how much ever you tell yourself to hate my touch but you know your body craves for it. You like it when I fuck you hard but you are too proud to admit it."

"Can we please not talk about all this?! At least not when we are going to eat."

"Oh you want practical. I can show you if you want."

"You bet!"

"Alright then later on don't be a sour loser."

I raise her dress to her to her waist and trace her panty covered pussy. I side the flimsy material of her panty and finally I get direct access to the most important part of my wife's autonomy. I rub her nub gently first and vigorously later. With her eyes closed and head thrown back, she holds my arm to steady herself. I love how she is taking my support. I know by the look on her beautiful face lost in pleasure, she wants me to fingefuck her but no fun without teasing. Her mouth is opened wide in o shape and her lips dampen as she licks them. I want to put that fiesty mouth to good use some day but I know now is not the time for that. I thrust my finger and she screams out but thankfully she has her hand pressed tightly over her mouth to muffle those throes of pleasure. I speed up my rhythm of onslaught on her pussy and she doesn't even protest. I like how responsive and submissive she is right now. Something about Radhika draws me to her like magnet. Maybe her shy, reserved and defiant nature. She meets all the expectations I have from my wife. I didn't really had any plans to marry before her but then she hit me like a flash of lightening and I was a goner! I still remember how she looked the first time I saw her at the airport. She was like a lost kitten in the crowd still she tried to mask her fear by false bravery. If I were to use one word which describe her best that day then it would definitely be angelic. She looked like a dream, so pure, so beautiful and so desirable. I do check out women but that day I wasn't able to take my eyes off her. I am hardly under a spell of a women but that day I was open-mouthed as I kept drinking her beauty with my eyes. She had long hair that came down till her waist and I was happy they were not covering her breast that day. When I want to take a look at a woman, the first thing I notice is her eyes then lips and then my gaze descends to her assets and at last her legs. Radhika has such beautiful breast, firm and perky just the way I love them. She doesn't have voluptuous ones but hers are just perfect.

She has no clue how beautiful she is. I have met women who fake negligence when it comes to their good looks but Radhika is not like them. She didn't even notice how many man were eyeraping her at the airpoet. My blood boiled when I could sense instinctly that a scoundrel was about to feel her up. I had pushed him hard but all I wanted to do was break every bone in his body. I was never possessive about my women. I had even passed down my conquest to my men. They had enjoyed them after I did. Women were always objects of pleasure and they were not the ones to be taken seriously. Now what I feel for Radhika would be in a strong contrast with my views on women in past. I fucked them raw for my pleasure but there wasn't a women who I had to force myself on. Radhika changed that too. I still remember how I forcefully took her virginity. I was going to be gentle given the fact that I was her first but that's what drove me crazy for her. I wanted to dive inside her as fast as I could. I wasn't gentle in fact I had fucked her hard and taken her over and over again until I was satisfied. She looked so thoroughly fucked that day. With her hair sprawled on my bed, eyes dilated in exhaustion, her lips swollen from all my fierce assault on them, neck covered with my hickeys, her breast bearing reddish purple bruises of my onslaught on them, her womanhood had dry stains of her virgin blood mixed with my cum. That's how I had picturised her the first time I saw her. I wanted to fuck her from the first time I saw her. I wanted to climb inside her and bury myself so deep that my cock would touch her womb where she would one day carry my baby. I never expected her to get pregnant so soon. I did not used the protection first time but I did every other time we had sex. I think she ovulated on her first night itself. My goodness! I have a very potential libido. Makes me want to keep her barefoot and pregnant all the time. I can't wait for her bump to show.

Her loud moan brought me out of my trance. She was begging me to make her cum but I, like a devil that I am, left her horny and wet for me. I pulled out my finger and made an innocent face as I informed her that I will wash my hands and come back. She was throwing daggers at me like a cat in heat would. I found her so cute that all I wanted to do was give her all of me but she must wait as for her punishment for defying and backanswering me. She should understand that I will not have this bitchy attitude of hers. Also now I cannot go hard on her like I want to. First time I will look after her needs and then mine. I must take care of her and my baby. I cannot forget in the heat of the moment that she is pregnant.

I couldn't stand looking at her sad face so I assured her that I will take her after she eats. Her eyes lit up with lust but there was also innocence in them. Innocence that made me a fan of her.

"Don't worry I'll take you after we are done with our breakfast. I am so hard right now for you." Saying so, I took my hand and placed it on the tent in my pants. Her expression was priceless. She quickly snatched back her hand and stared at me, horrified by my unbashful act. God! How much more cute she can be?! Women have given me hand jobs and sucked me dry. I always have loved blow jobs, makes me feel more powerful. I wonder if Radhika will give me on. I wish she does that too willingly and not by force.

I seduce her,"Oh don't be so prude. You know you love what I do to you with my hands, lips and my co.."

Oh boy! She is seduced by the way she is pressing her thighs close together and biting her lower lip. She wants it too and I always want it with her. Why is she denying me?! Why can't she just give herself to me?!

She break in on me, "Shut up! I won't eat anything if you don't stop...."

With that, she chases away my good mood and I am fucking furious at her for making such a threat.

I glare at her my death glare,"I'll fucking forcefeed you if you don't eat."

She makes out that I am not playful anymore so she apologise and I don't want to spoil her mood so I smile my pantydropping smile. She shyly looks away and I want to gobble her up.

"Where is Sam?!" She tries hard to divert me but she doesn't know what a unfuckingbelievable concentration I have.

I answer, "She has gone to her friend's house."

"You know I feel Mr. Dracula doesn't like me."

Mr Dracula?! Who the fuck is he and how fucking dare he to make her feel uncomfortable?!

"Who the fuck is Mr. Dracula?!"

" Your Mark." She answers in a feeble tone.

This is news to me. She nicknames people in her head. Makes me wonder what she calls me when talks to herself about me. She is a grown up women but she is still a kid at heart. She is like that naughty vixen, sexy too.

"Interesting but don't you say this in front of him. Yes, I know he doesn't like you but that's okay. You have nothing to fear. Once he gets to know that you're giving me heir. He'll be on cloud nine. You have me and do you really think I'll let anyone touch a hair on your head let alone harm you."

She needs assurance from me and she will have that. Over my dead body, anyone hurts you Radhika or even gets within an inch of you. I will always look after you and protect you. My darling, you must fear only me not anyone else.

I pull her fast and hard, she comes crashing down on my chest and I take her in my arms. This feels so good and so right! I touch her chin and pull it up to look her in the eye," Radhika, you are mine to hurt and you must fear no one but me. Do you understand me?!"

Her eyes widen in fear and her falls in despair.

"But you said you'll try...."

Of course I will try, honey but don't expect too much.

I cut her off, "And I won't break my promise but you must respect and obey me precisely in front of others. I will not put up with any disrespect from you."

She nods her head at my question and it calms the storm that could have sabotage our relationship.

She turns her face away, "I think mark prefers Lily for you." God! She sounds so sad and it's funny how her sadness affects me.

I hold her face and lift her chin to make her look into my eyes, "And I told you I won't marry her. He thinks good friends can make good life partners but I don't feel that kind of attraction towards Lily now. Earlier I did but now it's gone. When I think about you then I think about the last time I fucked you and when will I fuck you again."

She pushes me away but her giggles confirm that she isn't mad at me, "God! You're insatiable!"

This is how I want to see you, Radhika. I want to see you happy but with me. I want you by my side forever.

I steal a peck on her lips, "Only for you. Listen don't worry about Mark and if his approval matters to you so much then I'll talk to him. Does it matters?!"

She replies, "Yes because he means so much to you. I don't want to be the reason for rift between both of you."

Rift?! She doesn't know the depth of my relationship with Mark. I know he will come around once he finds out that Radhika is with my baby.

"Rift?! Never! He loves me more than his own life. He is my mother's Rakhi brother so he protects me with his life. He can lay down his life in a split of second for me and..." He touch her belly and continued," my child."

She smiles warmly,"I am pleased to know that."

When I see her practically hogging on her food, I couldn't stifle my laughter and she chided me telling me that she is eating for two not for one. I take it as a cue to shut up. I have to make her happy not mad at me.

When she was done eating and I also had my fill, I pulled her on my lap. I was whispering soft nothings in her ear. I was caressing her belly with one hand and with other, I was touching her back sensously. I was about to kiss her when the person who was the last person I would wish to see spoilt it for me.

"Arjun."

"Yes Lily." I replied politely. Radhika was about to get off from my lap but I held her tightly. Lily needs to see that I have moved on and we are not kids anymore. Certainly not me who is married and has a baby on the way. I did make a promise but it was out of guilt. Both of us were just nighteen that time and I didn't even know the full meaning of marriage at that time. I can't marry Lily. Period.

She says quietly, "I want to talk to you."

I finally shift Radhika on the chair beside mine. I am on my feet and I threaded towards Lily," Lily, if it's about our marriage then I am not interested. I told you where I stand on this. You know I don't like to repeat myself."

"No it's not about it. Can we talk somewhere private?!" She was staring at Radhika with pure vengeance. She is making Radhika uncomfortable and I hate it.

I shake my head, "No whatever you want you should say it in front of Radhika."

Radhika must not doubt my and Lily's friendship as it would only give her more stress. She must think of all good things in this condition.

Lily whines, "Arjun please."

I am about to give her a piece of mind but Radhika turns me towards her and stares at me in a way a only lovely wife would look into her husband's eyes.

" Arjun, I will wait for you in our room." She tells me softly and also assures me that she is fine with leaving me alone with Lily.

What is she made of?! I would never leave her alone in one room with another man who would get a hard on looking at her gorgeous self. Just the thought of it makes me go insane with pure and ugly jealousy. She is so sweet and so trusting.

I hug her as if thanking her for the faith she has in me. I kiss her forehead and whisper in her ear," Wait for me sweetheart."

She blushes at my endearment and I could almost feel Lily scowling at me behind my back. As if I care. She is my friend and I have made it clear that I am not interested in anything other than friendship.

After Radhika is gone to her dom, I direct my attention to Lily. I don't know but I feel a bit irritate because her timing was very wrong. I was going to have a kiss and she ruined it.

"Arjun, I have decided that I will move on and not bother you anymore."

"Lily, you coming back was never intrusive to me. You are my friend and the only girl who I befriended. I value you but please don't look for something which I can't give."

"I understand."

"I am glad to hear that."

"Can I get a hug?!"

I nod though I am unsure about her behaviour. She slowly covers the distance between us and puts her arms around me and I awkwardly hug her back. I don't hold her tight as it is against the confines of friendship. Also I don't want to give her any wrong ideas that I am interested in her and I was feeling her up. Not that Lily isn't good looking or not fuckable but I am not aroused by her. She is just a friend and whatever happened between us that night is in the past and it has nothing to do with my present and my future which I see with Radhika.

I don't know why I am not able to buy Lily's changed self. Should I doubt my friend who I got back after ten years?! My gut feeling is giving me warning signals but Lily is my friend, right?! Let this just be a momentary feeling. I don't like how I feel right now but I can't help the suspicious vibes, I am getting from Lily

To be continued....