Radhika POV

I thought he would throttle me today for offending him time and again but he just lightly kissed my lips and said that this is not over yet and I have to pay for that putty mouth I have got. That one sentence sends electric current down my spine.

I don't know what got into him suddenly, He was at his best behavior last night. He cuddled me to sleep....I still cannot believe last night actually happened. Though I have a strong dislike for him, I'd never wish for him to die. How can he accuse me of wishing his death?! Why would I strike the axe on my own feet. I don't wish to be a widow in my early 20s. I am just 22 and in our world if the husband dies before wife then she has to live a bland life.

Today I felt a knot twisted in my stomach, the moment I got to know that he can marry again after our marriage But I won't let him do that. I know I can't stop him from spending nights with his mistresses But no way in hell I will let him bring another woman into this house. I will not let him marry again, he is my husband and I want to be his only wife.

So that was the worst thing that could ever happen. he acted! he played with my feelings!  he called it Oscar performance. I thought he cared for me though he hated me. what am I thinking?! Stupid Radhika!! How can he care for you and be nice to you when he hates you and married you only for revenge.. to hurt dad.. to make dad go on knees.. why?! Why me?! Why oh why?! The pain I felt was too much to take.. I felt my heart might burst... The pain was too much.. too hard for me to breath.. is this how you feel when someone you call yours and trust puts you down?!

Yours?! Mine?! Trust?!

Did I just say that I trust him? Started to trust him? But his care was not fake.. I could read his eyes... But his accusations are too much to bear. Its as if cuts my heart in to tiny pieces when he accuses me.

I did fall for his sugary words and his charm... I could never see past it... Why did I have to believe him?

"Your highness, let me cook something for you."

I am supposed  to cook right?!

"No I actually thought..."

"His highness, told me that you are absolutely helpless in the kitchen so I have to cook."

Absolutely helpless?! Is that what he said?!

"No I actually..."

"Please I insist you wait outside or perhaps sit and wait in the dinning room."

"Okay." I mumbled as I went out.

Why did he even dragged me here if I wasn't supposed to cook here.

I ate a hearty meal which I am glad I did not make! Nothing can be like this, watching my favourite serial in my bedroom. To my sigh of relief, Arjun is busy with his business meeting so he didn't bother me at all. Mary brought  me some raspberries. I am fond of strawberries but I love raspberries too.

All of sudden I heard someone's footsteps approaching my room. I looked at the door from the corner of my eye. The door flew open and a girl of my age stormed inside and started screaming out my husband's name on the top of her voice.

She was wearing a white polka dotted top and blue jeans. She looked amazingly cute with her short shoulder length hair. she had hazel grey eyes which looking like two stars twinkling but she looked like someone. I couldn't remember who was I thinking of, I tried harder to ring a bell in my brains. Yes!!! Her features have a striking resemblance to Arjun's Mom. Is she related Arjun?!Her icy cold tone brought me out of my stance.

She asked me in a irritated voice, "Who are you and where is he?!"

Seriously?! Girl, you are standing in my room and asking me who am I?! I thought she was one of the long list of my husband's fuck buddies.

I crossed my arms to my chest and spoke in a impassive tone,"l am his wife and he is not here."

I was expecting a disgusted angry glare but instead her face bloomed like the blossoms in spring season. I froze when she threw her arms around my neck and hugged me tight and spoke in a cheerful tone,"Oh God!!! He married at last I am so happy today, my biggest wish came true."

I don't know what to do...Should I hug her back or I should pull back?!...I just stood still waiting for her to calm down.

She pulled back and spoke enthusiastically, "I am so happy for both of you. You are very beautiful. I am sure you would have killed him with your looks in the very first sight. No doubt he married you. I mean like who wouldn't fall for you in the very first sight?!"

I don't know what to say. She thinks he married me out of love But only I know that his sole purpose behind this marriage was his hatred and his revenge but I don't like advertising my sorrows in front of strangers so I smiled at her.

She crashed on the couch and pulled me down beside her and spoke in a cheerful tone,"I am so sorry to barge in your room without your permission. It's just that I was very angry with him for marrying in a jiffy and not inviting me and Mariam Oops sorry I forgot to give my introduction. I am Samaira Khanna...Arjun's cousin sister....And Mariam is my mom and she is also the younger sister of Martha aunt.... You must be wondering why do I address my mother with her name....You know we siblings are really cool and our mothers are super cool....Though my brother Arjun is the biggest jerk in this big world but when it comes to me.....He is the world's best brother."

My eyes welled up, I miss my brother so much. I wiped those tears and started listening to her intently. She was cute and nothing like her brother.

She queried," What is your name Bhabhi( sister in law)?!" She pulled my cheeks, to which I whined in disapproval.

I said,"My name is Radhika and please don't call me bhabhi, I am sure you are of my age group."

She smiled," What is your age?! I know its impolite to ask a girl's age but we are family now."

"I am 22 and you?!"

"I am turning 22 in November. Oh my God! You are so young to be married that too to a 29 year old guy. You know what you should have dated few cute guys before settling down."

I like her!

"Well...."

"But if you had then you wouldn't  be here as bhai wouldn't have married you and I would have never met you so its good you did not date anyone except my brother."

Date her brother! Never! He is the kind of guy I would have stayed miles away from. He is a total bad boy and I don't think so he takes girls seriously.

"Actually  we didn't..."

There she cuts me off again,"You mean its an arranged match. Did mark choose you for him?!"

Ha ha ha. Seriously?!

"No he did not choose me, I assure you I am totally his unbiased choice." I gave her a naughty smile.

"And he has a great taste you know that already. I mean he chose the best, you are like a lottery, aren't you?!" She smirked.

Well if only you knew, sweetheart.

"You are only talking about me. Tell me something about yourself."

We talked for hours and in a matter  of hours I actually grew very fond of her. She is great indeed! How can a jerk like him have a sweet sister like her?!

She stood up and took my hand in hers and dragged me along with her. She brought me out of the house in the green maleficent lawn.

She was nothing like her brother, She was free spirited extrovert, amiable, kind, witty and full of energy. She is everything  I am not at this moment.  For a moment I envied her because she was living the type of life I always aspired to live but then we became best of friends in very little time.

Now I understand how it feels when you trust with all your heart even time can't stop you from getting along with them. She told me that she has a boyfriend and no one knows it. She took a promise from me that I won't tell Arjun. I readily gave her my word. Why would I wish to separate two lovers?!  I am very happy for her and I wish her all the luck to complete her love story.

I asked,"Sammy, Do you have his picture in your phone?! Let me see your taste."

She blushed and replied, "I would have but I forgot my phone as I was in hurry to knock some sense in my brother's hands. He is so handsome. It was love at first sight. I just couldn't take my eyes off him. I can die to see his dimpled smile." Her expression resembled a love struck teenager no I guess love struck puppy would be a better phrase.

I teased her,"Oh God Sammy you become so red at the very mention of him. I can't imagine what your facial expression must be when he would be standing before you."

And that one sentence was enough to turn her into a reddish tomato. She looks so cute with that pink blush imprinted on her chubby cheeks.

But then her next question shocked me as well as brought me back to my grim reality.

She spoke in a tantalizing tone,"Radhika, so you tell me....how was your first night?! I am sure Bhai would have not let you sleep even for a minute."

The memories of my first night flashed in my mind and I felt a tug of pain in my heart and my tears peaked out from the corner of my eyes in anticipation. I don't want to tell her and ruin Arjun's bond with her sister. I understand the pain of losing the wonderful warm loving bond with your sibling so I will never wish that pain for anyone in this world.

I replied in a low tone,"It was good and he was gentle." Even when I said it I could feel my heart breaking in my chest.

He was anything but gentle. He raped his own wife and I can't even call it a rape or talk about it to anyone.

Her expression was serious within a fraction of second and she asked in a caring soft tone,"Did he hurt you?! Did he do something that he shouldn't have done?! You look so disoriented talking about him. Is everything alright between you both?!"

For a moment I felt like pouring out all my pain and crying over her shoulder and telling her the real face of her brother But just when I was about to open my mouth, a guard came there and asked her to get inside the house as per as lord's orders. I signed in relief as I didn't had to answer her question anymore. I don't want to spoil it between him and her and also I am scared of  what he will do if he gets to know that I told  her.

We entered inside together and one of the staff led us to where Arjun was. He was standing by the window resting his one arm on the wall at the side. As soon as Sam entered inside, she ran and embraced him from back and chirped in a delightful tone, " Bhai I missed you so much brother, you are such an ass! How could you marry without even inviting me for your wedding?! But I love Rads so I forgive you."

He turned towards her and hugged her protectively and lifted her up and twirled her in air like a baby. The whole room was filled with the echoes of her bubble like giggles. He indeed treated her more like a baby than a sister.

For about five minutes I felt like an outsider in that room whenever I see them my heart yearns for my brother. Will I never be able to meet Rahil?! I don't wish to meet him at the cost of his life. At least I have a relief that my brother is alive. Arjun warned me that he won't live if I try to reach him. I am here for life, I guess.

Arjun's hoarse voice calling out my name brought me out of my thoughts. He took long strides towards me and intertwined our fingers together," Come baby you seem to zone out a alot." He took me where Sammy was standing smiling at us..

He  wrapped his arm around my waist," So here she is, Mrs Arjun Mehra."

"Bhai I already met her." She rolled her eyes at him.

"Yeah but its my duty to introdue right baby." He nudged me.

"Bhai she is so young, I think  you guys should have waited for sometime before marrying."

"Why wait?! When you know its the right time?!" He said as he looked me in the eye," And you know what?! Sex with young women is just great!"

He just didn't say that, did he?! Oh God!

"TMI! Bhai please I don't want to know about your sex life."

He leaned near my ear and whispered," You know I meant it, sex with you is great and now I can't wait for night..."

My eyes widened," Stop!" I screamed louder than intended making Sam suspicious.

"What happened Radhika?! Are you okay?!" She asked me.

"I just..."

"She wants me to stop talking to you so you could take a bath and we all can have dinner together, right baby?!" He lied smoothly.

Sam smiled," You are very sweet, Rads."

"Indeed she is sweet. Very, very sweet that I can't get enough  of her."

I wasn't that naive to not know what he was hinting to and despite myself and all my dislike  for him, I was blushing hard.

He queried," Where is Mariam?!"

She made a cute annoyed face and spoke animatedly," Don't talk about her, She ditched me for some boring wedding. She was going to come with me here but last minute cancelled it."

Arjun laughed and gave her an arm hug and pinched her nose and pecked her forehead. So Arjun Mehra knows to laugh heartily but the difference was that this cute laughter was only restricted to some people but I would be lying to myself if I say he was not at all looking good. Handsome would be a understatement. I think he looks enthralling whenever he laughs.

He hugged me from behind and his chin rested on my shoulder causing a shiver to run down my spine. My heart was pounding in my chest, I mentally scolded it please stop beating so fast. He might hear you!  I tried to get free from his grip but I couldn't even move a inch.

Just then a lady in her late 40s entered inside and spoke in a pleased tone," So finally Casanova is claimed! Didn't I tell you Arjun few years back that you will fall in love some day. Love happens when you least expect it."

Love is not a word, but a curse for Arjun and it will indeed be a curse to loved by him. I wish I could burst their bubble of hopes But I don't feel like breaking hopes. Hopes are even more precious and important than water. A life without a hope is as good as dead! A living grave!!! I smiled at her masking all my pain behind my eyelids as my tears of pain were just about to slide down.

Arjun gave her a hug and questioned, "Sammy told me you are not coming so when did this change of mind took place?!"

She chuckled and replied sarcastically, "You will realize when you go and attend weddings. If the wedding is not one's own then it is no longer interesting."

He smiled at her and pulled her cheeks and spoke,"You are staying with us henceforth. Sammy needs to learn business and she takes a dozen of sick leaves in a month if I am not there to watch around."

Sam whinnied like a baby,"This is just not fair, you do whatever you want But you both love being the two biggest villains of my life. Why am I pressurized for this?! "

Arjun answered, "Because you are my blood and my one and only sister. You need to stop behaving like a baby now. It's time to grow up and face the world and you have to learn this sooner or later."

Sam spoke in a sheepish tone,"But I want to be a artist. I am not interested in your business. "

Arjun growled as he glared at her angrily, "Sam this is the last time I am telling you, I won't let you throw away your life by choosing such a low standard profession. You will do what I say."

Sam threw daggers at him with her pitch black eyes and turned to me and spoke in mocked sweet slurry tone,"Radhika please do me a favour, give him a healthy baby boy so he will stop bothering me. Let the junior Mehra suffer, not me."

I don't want kids at this stage of my life, I mean I would love being a mother but If I give birth then my children will have the same pathetic life. If it's a boy then he will have to follow Arjun's footsteps and if it's a girl then she will be married off to some other mafia leader.

Arjun pulled me close to him and husked," Yes Sam, we are working on it soon we will make you an aunt. I can guarantee  you by the end of this year I will knock her up."

Oh God! Can this two stop talking as if I am not in the room?! They are talking about babies as if they are going to go to some place and bring home some baby.

I couldn't help the reddish blush that rose on my cheeks, my lips curved in a shy smile and my gaze lowered not willing to meet anyone's eyes.

Mariam held my chin and lifted my face and spoke to Arjun,"She is so beautiful. If you guys have a girl, I want her to be her replica."

Please change the topic! My heart was screaming out in my chest but no one could hear it.

Arjun kissed my cheek and spoke," I don't mind a babygirl like her but first a boy."

And what if we have a girl first?!

"What if the first one is a girl then?!"

"So what?! Second one or third one will be a boy."

He reached third one in his mind! What he thinks that I am some babymaking machine?!

Mariam gave him a hard stare,"Can you both stop talking about babies right now?! Have some mercy on her. Arjun, she is too young to have a baby right now so...."

He cut her off,"Mariam, she is not under 18."

She didn't look the one to back down,"Arjun, she is...."

"Ma, you were telling me about some gift you got bhai, show him now."

Sam changed the topic to avoid a friction between Arjun and Mariam. He seemed to be fond of her but he didn’t like her telling him what he must do.

I am delighted that Sam and Mariam are staying with us. Now I won't have to search for options to kill my time and even Arjun can't hurt me before them....Isn't that great?!

I was lying on my bed closing my eyes, waiting for some sleep to enlighten me with its much needed presence in my life and eyes both. Just then I felt someone kissing my neck not just kissing, sucking my neck, I felt a muscular hand cupping my breast. I swiftly jerked off the hand and jolted up.

It was Arjun smiling at me with his totally annoying egotistic smirk tugging at his lips. I tried to get up and get away from the bed as I smelled the danger but he pinned me down and hovered on top. I could see the lust and desire in his eyes. I was not that naive to not know what's coming next.

I pleaded with him,"No Arjun.....please I don't want to do it....It hurts a lot.....I want to sleep."

He smiled a evil one,"It's not about what you want. It was always about what I wanted and you are my wife and I can have you anytime in the day as per as my wish. If you be a good wife and let me have you, I will let you sleep when I am done. "

Is this the way things are supposed to happen?! Is my life going to be like this forever?! I thought it was just about the first night. It's always heard that men can't hold back, new life... new woman So, it was an exception, he wants to have sex with me again. Though he had taken me against my will and raped me, I still ache from last time and here he is for the next session! Am I a ragdoll? I don't think I'm compatible.  I am not liking this at all.  I wanted to share this with someone who loved me if not loved at least respected my body and my wish but here he doesn't even think of me as a human. Does marriage give one's husband every right to do whatever he wants?!

What's the use fighting him anyway.  He will have his way with me in the end. I'm the only one getting hurt in this process, hurt really bad and he might even hit me! How am I going to face everyone in the morning?! I took in a sharp intake of breath and prepared myself for the forthcoming situation. I remained still as a stone.

He grinned evilly before claiming my lips, my hands still tried to push him away but he pinned them both above my head with his one hand," Don't tempt me to tie you up." He smirked.

"You are not doing right..." I breathed as he kissed down my nape.

"Who cares?! You are  my wife and this is my right." He silenced me as he claimed my lips.

His tongue shoved inside my mouth exploring each nook and corner inside. I could feel butterflies erupting in my stomach, my body started betraying me as it was enjoying his touch, to my own dislike. Why is this happening?! I'm supposed to hate this all. I feel the urge to kiss him back and I wouldn't! I felt like I was going to die as I was out of breath. He broke the kiss leaving me breathless and my chest rose up and down to fill in the deficiency of oxygen in my lungs.

He pulled down my nighty strap enough to uncover my bra clad blossom. He unclasped my bra hooks and rested his head on my breastbone. He whispered," Your heart is beating so fast Look at the effect I have on you."

Yes it's true! I might deny it to my heart's content but my heart is racing so fast that I fear it might stop any time. God! If something happens to me today, I put all blame on this devil on top of me.

He kissed down my breast valley and his hands knead my moulds, my nipples hardened under his sensuous touch. My traitorous hormones were wild as if his hands had some magical power in them. I want to tell him to stop and leave me alone but I am possessed by something which craves for his touch. I am having a huge disrupting conflict between my heart and mind.

I couldn't see him properly as it was very dark. But there was a bit of moonlight flowing in from the windows. The windows were covered with curtains. I could feel his hard bulge poking at my stomach.

I shivered, I felt scared and aroused at the same time, I felt desirous. He lifted his head and captured my left nipple in his mouth and bit hard on it making me gasp out in pain. I gasped as his tongue lapped around it easing the pain.

I could feel the heat generating from my wet moist core. He discarded my nighty and it pooled down on the floor. I tried to wriggle out of his hold but all in vain, he moved downwards and licked my belly button while his hands squeezed my breast roughly.

He yanked his clothes off and came over me again and kissed me. I felt him parting my legs and then I felt him between my legs. He pulled down my panties and then without a warning he shoved inside me roughly. I cried out in pain as I wasn't ready at all, I open my mouth to shout again but his lips claimed mine in a hard kiss.

As soon as he broke the kiss, I winced," It hurts."

"You will be fine."

I was appalled by his assurance. Is this how you assure a girl when you, yourself are hurting her?!

"Why me?! You can have any girl you want." This is the question which has been really troubing me.

"Do you want me to replace you or you know maybe get a second wife?! Because you don't make me happy in bed."

"No!" I snapped at him. Replace me?! What am I some phone he wants to replace with another?!"

"Then keep quiet and stop with those questions." He pulled out and slammed inside me hard making me scream.

He is such an ass! What he means to say that if I don't make him happy in bed then he will get someone else to do the job!

It was not as painful as first time But still It hurts because he is rough and he didn't even give me time to adjust. Being sore from the last time hurts a lot. Though it was two days ago I still felt as if a sharp knife was being slammed in and outside me.

I screamed into his mouth, but he ignored me and kept  on thrusting into me harder and harder each time. I cannot move my arms as he still has them pinned above my head. I eventually realize how pointless this is and stopped struggling.

I cried in agony and tried to kick him as my hands were pinned. It was getting too much, more than I can handle but no use of whining about it.  As expected he gave a damn about my pain. He just went on thrusting in and out of me, roughly and his mouth feasted on my breast as he sucked life out of me.

After sometime the pain ebbed away and pleasures rocked my body. The desire pumped in me. I felt the sweet pleasure building. And I am hating this. I will always hate this. He hurts me and I end up feeling pleasure. God, I don't want this. I hate him. I hate this feeling building up inside of me at the pit of my stomach now. It was getting impossible to control and with a small scream I shattered into million pieces.

I heard Arjun's small grunt and he found his release and crashed on me," So good...so good baby, you are so beautiful and all mine."  He pulled out and I winced. 

My hands reached my face to wipe my tears but he beat me to it as he wiped my tears and smiled evil," The night is not over still baby. I am not done with you."

"I am tired please...."

"I will let you sleep some extra in the morning." With that, he took me again and he kept on taking me over and over again until he grew tired which perhaps happened hours later. I was so tired, so worn out, my whole body ached. My private part was burning  and I couldn't sleep because of the pain that was both inside and outside. In the middle of the night he pulled me close and I got scared that he wanted to have sex again but he was asleep so I relaxed.

Now I need to train myself for this, Understand this, this is how my life is going to be.

There is no escape!