I guess it's time to talk about something that kinda hits me hard. I actually didn't think of this, my best friend did. We were talking about the special boy in my life that happens to already have someone in his life. My whole thing was 'why would he like a depressed boy from the internet when he has a girl that can be with him in person and who he can love and be with'. She pointed something out to me. It doesn't matter how far way a person is. If you love them you love them. That wont change. That made me start thinking, which isn't always a good thing. 

If you love someone, what does it matter who they are? what does it matter their age, race, gender, sexuality, any of that. They are a person. if you have feelings for them, you have feelings for them. In the past I used to go by this, because my 13 year old self had a crush on this almost 16 year old boy, I was so blinded by him that I couldn't see who he really was. It was around when I turned 14 that i realized what a shit person he was. So i lost my belief. Now that I am serious about liking this new boy (lets call him Xavier - that is not his name), I'm starting to get that belief back, slowly and differently from the way I did before.

If you love someone, you love them. That's that. But if they disrespect you and don't treat you like the prince and/or princess that you are, then fuck them. The first thing about true love is that is kind, its fair, its amazing. At least from what I'm told, as I've never felt this way. 

Kay imma stop now.

one more thing

At 50 chapters, I'm going to stop writing this.

I've yet to decide if I'll start another journal thing.

Kay

Bye 

-skylr