Violet (alpha Jake pick)

I unfroze and and stared at the alpha who was a few feet away.

"well, its been fun but we've got to go" I laughed nervously stepping backwards.

He stepped closer and growled. 

I growled right back. He growled again stepping foward.

How dare he, I am his alpha. I growled stepping foward also. I dont take well in challenges and by my guess neither does he.

He looked angry at me for challenging him, guess what so am I.

He growled louder putting his alpha power behind it. I saw his eyes turning black meaning his wplf close to the surface.

my wolf also surfaced demanding respect and angry he dared use his alpha power agaisn't us.

I growled feeling my eyes turning red. He better back down or else he will be six feet under. literally, he'll be lucky if he has anything to put in his coffin.

He went to growl at me again but I growled putting my power behind it but not all of it. I could feel the ground vibrating a little by the force of the growl.

His eyes quickly returned to its original color with a fearful look he bowed his head and whimpering.

my wolf calmed at his submision, my eyes returning to their original color. "dont ever dare growl at me again pup" I growled at him.

He whimpered and I sighed. I looked around and saw the other wolves also bowing their heads in submission.

"let him go" I demanded refering to Derek, they released him without a word. He walked towards me in shorts only. which remindsme where did out bags go?

I sense someone coming and glanced at the direction of the pack house. Soon a woman burst through the clearing, I could see the resemblance between her and the alpha.

She's not a wolf but I feel great power from her including ones of a luna. What is she? its on the tip on my tongue.

"Merideth, where are you going this is dangerous." A man burst throught the clearing. I sense his alpha aura around him and he resembles the alpha.

They were his parents, but what are they doing here. also, Merideth, Merideth where have I heard that name before.

Damn she's a-

"I sense great power here" She spoke comming closer to me. I growled warningly but she just ignored it coming closer.

"mom what are you doing?" the alpha asked frantically.

"Merideth stay back" her mate called out. She ignored them both and kept coming towards me while I stepped back.

Derek stared in shock, I never back down this was a weird behavior for me but if he could remember who she is better yet what she is.

My back hit a tree as Merideth came closer. I growled in warning again but nothing really happened she just kept coming.

I heard growls and saw the pack trying to interfere but they were held back by a force. damn smart-

I was cut off by a hand touching mine. her eyes widenned as we made contact. damn she knows.

then her eyes changed into disebelief then determination, I felt the air shift towards her. What is she doing.

Suddenly I felt my wolf coming out, I tried pushing her back but a force was pushing her to the surface. She was forcing me to shift!

I tried to stop it but it was no use. I felt my eyes red in anger and my wolf coming to surface. my nails became claws at my teeth became canines, this was like the shift over again, doesn't hurt as much but it hurts nonetherless.

My fur started sprouting out and my spine cracked. I was trying to stop it but it was no use. "damn witch" I spat at her before giving up. I dropped on all four fully shifted into my pure black wolf and red eyes.

Everyone in the pack gasped. "I dont believe it"  the alpha gasped.

I shifted back facing her  "damn witch I was so close." I mumbled but I know they heard with the enhanced senses. I was so close to getting out of here, that witch! seriously she is literally a witch.

"the black wolf our alpha returns" the alpha bowed along with the pack members.

"Merideth how did you know?" her mate asked her. I just scowled looking away from the stares but my stare went towards Derek who just looks dumbfounded.

'what just happened?' he mind linked me.

' you know how I always stay away from witches?' I asked him.

'yeah, which doesn't make sense since you're half one yourself' he said confused.

'well you could say that the witch world was on the lookout for me since I was pretty much missing and all. so a spell was casted so that they will be able to feel my presence and know who I am at touch' I sighed.

'anyway, I was wondering where I recognized the name Merideth. remember one powerful witch who was mated to an alpha?' I asked

'thats her?!' He asked in surprise.

'yup' I answered. you see witches also have mates, most of the time amongs each other and vampires but its rare to be mated to a werewolf, especially an alpha.There are probably only about five hundred werewolf and witch mates, yeah that rare. Merideth however is one of two witch mated to an alpha right now making her powerful since she was a pretty strong witch and now mated to an alpha and being luna having all senses and power coming with it, she is a really powerful witch.

which is how she was able to force me to shift, she's very powerful much more powerful then me. well my witch side anyway I need to practice my magic. well her magic and mines are pretty much different, I use black magic.

"hello" a hand waved in front of my face. 

"what" I snapped at the person who interrupted my thoughts to only see Derek.

He just started at me in amusement already use to my ways. "their talking to you" he raised an eyebrow pointing at the pack members behind the alpha, Merideth and if I remember correctly her mates name was Stone.

I sighed and looked at them expectantly. "yes?" I asked as they remained silent.

"sorry for disrespecting you and all" The alpha spoke rubbing the back of his neck nervously. "my name is Jake by the way" He held out his hand.

"my names Violet and thats Derek" I gestured toards Derek. " and its alright" I didn't bother shaking his hand, he got the message and put his hand down.

"we should discuss this inside, why dont we go back to the pack house" Alpha stone stated.

maby I can get out of here before anything else happens.

'whats the point you, we cannot escape this. not only do they know we are nearby but they know who you are and your magic wont really work when Merideth here can easily repel it. face it its inevetible and has been from the beginning.' my wolf spoke.

I sucked in a breath. I dont want to be alpha, I cant be alpha. I felt a hand on my shoulders and urned to see Derek with an encouraging look on.

"you coming" Jake called out.

"yeah" Derek followed dragging me with him. We got to the pack house much faster than I wanted.

As we walked in the packs dementor from before changed. From hate and disgust to respect and aww. Its sickening how many people judge others from looks, power and reputation.

althought, they may have pretty much right about me. 

"where have you been all this time?" the former alpha stone asked me.

I cleared my face of any emotion not wanting to think of that disgusting pack. "it doesn't matter"

"it doesn't matter?!" Jake yelled. "our rightful alpha was out there. we didn't really know if you were alive or dead, your pack needed you and it doesn't matter" he growled at the end.

now he was annoying me. I sighed taking off my leather jacket trying to ignore the tension, and the fact he yelled and growled at me.

"How did she end up somewhere other than here?" Derek asked curiously, honestly I was curious too. I mean it ended up with me living a big lie and not a good one either.

"Well during the ceremonies to bring her and her sister down to Earth, we were interrupted or more like attacked." Merideth spoke glumly.

"they disrupted the balance of the gate as you came. The White Moon Pack managed to save your sister but it was too late for you resulting you landing in a different location." She continued.

ah the White Moon Pack. another pack I avoided, they would have known who I was that and its my sisters pack.

The White Moon pack is the one pack other than this one with a witch mated to the alpha, you could say she's just as powerful as Merideth thus another reason to avoid them.

"well it doesn't matter anymore, all that matters is that you have returned and we finally get our true alpha" Stone stated. My head snapped up at that.

"I never said I would become alpha." I narrowed my eyes at them. They all froze in the spot.

"what?" Merideth spoke quietly.

"why!" Jake demanded.

"because I dont want to become alpha" I growled. I cant become alpha.

"but the pack needs you, the world needs you!" he stated. trying to guilt trip me I see, good luck with that.

I got up turning towards the door. "whats that on your back?" he whispered in shock. I froze on the spot.

damn I forgot to put my jacket back on and now they see it. I got a tattoo about a year ago on my left shoulder. It was my signature mark.

"nothing" I stated hoping he would drop it as I put my jacket back on. no such luck.

"is that why you dont want to be alpha?" he asked in anger, "because you want to continue going around killing rogues living a rogue life!" he was yelling by now.

"son calm down" Stone tried to calm him. he just ignored his father.

his last statement made me boil in anger. "that is just selfish" disgust and anger clear in his tone.

I was angry, He already disrespected me but this crosses the line. "Violet calm down" Derek tried to calm me but it was too late.

I already had Jake against the wall my hands around his neck. he gasped in surprise but froze as he looked into my red eyes.

"selfish you say? you have no idea what I am doing for you." I spat angrily tightening my grip on his neck.

"You have no idea what I've done in the past, for some of those things nothing can redeem me of them. I have some other people after me for revenge and what not, I've developed blood lust and from the things I've done I dont deserve to be alpha, I shouldn't be alpha." I whispered the last part. 

My wolf was whimpering in shame of what we've done. Jake and everyone else stared at me in shock.

"you know, this pack would do anything and accept their alpha no matter what. They've waited for a long time just for you, no doubt they will do everything they can to help you." Merideth spoke softly. "we would do everything we can."

I released Jake stepping back feeling sadness creeping in.

"do you really want me as alpha?" I asked with my head down. "do you really want an alpha such as me?" I lifted my head to stare at them all letting my emotional facade fall.

They gasped as they saw my eyes. I know well enough the girl they see now is different from the one they 'met'

over the years I've learned to show emotions even if I am not feeling it, I dont really feel it. Its my facade, my emotional facade so no one knows. The only one who knows what I'm really going throught, who I really am is Derek.

To everyone  else I seem pretty much normal, But when the facade is down I know very well what you see. eyes void of eny emotions that was shown.

no emotions at all.

They say that your eyes are the windows to your soul. My soul is broken, but I control it and make it so that what everyone else sees is an illusion created by me. I can make myself seem happy, it will even reach my eyes when all I feel is nothing.

"child...." Merideth came up to me putting her hands on my cheeks looking into my eyes. "do you really want an alpha such as me?" I repeated my question in my emotionless tone.

She flinched at my tone but still kept her hand on my cheeks. "what happened to you" She spoke tears coming to her eyes.

I just stared at her blankly not really feeling a thing, I didn't bother putting up my facade.

Suddely Merideth bust out crying hugging me. "your soul, its light has deemed, its fallen to darkness its broken." She whispered on my shoulder as tears ran down her face. "I know" I whispered to her staring at her blankly as she cried on my shoulder.

I looked around to see everyone watching our little exchange with sadness in their eyes.

"if I barely feel any emotions or care for anything than how can I run and care for a pack. I just cant." I shook my head at her as she pulled away.

They were all silent their eyes glazed over meaning they were speaking throught the mind link.

"you are quiet the trouble" Stone stated.

"and a mess" Merideth also stated.

I took that as my cue to leave. turning towards the door I was about to opened it but stopped as a hand covered mines on the nob.

"but that doesn't mean we won't try and help you." Jake said in a soft voice. I was shocked.

They were willing to risk, their pack, their lives and waste their time on me.

Trying to save me.

But am I willing to let them in?

I turned to look at Derek who was by me, he smiled nodding at me.

For the first time in years I was happy, I was truly happy.

For the first time in years I smiled, a real smile.

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