TW // Self-deprecation, heavy derogatory language

God!!!!! I'm awful!!!!! I'm so fucking ungrateful! I'm such a selfish self-absorbed little bitch!!!!

I fucking think about horrible things. I can't fucking help it. Why the fuck am I like this? I wasn't raised to be like this.

You don't even know the shit that goes on in my head. You don't know how selfish I actually am, because I don't share all that shit.

God. I wanna stop. Someone make me a better person, please.

I wanna just be a better person.