Hey guys....

I have some bad news. I don't know if you would consider it as bad news if you hate me though.

One thing, my depression was a lot better, but these past few days, it's worse than it was before. I'm almost always sad, and I can barely properly talk to people in my family, other than my sister. And I haven't told him how I'm feeling, but I'm pretty sure he picked up on it.

Another thing, I've noticed nobody really cares about my writings anymore, except for a few followers. It makes me not want to write anymore, makes me feel like it isn't worth it to share with the world what little I have to give. I'm tired of the same old stuff also. All I do is sleep, eat, read, write, and breath, besides going to school.

A third thing, him and I have, what I consider to be fighting, argued. It's not the playful fighting either, and I think we're falling apart, ripping at the seams, drowning in the hell we call life. I mean, I forgot his birthday, his birthday of all things! He tells me I'm not a terrible person, but I know he's lying. Yeah, I have terrible memory, but I could've at least remembered his birthday. And my memory is getting worse, I can't remember some of my teachers names, I forget some of my old friends, how I met them. I even forget how I met one of my bestfriends. I am a terrible human being.

Last thing, I hate myself, and I don't feel the need to life anymore. My mom keeps asking me what I want to do with my life, as in my job, and I don't know. I don't know what I want to do anymore. I hate drawing most of the time, and I don't really like writing.

Well, anyways, that's it.

Peace.

~ Her