Warning: This chapter may carry some heavy emotions that may not be suitable for everyone and it will also touch on some sensitive topics such as bullying and physical and emotional harm. Read at your own accord.

You started unzipping your dress at the side speedily as you didn't want to let room for your fears and doubts take over you and halt you from finally facing this moment and Jimin just looked at you with wide eyes till you slide it off till your waist.

Your hands travelled behind your back and you closed your eyes in order to find the courage and unbutton your bra in which you were left in but as soon as you felt the hook coming apart you felt a body hugging you from the front, his arms having reached to yours, stopping them from doing any further actions.

A shaky breath left your lips as you opened your eyes and you found yourself by the crook of his neck, his fast breathing soon becoming noticeable to you along with the slight trembling that seemed to have taken over your senses.

"It's my fault. I am sorry, I am truly sorry." He mumbled softly as he closed your bra again and pulled away to face you " I believe you, you don't have to do this baby. You don't have to prove anything like this." He held your hands in his as he tried to reassure you that it was not necessary for you to push yourself to do anything that you might dislike or regret just to assure him that you loved him.

"I should have never done this tonight. It's my fault. Let's just pretend it never happen, okay?" He grabbed the fabric of your dress and tried to make you wear it but you took hold of it and pushed it down, your cheeks flustered as being only with your bra on standing before him, sure required a big amount of confidence that as minutes ticked away, left its place to embarrassment despite the fact that he had done his best to look only at your eyes.

"Y/n you really don't have to. I know you love me. I swear I won't do anything rush again nor I will ever think that you may leave me, just, please..." He begged you with his gaze as he was feeling terribly guilty at the thought and only that his feelings earlier may have affected your decision and may have manipulated your actions in a way he was not expecting nor he ever intended to.

"The reason I am afraid of showing myself to you is also what was the last drop on my already overfilled glass on point in my life, Jimin." You blurted out in between shaky breaths and two hands that gripped against the fabric of your dress tightly, recalling one of your most fearful memories.

Your eyes looked away from him as soon as you managed to find the courage and speak of those words and he fell silent before you, agonizing over his thoughts of what he could to fix this moment and bring your emotions in a calmer state.

"Y/N-"

"I was bullied for a long time and there were moments that I grew numb to it. I got used to the situation and the treatment so much that I stopped giving them any satisfying reactions." You cut him off, as you closed your eyes tight and told yourself to go on, for who knows when you will ever find the courage to do so if you were to let him stop you tonight.

"So they started disliking that and one day after school...they..."You gulped down with difficulty as you opened your eyes, scared of that image being brought back in your head in a vivid way.

"They got a hold of me and took me to an abandoned room. They tied me on a chair and soaked me with cold water-"

"Babe, don't do this to yourself. You don't have to tell me if you are not ready, please it hurts." He cupped your cheeks and stared at your eyes in a soft manner and you couldn't help but feel loved under that gaze of his. You closed your eyes and leaned against the warmth of his touch, feeling more reassured and brave as the seconds ticked away.

"I wanna tell you. I want to fight it too. I want to overcome it with you. So please just hold me like this and keep making me believe that I have nothing to fear for you will accept me anyway." You let go of your dress and took hold of his shirt in a desperate manner and Jimin looked at you for a moment before accepting the fact that he could not hold you from going down this path that was so fearful for you.

"I will accept anything that is part of you Y/N. Because they will all be parts of the person I love." He let you hear what he thought that you needed to hear and you took a deep breath before going on with your story.

"They forcefully took my shirt off, they stripped my upper body without my consent and...they...made a cut on my chest." You admitted as your eyes got filled with tears that you could not hold back.

No matter how much you were trying to not bring in mind that day, it proved inevitable to do so as you had never felt more terrified and violated in your life. Their eyes on you still felt so disgusting, their waves of laughter still echoed in your nightmares. You had never felt more humiliated in your life than on that day. You had never faced a bigger despair as you were trying your best to free yourself from the ropes that were holding you and pull yourself back to your secure personal space, covered up and fully clothed. That day they had walked all over your feelings, they had walked all over your ego and pride and they had made you feel powerless. Enough to want to not take a breath more, enough to feel tired and scared enough to face anything and anyone included life itself.

They had surely crumbled over your confidence and your feelings many times before but none was like that day. The way you felt pathetic and worthless, dirty and terrorised. All the days you had told yourself to hang in there and just keep living by till this was over, all the days you ket quiet pretending to be strong because you didn't want to worry anyone else. All the times you had lied to Helena over the phone when she was to ask you if they were still bullying you or not. The smiles you used to pull in order to hide the fact that each day you were going deeper and deeper down the path of dark thoughts and the desperation to bring this all to an end for the pain was getting too much for you to handle. All those moments had brought you to the end and that event was what had basically pushed you with full force to make a decision you later came to regret.

For after that attempt to end your life and you moving away from that school, you came to understand many things. You came to realize that you should have not stayed and taken on something that was obviously too much for you, nor you should have tried to hide your feelings and let them build up till the point that you yourself lost control of them and they took the wheel of your life. You should have reached out to someone sooner since you had someone available for you. You should have opened up sooner and claim the situation as serious as it really was instead of speaking lightly of it. You should he communicated but you had not and that was one of the reasons why now you get so scared and worried when you see people you care about closing off.

But the worst part is that even now that you know the right thing, when it comes to your dark feelings, you still close the door and engulf yourself in loneliness reflexively. For it will always be difficult to act upon it logically because the mind is hard to be trusted when overwhelmed with feelings.

"I keep a sticking plaster on it always. No one would ever notice...unless I am fully naked." You added and Jimin proceeded to wipe your tears away with his fingers, his gaze looking at you softly before he leaned in and captured your lips slowly and sweetly.

You responded to the kiss, feeling your heartbeat thumbing against your ears out of anticipation of what he may say for all the things you confessed to him tonight.

"You are beautiful." He uttered against your lips as he pulled away, his eyes never leaving yours. 

You felt his hands travelling behind your back and you soon felt your bra getting loose. He pulled it off of you slowly and you let him do so, despite the nervousness that had taken over your mind and body and he took a step back after he had you half-naked before him and dared to lower his gaze. 

You felt your cheeks warming up out of embarrassment as he reached out his hand and hesitantly touched your right breast with his fingers, as he took hold of the medical sticking plaster that was covering your nipple and slowly pulled it off, leaving you looking at him with widened eyes as your breath halted in your throat.

"Let me fix the ugly memories that this wound may hold for you. I will replace every memory with a better one. I will cover whatever you see in yourself as ugly with my love. Till you realise that you have no physical flaw."He spoke as he stepped closer, his hand travelling down your body to your waistline.

"Because through my eyes I see no ugliness in you Y/N. All the things that you told me, all the things that make you afraid that they may have an impact on my view for you. All those things are powerless thoughts before the truth. For if anything has changed after what you said, that is my respect and admiration for you that it grew even more. My brave girl." He smiled sweetly as he tilted his head and looked into your eyes with the same loving gaze he had done till today to not say more and you couldn't help but feel shaken but simultaneously relieved that he had proved wrong your overthinking and torturous scenarios and thoughts.

You left your lips to break into a smile as you threw yourself in his embrace, feeling fully comfortable and reassured under his warmth for if there were times that you had claimed to trust him but never managed to do so fully, at this very moment you did. He was here to stay and you were not gonna become just one more girl that passed by in his life. He was here to love you as much as he could and in any way he could, for he claimed that he loved you and at this moment you couldn't help but feel his sincerity.

"I trust you. You can paint over my memories with whatever colour you want." You uttered right before you dared to claim his lips passionately and he didn't hesitate to bring you closer and turn you around, making you take some steps backwards till you fell on his bed with him still kissing you as his body hovered above yours.

"I will colour you with my love then, my good girl."

---To be continued...

(DON'T ASK ME HOW IT WENT TO THIS! I don't know either! The story just took me and I feel a bit awkward not gonna lie but yeah XD I should apologize to my characters for stepping on their privacy XD.  I will stay in my line dear characters don't worry XD )

Ps: This is the steamier you will ever get so don't expect anything more. Pheww time to move on~

Hope you enjoyed it ~ See you in the next chapter~