Why did I have to say that?

How could I have been so dumb?

I pushed him too hard,

I made myself feel numb.

I hate saying the wrong things,

I seem to do it a lot.

Now he hasn't replied.

It's like he is putting me on the spot.

I feel horrible, stupid, sad and depressed.

Why did I have to become so obsessed?

Someone like him could never love someone like me.

I turned my dreams into a reality.

Now my reality is gone,

And the pain seeps through

My pores, my skin,

All because of freaking YOU.

You're so attractive,

In the face and in the mind,

You took my darkness,

And you tossed it behind.

But it's alive again and ready

To beat me up,

To cut up my heart

To tear out my love.