Meera's POV

I'm not feeling good!! Honestly I'm not.

Don't know why it feels as if heart is feeling an ache. I don't know why that's happening. It has never happened. An unknown ache is there. I want to scream and cry.

I really want to hug someone and cry my heart out !!

After doing breakfast I came upstairs and I saw my phone ringing.
Divi !!

"Hello Meeru. How are you. How's life going on" she said and tears pooled my eyes.

"Divi..." I whispered controlling my tears.

"Meeru.. What happened. Are you okay" She said

"No" I said controlling my tears.

"Meera...what happened" she asked concerened

"I.. I'm giving divorce to him" I said and she gasped

"What are you saying Meera. Two days before you were telling me that you want to give chance to this relationship and now..what happened. Tell me.. did he do something." She asked and I narrated everything what happened.

"Damn him!!  I swear I'll break his face Meera and rip his hands away. How dare he say anything like that to you... and how dare he do that. I'll not leave him. I'm coming NY and I'll take you with me and tell me are you mad ?  Where's that Meera who wasn't afraid of anyone. Why didn't you punch him?  How can you cut your wrist Meera? " she shouted and I wiped my tears.

"I.. I don't know. I thought as if I've failed. I couldn't think of anything else.." I said

"I'm coming there. I'll not let you live with that moron" she yelled 

"No Divi. I'm already giving divorce to him. I'll.. I'll not come back to India right now" I said

"Are you out of your mind Meera. Where the hell will you go" she asked shouting

She'll make me deaf!

"I.. I don't know. I'll  not come to India before final exams. I don't want to hurt uncle and aunty giving them a sudden shock. Media too will not be knowing about this right now. I don't want to panic aunty in any way giving her a sudden shock" I said and she huffed

"Fine!! So once again you'll hide what their great son did to you from them just because you can't see aunty and uncle sad. Will you ever think of yourself Meera? " she shouted

"I thought of myself only Divya and that's why I'm taking divorce from him." I said

"Meera. How you'll stay alone. What you'll do" She asked concerned

"I'll do any job... which will be work from home.. I mean which will not reveal my face and anything. I'll come for final exams to India and that time only I'll tell uncle nd aunty everything" I said

"You're doing so much just for a surname Malhotra!! And what did that Abeer Malhotra did!! " she snapped angrily

"I miss you Divya" I said crying

"I miss you more and I want to punch that man so hard that I can't explain" she said

"I...I started liking him Divi. I thought everything will be normal. But my fate has no happiness written in it. Whenever I try being happy worst happens" I sobbed

" Meeru. Don't cry. It wasn't your mistake at all. He did mistake and will regret it. " she said

Is he really regretting!
Should I believe him?

"Now he's showing so much care that nothing is more important to him then me. How much he fakes. I.. I hate him Divi" I said crying

"Meera. You're strong. You're not weak...You'll not waste your tears for someone who's not worthy of it. Understand. By the way you know right that you're being diplomatic. You like him..but you hate him  "She said

"I can't stop liking him.. but I hate him for doing this" I whispered

I can never deny that I like him!!

I still do!  But I don't know why I'm not able to give him a chance!! 

I'm not a stone hearted person then why I'm doing this!!!

May be he'll also be happy after leaving me.. Afterall we were bounded with eachother force fully!!!

Better he'll be happy!!

"Meeraa.. are you there"  came Divi's voice

"Hmm. I love you and I miss you.  I'll see you soon" I said

"I miss you more. And don't worry. God knows best. Everything will be fine soon." She replied

"Yeah.. Take care Bye" I said and hanged up.

He came and told me to take my medicines.

I don't understand that why he's like this!!  Why he still needs to do all this when we're parting our ways. 

Advik was here. I looked at him and went out of the room. I went downstairs in guest room and saw Advik and Naina.

No homestaff was here right now. No one except we all.. Joseph and Scarlett aunty will know about this.

She came and hugged me while I passed her a short smile.

"How are you now" she asked

"I'm good" I said and she nodded

"Meera.. child think nicely. Such decisions should not be taken in haste." said Scarlett aunty

"Meera.. Are you really sure" Advik asked me and I nodded.

I can never be fully ready for this!  But I can't ever tell anyone this!

"Advik..  I can't handle his anger issues and his unnecessary  possessiveness.... " I said

I really can't!
May be I can't!

Can't I?

Stop struggling with your thoughts Meeraaa!!!!!!!

There was complete silence. I know we all are in a situation where we aren't able to speak much!

I myself don't know what's happening with me.
I'm feeling sad and want to cry when this is my decision only.

"Meera.. I'm a lawyer. In my life I've seen many cases. I'm not in this department still I've seen hearings in family courts. Marriages take place and there only marriages breaks. Marrying is easy, Divorcing is easy but what's challenging is upholding the marriage or upholding yourself after divorce. These both are difficult. Divorce takes place. But trust me it isn't that easy. I've seen homes breaking in that court room. People breaking in that court...and it's really painful and hurting. " Advik said and I looked at the floor.

For the first time in my life I'm so unsure about my own decision. I don't know what life is holding for me but right now I'm not able to hold myself properly. What I'll hold anyone else in my life!!!

"I know whatever happened was wrong. Very wrong. But he regrets it. He regrets each and every word he said you. And I'm sure this divorce.. that's for your happiness only otherwise I know my best friend this much.. that he's close to very few people but those few people means world to him.. You are in that small world of him! And it isn't easy for him to let you go" he said and I looked at him.

Fake hopes!!

"I don't think so Advik. He'll be happy by this. This marriage was forced on both of us and he always wanted to get rid of it. That's why may be he's ready for a mutual divorce. Otherwise you too know your stubborn friend. He gets what he wants right!! He would've filed a case. He didn't " I said and he sighed.

So did you wanted him to do so? 
Oh Come on Meera don't be so much confused!!!

"Meera.. what if he really did this for you" said aunty and I looked at her.

"Don't give me fake hopes please. You know I didn't expect anything in this marriage at first... But then things changed....I thought we can also have a future.. I.. I started expecting and there everything crashed. You all know what.. still if I think something good that he did.. Whatever happened that night breaks everything.. I'm broken apart and I myself is not in that state to collect my broken pieces and stand up. I'm not! If I'll live in this marriage this all will happen again and I'm not that much strong" I said while a tear escaped my eye.

They all looked at me with sympathy but I don't want any sympathy. Never!!  Not at all!!

"Don't look sympathetically at me. I don't want you all to look like that at me.. I just want peace and I'll get that by this only. Aunty trust me I wouldn't have done this ever but he didn't left me with any option.He has his own issues and I have mine. His anger is unjustified and I can't bear that" I said and she nodded looking down and then looked at Advik who sighed and clenched his fists!

Are..they hiding something!

I don't want any fake hopes now. I know he also don't want to be in this relationship. I see him only with rage and anger. I see him hurting me!!

How can I forgive him so easily. Even if I want I can't!!

"Is there something you're hiding Advik" I asked and he looked at me and then at Naina.

Before Advik could say anything there was someone on the main door.

"Good afternoon Mr. Khanna " she wished

"Good afternoon Mrs. Collins " he wished back and looked at me.

"Meera she's Mrs. Collins ! The judge of Family court" He introduced and she shook her hand with me.

"Meera.. Malhotra" I said.

I've to leave this surname forever!! 

I'll no longer be his wife!

I'll no longer be Mrs. Meera Abeer Malhotra.

 It really hurts!!

God!!  I don't know what I'm doing is right or not.Today I leave it upto you. Divi says that God knows best!!  You know what's best!!  Do that!!

"Mrs. Collins " she told and I nodded

"So you and Mr. Malhotra filed a mutual divorce. That means no need for any hearings and all. Mr.  Khanna are the papers ready? " She asked and Advik looked at me.

"Yeah.. but Mrs. Collins remember that it should be only between us. Media should not get even the hint of this" Advik said and she nodded

"Before signing the papers I would like to talk with the couple" she said and I nodded.

Advik called him and soon he came.

We three went to the office room and I started fidgeting with my fingers.

"Have a seat" he said to Mrs. Collins and then gestured me to sit.

"So Mr. Malhotra the reason of you want to divorce your wife" she asked and he looked at me.

What reason he'll give?

"We.. we aren't compatible with each other " he said and I looked at him.

That's true. We aren't compatible with each other and maybe we'll never be!
How much I hope we would've been!!!

"Mrs. Malhotra? " she asked me

"Same reason" I replied

"Do you both want to give a try to your marriage once " She asked

"No" He said instantly and I looked at him.

And there downstairs they all were saying me that he's doing this for me!  How clearly it's visible that for whom he's doing all this!!

I can see how much you want to be free from this namesake relation Abeer and don't worry.. It will happen soon!!

"You Mrs. Malhotra"she asked me

" No" I whispered.

Of course No. Not when he is so eager and impatient to leave me.

"Mr. Malhotra what financial settlements you're doing" she asked Abeer and I looked at her

"I don't want any. I'm not a gold digger..who's there for money" I said looking at him while he looked at me sighing.

"I'm 70% share holder of my company, So I'll be passing my 40% shares on her name" he told and I looked shocked at him

"I think you didn't listen to me" I said

"I did and I hope you listened what I said" he replied calmly

"Are you mad. Do you even know what you're saying..That's your hardwork and I can't take it." I said looking unbelievably at him

Is he mad or what!!!  He has done so much hardwork for what he's today and he wants to give all this to me!!! This idiot human being!!

"I know what I'm doing Meera" he said

"No. You don't know. You're mad. How can you give your hardly earned to someone just like that" I scolded

"You're not someone!!You're my wife !  " He replied and I looked shocked at him

"No. I'm not taking a single penny from you" I stated

"Meera. Stop being stubborn please" He said

"I'm not stubborn here. You're!! I'll not let you do this. " I told

"Wow!  Amazing" Said Mrs. Collins looking at us and smiled.

We both looked at her blinking our eyes.

"You know.. I've seen people fighting for this thing in court for increasing the concessions and here I'm for the first time seeing a couple who's ready to take divorce and fighting for not taking the concession and one who's willing to give more than half of his shares. Amazing.. and still you both say you aren't compatible " she said looking at both of us and we looked towards each other.

"Sometimes reasons are much more bigger..." I said

"And happiness matters" He added

Who's happiness he's talking about!! 
Of course his!!

"I'm not taking anything from him Mrs. Collins . I don't want any single favor from him and still if he's not ready then tell him to donate them to some NGO. I'm an independent woman. I can earn for myself. I don't need favors and sympathy" I said and she nodded.

"Anything else Mr. Malhotra" She asked

"No" He replied

"Okay. Come then. Papers are with Mr. Khanna . Sign them" she said and we nodded.

"You'll be legally divorced in two days " she added moving out of the office room while I looked at him.

His eyes are teary!!

Yes they are!! I can't deny that!!

But the next instant he closed his eyes and nothing was there when he opened his eyes again.

"Thankyou and sorry Meera. Thankyou for coming in my life... and sorry for ruining your life. I've said you words. Words since start which you never deserved. I know you won't believe it, but I'm ashamed of myself for saying you every single word. You're..the richest person I've ever seen. You've a heart of gold. My whole life will be less to say you sorry, yet it would never be enough. Still, if possible please forgive me Vrinda. For every word I said. For every thing I did " he whispered and went out of the room leaving me in shock!!

I.. I don't know what to do.

I turned around and walked out of the room  downstairs wiping my tears.

My mind is playing with me now!! 

I'm not able to think one way. I saw papers in Abeer's hand and a pen too!!

"Mr. Malhotra sign them" Said Mrs. Collins and he nodded looking at me constantly for minutes while I looked everywhere but not him.

I know I'll cry right now if I do so and I don't want to show him at all that it affects me!! 

It's affecting me badly!!!!!

I lied him that his presence suffocates me... but I can't deny that his presence affects me very badly in a very different way!!! May be which shouldn't!!

And there......He signed the papers!!

"Mrs. Meera " Said Mrs. Collins gesturing me to sign the papers.

I took the pen from Abeer with trembling hands and was about to sign when my phone buzzed.

I looked at the screen.

Dev Uncle..
Yeah I didn't change dad's  name still in my phone.

But why he's calling.

God!! Did he know about this!! But how!!!

I can't cut his call right now , but how I'll talk to him right now!!

Luckily the call got cut.

But once again it rang!! I stood up and looked at the phone in my hand.

Calm down Meera and pick the call!!

I picked it up.

"Hello" I answered and suddenly my hands started trembling and tears pooled my eyes!!

The phone fell from hand and the pen too..  and I fell on the couch with a thud.

Aunty!!!!!!!!!

No No No !! God No !!!

Nothing should happen to her!!

Please God. I beg you !!

Nothing should happen to her !!!

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