Meera's POV

He's questioning me. I thought things are changing for good...but this is no good. This is getting worse. He's not in his senses at all. His anger is so freaking high that it can burn anything or anyone coming in it's way...and is that anger justified?

Not at all. His possessiveness is not right. He is claiming me as a card when he can't. This is not a game which will run his way. This is life. My life and I'll decide what I've to do and what not.

You can't smile for much time Meera. You have pain and tears written in your fate.

Why the hell these eyes always betray me...my vision was becoming blur but I'll not let these tears fall. I'll not show him my weakness.

I'll not show him that I'm getting affected. I'm done with this. Today if I'll bow down in front of him then I can never stand with face up.

Today he's wrong and he has to realize this. He has to realize that this possessiveness is not right. He has to realize that he's not right. I'm not that weak.

You're not weak Meera. You're brave. They always said that you're brave.

I'll be brave till it comes to anything but my self respect. I'll not die easily...I'll die the day when my self respect will die...

I jerked his hand and opened my eyes and without looking at him turned around to go to my room. I'll not live with this man now.

I'm sorry mom and dad. I tried...but I failed !

I winced as my hand was hurting and his eyes softened a little.

But no. Now I'll not come in this trap!!!

  I'll not look into those eyes which betray me. His eyes are hypnotizing and if I'll fall into those eyes I'll loose myself and this battle. I'll not come in your trap Abeer Malhotra .

"Stop. Where are you trying to go. You still didn't answer my question. And you can't go without answering me"  He said and without looking at him I replied him.

"I don't owe you any explanations and I'll not give any answer. Do whatever you want to do" I told and continued walking on stairs.

"So it means you really enjoyed hugging him and enjoyed your cheeks being pulled by him. " he said from behind but I didn't pay attention and continued climbing steps.

I don't want to enter this fight. I don't want to say him anything bad right now. It will just become more worst if I'll loose my temper!
And once I loose it I myself don't know what I will say and what I'll do.

God please stop him before I say anything which hurt both of us because I myself don't know that what will be the consequences of it.

"That's the reason you didn't stop him from touching you right..You loved his touch right!! So you accept that you're a whore" he shouted and I stopped walking while tears came in my eyes.

Wow. So he thinks so great of me!! Disgusting !!

The most disgusting thing. How can he even think of saying this again .

I turned towards him and looked at him.

"What did you say right now" I asked as tears spilled out of my eyes!

"You're a whore...aren't you. You didn't reply me means you don't have any explanation..and that proves you like being touched by him" he accused

That's enough!!  More than Enough.

The hell I care now.

  Let's fight...if you want so !!!

Let's over this for once and all.

"So you think I'm a slut right. A whore who roam here and there letting everyone touch me or in your words enjoying everyone's touch right when in your words I've a so called husband. " I said glaring him as more tears came out of my eyes.

Can't you stop coming out of eyes for once!!!

He didn't say anything!!

"You hugged him and he pinched your cheeks too" he said again and I looked at him

"Yes I hugged him and he pinched my cheeks. And if you think this as a work of whore or slut then wait who you're?? A man whore who've fucked up God knows how many girls. Who've slept with don't know how many girls.  " I shouted and he looked at me.

"Don't go into that Meera" he warned

"Why. Why shouldn't I? When you can question my character then why shouldn't I ??? Everyone in this world knows that how great past you've. Everyone knows about your everyday a new fling and every one night stand!!  You had one night stand with God knows how many women before our marriage and one minute who knows even after our marriage. Who knows you might be fucking anyone in your office.. In your clubs or your hotels" I shouted

"Don't say anything like this Meera if you don't know anything" he yelled 

"Why?? Why shouldn't I huh. You listened me? No. You knew the whole thing? No!!. You have an amazing history in this all. But I respected this marriage at least. I never taunted you on this. You accused my upbringing.. You accused my parents but then too I never said this all. I never wanted to dig that but you!! You're accusing me for what I've not even done. Do you even know what's the meaning of slut...Do you have a slight idea how much it hurts to listen this word. You judged me just because I hugged a man. I never left this mansion after that day again but you here are accusing me as a whore!!!" I yelled on my peak

"Meera..." He was going to say when I stopped him

"He hugged me and I hugged him back and you've problem in this.I've married you Abeer Malhotra it doesn't mean that I'll stop hugging my friends. It doesn't mean I'll stop talking to my male friends just because you're unnecessarily possessive and jealous. It's so great na...if a man do all this he hit the floor..and if we girls do this we're tagged as whore. Wow !!
His bike was hit by your car but he still didn't say a word. It wasn't that I was kissing him there" I yelled and he looked angrily at me

"Don't you even dare to.." He warned and I looked at him

"I will...and wait..you consider him as my boyfriend right...fine he's.. And you know what I liked when he hugged me...I liked when he pinched my cheeks" I shouted and he glared me deadly coming towards me and dug his nails into my arm.

Arrgh!! It pains!!!

"What did you just say" he asked tightening his hold

"It's hurting Abeer" I winced

"It will much more. What did you say right now. You liked his touch" he shouted

"Yes I liked it" I shouted back

Indeed his touch was not inappropriate. His touch was friendly and brotherly. Not at least this disgusting one which I'm feeling right now!

The next I know was he pulled me towards him and it looked at he was about to kiss me when I pushed him with all my force and he looked at me.

"You liked his touch right. Do you have price tag too " he said looking angrily at me and I looked at him with tears in my eyes

"I'm not a material" I shouted

"You're mine and I'll make you understand this today " he raged

"That's you Abeer Malhotra who can never understand people and feelings because you never knew that money can't buy everything. Money can buy people but not me. You can't buy me...you don't owe me. Do you understand that. You are a money minded person. Having money in this world is not enough Abeer Malhotra..I'm not a purchasing item that you'll buy me with a price tag. I'm a human" I exploded but today everything was in vein.

He came more near to me and picked me up.

"Abeer leave me." I shouted

"Today I'll tell you who I'm" he shouted back

"Abeer..leave me.  Put me down" I cried

"Let me give you the punishment of liking someone's touch then I'll leave you" he said

"Abeer leave me" I sobbed while throwing punches on his back but it went unaffected.

"Abeer..please leave me" I shouted when I saw him opening his room.

I was agonizing as a fish taken out from water.

He threw me forcefully on bed.

"Arghh!!!" I shrieked

He looked at me with anger.

"You liked his touch right" he asked and I looked at hitouch" he raged

No this isn't going right way. I have to stop him!!!

"Abeer stop else I'll call mom" I warned and he looked at me smirking

"And what will you say her huh...isn't her heart too weak" He said and I looked at him shocked.

He's taking advantage of this!!
How low can he stoop!!!

"Trust me Meera, today you're going to regret hugging that man " he said as he curled up the sleeves of his shirt 

How can he forget that I'm his wife not any entertainer. How can he do this!!

"Abeer stop it please" I shouted

He looked angrily at me and walked more close to bed whereas I was going more back and back and met the end of the bed.

"You were wrong in hugging him Meera! You were! I just want you to admit that" He stated and I denied

"I wasn't!" I yelled and he glared coming more closer to me

"Abeer...please" I said tears flowing through my eyes.

"You did very bad Today Meera. You'll regret it" he threatened

Was it a punishment for me to hug a friend merely. He's punishing me for something which is not even a crime.

"Abeer you're doing wro..wrong" I said

"You did it first" he gritted while I looked away.

He came more closer to me and I know what's going to happen.

I know what's on stake.
I know he's a monster who'll eat me .

That's my life. That's written in my life. Whenever I think happiness will come what I get is more sorrows...and this time I was ready to keep my heart at bay and it had shattered.

I thought he has changed but no he has shown what he's. I thought to give a chance to this relationship but everything vanished in seconds.

What am I to him. A puppet!!

A puppet to run on his words.

Don't I have my self respect. I have Abeer Malhotra!! And that's everything for me.

"Abeer please don't come near me I'm warning you for the last time" I shrieked and he smirked

"Why does my touch disgust you? His didn't ? I want to know why Meera!! Why!!! Am I not good enough for you " he shouted and tears fell down my eyes.

He didn't stop there and came more close me.

My self respect was on stake and I won't let it happen anything even if I've to sacrifice myself.

The most important thing in this world is your self respect. If your self respect is snatched from you,you die from inside. You become a body without soul. Never ever let anyone take your self respect away from you. It's either you or the person in front.

And today I can't do anything to him...reasons are many. Some justified and some unjustified. Better let me myself get out of this.

Thinking this I took the knife from fruit basket and cut my right hand's wrist...

May be That's how my life had to end.

I'm sorry. I couldn't complete my promises.

Everything went blank but before closing my eyes I looked at him who was shocked like anything, with only disgust in my eyes.

"I Regret Marrying a monster like you Abeer Malhotra" I whispered disgustingly and darkness surrounded me.

I didn't let anything happen to my self respect.

But I'm not coward.

I fought and fought but I lost.

Goodbye !

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Heart wrenching... I know. It was for me too while writing. Meera has cut her wrist. Will she survive? Even if she survives will she ever forgive Abeer.

Will Abeer realize what he has done. Many questions unfolded... Many to be revealed...

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