Warning/ R-18

No matter how much I convince myself not to be affected, my feelings only grow stronger. For three years without seeing him, I thought I was just scared that he would take my children away, but no. I'm scared of my own feelings for him because even now, my heart is still the same, still beating for him. It's far from what I felt with Zaiden.

To be honest, Zaiden was a challenge for me because I was the one chasing him. I fell in love with him because of what he did for me in the past. He protected me like he was my shining armor, which is why I was so eager to know him. In the process, I became obsessed with catching his attention. I didn't know that the night with Zairon would leave me feeling confused.

May kaibahan kaya naguguluhan na ako pero dahil hindi pumasok sa aking isip na may kambal ang Professor, akala ko talaga ay mas lalo lamang dumagdag ang nararamdaman ko.

When I heard that he got a girlfriend three years ago, I took it to heart but I let it be, especially when I found out more about him. I didn't do anything because I was pushing him away.

I've realized that obsession and love are different, and I know that what I'm feeling for him now is genuine. However, I'm hurting because someone is about to take him away from me. It's all my fault. Lagi ko siyang tinataboy dahil hindi ko magawang tanggapin sa sarili kong may nararamdaman na ako sa kaniya.

Bumibigat ang dibdib ko habang naglalakad ako sa loob ng Mansiyon at kada hakbang ko ay pumapasok ang mga negative scenario sa utak ko.

Inisa isa ko ang mga kwarto ng Mansiyon at mabuti na lang ay walang tao sa loob maliban sa akin until I reach a room where my heart almost stops. Hindi na ako nagdadalawang isip pang buksan ang pinto kahit na alam kong may makikita akong hindi ko magustuhan.

I froze when I saw the woman on top of him only wearing underwear while Zairon was closing his eyes but I saw how his hand was pushing the woman to get away from him.

“I know you want this too, doctor. I'll make sure that you enjoy our night.” Malanding saad ng babae.

Huminga ako ng malalim at humakbang palapit sa kanila. Galit lamang ang nararamdaman ko ngayon at kung tama ako ng hinala, Ininom niya ang drugs na iyon. Drugs kung saan ay init ng katawan lamang ang nararamdaman niya at ayokong i take advantage lang ng babaeng ‘to si Zairon.

I know I messed up back then but I realized my mistake and when I face someone who did like what I did years ago, I feel how it truly hurts when the man you want is being pulled away by someone else.

He was about to kiss him when I found myself grabbing her hair and throwing her on the floor. Nagulat ito sa ginawa ko at tiningnan akong nanlalaki ang mata. “W-what.. who are you?!”

Ngumisi ako. “Me? I'm the girl who will put you in your place. Napagdaanan ko na ‘yang ginawa mo kaya huwag mo akong hahamunin.”

The woman scrambled to her feet. Gulat at pagkapahiya ang nakarehistro sa kaniyang mukha. "You have no right to do that!" she shouted, pointing an accusing finger at me.

I laughed and the sound was bitter. "Oh, I have every right," I retorted. "And I won't let you or anyone touch him."

She laughed with a harsh mocking sound. "And you think you can stop me? Pareho ka lang naman rin sa ibang babae, pinagsasaan lang siya!"

Tumawa ako ng peke at nginisian siya. "Hindi mo sure?"

I turned to Zairon, who was still lying on the bed, his eyes half-open. "Zairon, are you okay?" I asked.

He tried to sit up, but his movements were sluggish. "Laurene?" he mumbled, looking at me with confusion in his eyes.

"Yes, it's me," I said, reaching out to help him.

“Who are you? Why are you touching him?!”

I glared at the woman. “Titigil ka o ako mismo ang magpapatahimik sayo? Gusto mo bang putulin ko ang dila mo at ipakain sa aso? Don't ever come to Zairon again kung ayaw mong isumbong kita!”

Sinamaan niya  ako ng tingin. “You don't know me!”

Ngumisi ako at hinarap siya.”I've done a bit of research on you, Derinza Bridget Salchez. You target most of the wealthy men at the university, including two of the professors there. You probably know that Dr. Gavilan is wealthy, which is why you planned to seduce and drug him. Is that enough to know you?" Halukipkip kong sagot.

Gulat na gulat siya sa sinabi ko at hindi na makapagsalita. “If you ask me why I know it, sanay na akong mang stalk ng mga taong interesting sa paningin ko at interesado ako sayo simula ng buntot ng buntot ka kay Zairon. Kung ayaw mong ikalat ko ang nalalaman ko, umalis ka na sa harap ko.”

When I saw her talking to Zairon in the parking lot, nagresearch agad ako sa kaniya at hindi ko naman alam na ganito siya ka gold digger. I'm just curious but at the same time, I dig deeper into her background para gamitin sa kaniya.

"She's right, you have no business here. Please leave," sabat ni Zairon.

I was shocked when I heard Zairon behind me. Wait, how can he manage to act as if nothing happened?

Umalis ang babae nang mabilis habang ako ay napalingon kay Zairon na ngayon ay makatingin rin sa akin.

“How?”

Wala siyang reaksiyon pero nagsalita pa rin siya. “What?”

“Did you drink what she gave to you earlier?”

“Yes.” Walang pag alinlangan niyang sagot.

“Then, how did you manage to act like nothing’s wrong with you?”

“You saw it?” Marahan akong napatango.

“Did you feel something? You got drugs, Zairon.. that's–” he managed a small smile when he saw how worried I was.

“The drug is still on my system now, Laurene but I managed to control myself because I'm used to drinking such drugs.”

Hindi ako mapaniwala sa sinagot niya. “Many women drugged you back then?”

Mapait siyang ngumiti. “No, my grandpa did that in the past. He wanted me to sleep with the different women he always introduced to me, but I managed not to even touch them," Nakita kong napapikit siya ng mata at namumula na rin ang mukha niya. The drugs are consuming his body.

“But this will be my first time to touch someone if you won't leave me alone, Laurene.” Nahihirapan niyang dagdag nang bumukas ang kaniyang mata at lumayo na lamang sa akin.

I watched as he stumbled away, the drug clearly taking effect. My heart clenched at the sight.

"Zairon," I called out, rushing to his side. He flinched away from me  but I didn't let him. I gently took his arm and guided him to sit down on the edge of the bed.

"You should leave," his voice strained.

"No, I'm not leaving you like this," I said firmly.

He gave me a weak smile. "You're stubborn," he said with barely a whisper.

"And you're foolish," I retorted, trying to lighten the mood. But my heart was heavy.

I looked at him, and really looked at him. His face was pale and his eyes glazed over. But underneath all that, I saw the man I've been denying my feelings for. The man who, despite everything, I cared for more than I could put into words.

“I just want you to leave, Laurene. Hindi mo lang alam kung.. paano ako nagpipigil na huwag kang galawin ngayon. Huwag mo na akong pahirapan pa.”

I bite my lower lip and touch his cheek habang nakaupo ako sa gilid niya. Para siyang napaso nang maramdaman niya ang kamay ko. Lumayo siya agad at umiling.

“Please.. ayokong magalit ka na naman sa’kin. Ayokong pagtabuyan mo na naman ako.”

My heart aches at the sight. He was suffering, but he was still thinking about me. I couldn't leave him like this, not when he needed someone. Someone might try to take advantage of the situation.

"Don't worry, Zairon," I said softly, reaching out to touch his cheek again. "I won't get mad. I won't push you away. Not this time."

His eyes widened in surprise, but he didn't pull away. He just stared at me filled with mixed emotions.

"Laurene," he started, but I felt his hand grabbing my wrist to get closer to him. Napapansin kong bumibilis ang paghinga niya at napapalunok habang nakatingin sa akin. Namumungay na rin ang kaniyang mga mata. Lumunok siya at parang nag iingat siyang makasabi ng mali ngunit natatalo pa rin siya.

“I.. I want you, Laurene.”

I bit my lip and wet it. My body is reacting even though I'm not the one who took drugs. Pinipilit kong huwag magpadala dahil naiisip kong baka bumalik ang babae kanina. I flinched when he started kissing the back of my hands until he kissed my arms. Unti-unti siyang lumalapit habang hinahalikan ang balat ko hanggang sa umabot ang kaniyang halik sa balikat ko. Nalalaya niyang nahahalikan iyon dahil sa suot ko.

Pumwesto siya sa likod ko at hinawi ang buhok ko upang makita niya ng maayos ang leeg ko. Dinaos-dos niya ang kaniyang kamay sa aking tiyan hanggang umabot ito sa aking dibdib. He started to squeeze it while his tongue licked my neck. Licking, sucking, and meanwhile kissing it. I couldn't complain because I liked what he was doing. I miss this kind of touch from him.

Rinig ko ang paghinga niya sa tenga ko at mas lalo lamang na lumukob ang init na nararamdaman ko.

“Damn. I miss tasting you, Laurene. I just hope that this is not one of my dirty dreams.” Namamaos niyang sambit at walang tigil sa paglamas ng dibdib ko kahit na may damit pa akong suot.

“You.. dream of me?” May halong ungol na tanong ko.

Pinaharap niya ako sa kaniya at malambing niya akong hinalikan sa pisngi bago niya ako tiningnan ulit sa mga mata.

“Every day, Laurene. Everyday that I wish to touch you, again. To feel you and to kiss every part of you.” Habang sinasabi niya ito, dahan-dahan niyang hinaplos ang aking labi gamit ang kanyang hinlalaki. Naramdaman ko ang pagbilis ng tibok ng puso ko.

“Can I kiss you, please?” Nagsusumamo niyang sabi habang nakatingin sa aking labi. Parang may kuryente na dumadaloy sa buong katawan ko sa tuwing tinitingnan niya ako.

I was about to answer him when he suddenly shook his head. “No, I can't do it.” Hindi ko alam kung bakit biglang nagbago ang kanyang isip.

Biglang pumalit ang pagtataka sa mukha ko. “Zairon?” Tinanong ko, hindi alam kung anong nangyayari.

Tumayo na lamang siya bigla at lumayo sa akin. Lumapit siya papunta sa pintuan palabas. Nakikita kong pinipigilan niya lang ang sarili niya dahil sa paraan ng pagkuyom ng kaniyang kamao.

“I don't want to touch you because of these goddàmn drugs,” he faced me with his lustful eyes but he managed to look away. “Kahit hindi ako nakainom ng ganito, malaki pa rin ang epekto mo sa akin, napakalaki at mas lamang pa sa pèsteng drugs na ‘to.”

Naramdaman ko ang sobrang saya sa sinabi niya. Hindi ko alam pero natutuwa ako na sinabi niya ito sa akin. Ngumiti ako at tumayo na rin.

“Okay, but I won't leave you here. Maraming babaeng gusto ka at baka malapa ka pa nila.” Sabi ko habang nakangiti.

“You will send me home?” Tanong niya, parang hindi makapaniwala.

Lumapit ako sa kaniya pero hindi ko naman siya hinawakan at dumiretso sa pintuan.

“Yes, I can drive. Where's your key?” Tanong ko sa kaniya habang nakatayo sa harap ng pintuan.

“Wait. Ako dapat ang maghahatid sayo.” Sabi niya, parang nag-aalala

I just raised my eyebrow. “Ayaw mo?”

Napakagat na lamang siya ng labi na parang pinipigilan na mag protesta. His eyes were clouded with a mix of frustration and helplessness, his jaw clenched tightly. It was clear that he was struggling with something.

“Fuck, I can’t even say no to you,” he muttered, his voice barely more than a whisper. He fumbled around in his pocket, his movements clumsy and uncoordinated. It was obvious that he was disoriented, so I reached out to help him, immediately regretting my decision.

“Damn it,” he cursed, startling me. I had only touched his pants, but it seemed to have a significant effect on him. His body stiffened, and he swiftly pulled away from my touch.

Pigil hininga kong inaabot ang susi dahil kahit magbulag-bulagan ako, masyadong porma ang alaga niya sa kaniyang pantalon. Namumukol iyon at kahit siguro takipan ay mahahalata.

"You're really a big tease, Laurene," he suddenly said. Naging mas seryoso ang kanyang mukha. Ang kanyang mga mata ay nagpapakita ng halo-halong damdamin - pagnanais, frustrasyon, at baka kaunting kasiyahan.  His lips, which were soft when he kissed me, were now tight, showing he was trying to control his feelings. His gaze was still intense, but there was a change in it.

Nataranta ako at iniiwasan na lamang na tumingin sa kaniya. Bumaling nalang ako sa pintuan at hinawakan ang doorknob ngunit maramdaman ko nalang na lumapat ang likod ko sa pintuan at mahigpit siyang napahawak sa baywang ko. Kinulong na niya ako at sobrang lapit na naming dalawa.

“Z-zairon..” I stuttered, kinakaban ako pero hindi naman ako takot, na e-excite ako. Walanghiya!

"This is the first time I can't control my body when you're around, Laurene," bulong niya sa aking tenga na nagpalunok sa akin ng malalim.

Naramdaman ko ang kanyang mga labi na bumababa sa aking leeg. Sinimulan niyang sipsipin ito at sinubukan kong pigilan ang aking sarili mula sa pag-ungol. Tumaas ang kanyang kamay at hinawakan ang aking kaliwang dibdib at minasahe ito.

Tumigil lamang siya sa paghalik nang umabot ang kanyang mga labi sa gilid ng aking labi. His look was fixed on mine, filled with a strong passion that was hard to overlook. His eyes were deep and intense and felt like they could see right into me that awakening a sensation deep inside. Gradually, he extended his hand, with his fingers delicately raising my chin, making me look directly into his eyes.

“Please, if you don't want it. I'll back off,” he murmured softly. Nagpalipat-lipat ang tingin ko sa mga mata niya. Hindi madilim ang kwarto kaya kitang-kita ng aking mata ang mapang akit niyang abong mata.

“Paano ako aayaw kung kanina ko pa nararamdaman ang kamay mo sa dibdib ko?” Hindi pa rin niya tinigil ang paglamas ng dibdib ko na mas lalo lamang nagpainit sa buo kong katawan.

“Okay, I'll remove it,” sambit niya ng kalmado ngunit ang kanyang mga mata ay may matinding titig pa rin. Pinigilan ko ang kanyang kamay nang kumilos ito at iaalis na sana.

“Sinabi ko bang tumigil ka?” Taas kilay kong sambit agad.

His eyes fluttered shut as he bit his lip, a sign of his struggle to maintain control. “Ang laki mo talagang tukso, tàngina.” sambit niya na puno ng frustration at pagnanais pero nabigo lang siya.

He quickly kissed me and I kissed him back right away. His kiss was very warm and soft, and it drew me in. Because it was so intense, I let go of the key I was holding and put my hands around his neck.

Naging mas mapusok ang halikan namin at naramdaman kong pinasok niya ang kanyang dila sa aking bibig, hinahanap ang aking dila upang sipsipin ito. Napaungol ako sa ginagawa niya.

Dahil mahapit ang dress ko ay bigla niya iyong pinunit at lumapat ang kaniyang kamay sa dibdib ko. Minamasahe niya iyon habang ang isang kamay niya ay inabot ang pagkababae ko.

Tánging underwear nalang ang suot ko at ramdam ko ang kamay niyang humahagod doon. Nilalaro niya ang nipples ko habang hindi pa rin napuputol ang pagsipsipan ng mga dila namin.

Napaangat ako ng mukha nang maramdaman ang daliri niyang sinilid sa panty ko. He put his middle finger at mabilis niyang nilabas masok ito sa pagkababae ko. Umawang ang labi ko dahil sa sensasyon at mas lalo lamang bumasa ito.

"Damn, you're so wet and it's dripping.”

May halong ungol niyang sambit at sinipsip ang utong kong tayong-tayo. Mas lalo niyang binilisan ang paglabas masok sa aking pagkababae na nagpatirik sa aking mata. Sinalubong ko ang kaniyang daliri dahil umangat na ang tensyon sa aking puson.

“Mnh.. Zairon.. I'm cu–” Hindi ko na natuloy ang sasabihin ko nang nilabasan na ako. “Ohh, shit..” sabay nginig ng hita ko.

Tumayo siya at hinawakan ang baywang ko at pagkatapos ay siya na ang nagpatalikod sa akin. Hinubad niya ang panty ko at hinayaan niya lang na mahulog iyon sa sahig. Narinig ko ang pagbukas niya sa kaniyang zipper at tinudtudyo niya pang iparamdam ang kaniyang alaga sa aking puwet.

“Laurene…” He whispered and bite my ear. He put the tip on my entrance. Tinutukso niya lang ipasok iyon pero sa tip lang.

“Papasukin na kita.” Dagdag niya agad.

Tàngina nito, kailangan pa bang sabihin?

Umawang ang bibig ko nang bigla niya iyong pinasok. Hindi muna siya gumalaw at Inadjust ang sarili. Ako naman ay nakaramdam ng kirot dahil sa pagbigla. Para kasing mas lumaki yata ang alaga niya. Napakapit ako sa pader nang gumalaw na siya ng dahan-dahan sa loob ko.

“Ugh.. ang sikip.. fuck, ang sarap.” Nahihirapan niyang sambit at hinihimas ang baywang ko upang igiya ang katawan ko.

“Z-zairon.. ang sakit.. teka la–” Pigil ko dahil mas humahapdi siya at hinawakan ang kaniyang palad sa baywang ko ngunit hindi man lang siya huminto at mas bumilis ang pagbayo niya.

Inilapat ko nalang ang mga palad ko sa pader dahil mas lalong bumibilis ang galaw niya at pinanggigilan ang dibdib ko.

“Ah! Zairon.. Urghh.”

I heard his moan as he pounded me, and I couldn't hold back and also let out a moan until someone knocked on the door. I fell silent at that moment, but Zairon didn't stop and kept kissing my neck and back.

“Hello, is there anyone here?”

Nanlaki ang mata ko nang marinig ang pamilyar na mga boses.

Minamasahe ni Zairon ang dibdib ko habang ako ay pinipigan na umungol dahil baka marinig ako. Kumatok na naman ulit at dahil nasa bandang pinto kami ay sigurado akong maririnig nila ang boses namin sa loob.

“Hindi ba sabi ng babae ay nasa guest room pumunta si Laurene?” boses ni Dalcy ang narinig ko.

“Oo, Sabi ng katulong dito daw ang guest room eh,” I glanced at the doorknob when it's moving. “Lock yata. Baka umalis na?” Sabi ni Jazz.

“Tara na nga baka pag may mawala rito ay tayo pa ang sisihin.” Sabi ni Dalcy at rinig ko ang papalayong yapak nila pero hindi pa nga nakailang segundo ay biglang diniin ni Zairon ang kahabaan niya sabay hugot tapos binalik na naman ulit. Lumakas ang ungol ko dahil sa sobrang sarap ng nararamdaman ko.

“Shit, Zairon.. ang sarap. Sige pa.. Ahh!’

Wala sa sarili kong sambit habang ginagawa niya iyon. Napapikit ako dahil sa sensasyong bumabalot sa katawan ko. Tila may kuryenteng nagwawala sa loob ng katawan ko at kada haplos niya sa balat ko ay mas ginaganahan ako.

“Did I just hear a girl's voice inside?”

Putek, ba’t bumalik sila?

Hindi man lang natinag si Zairon at mas lalo pang dumiin ang pagkalalaki niya at parating natatamaan ang sensitive spots ko. Mas lalong sumasarap ang nararamdaman ko at sinasalubong ko na ang pagbayo niya.

“Z-zairon.. my friends are.. Ahh.. outside.” Nahihirapan kong saad.

“Okay, stand up and we move. I'll talk to your friends.”

Gumalaw kami sa likod ng pintuan at doon niya ako pinakapit habang nakatanim pa rin ang alaga niya. Gusto ko ng gumalaw dahil nahihirapan na ako lalo na at malapit na rin akong labasan. Hinawakan niya ang baywang ko habang ang isa ay pinihit niya sa doorknob at sumilip sa labas.

“I heard your voices. Sinong hinahanap niyo?” Zairon said while massaging my butt cheeks. He didn't move but he put his cock inside fully.

“Ay, Hala si Doc pala ‘to. Nakita niyo po ba si Laurene? Kanina pa po kasi siya namin hinahanap.” boses ni Dalcy ang narinig ko.

Napatakip ako ng bibig nang gumalaw ulit si Zairon ngunit hindi naman mabilis.

“I didn't see her but If I am, I'll inform her right away.”

Bigla akong napakuyom ng kamao dahil mas bumibilis na siya at pinanggigilan pa ang pwet ko. Hindi ko agad nahulaan nang bigla akong napaihi sabay nginig ng hita ko at pagtirik ng mata ko. What the fuck, did I just ejaculate?

“Doc, bakit ang pawis mo? Ang lamig kaya..” Please, ang dami niyong tanong.

“O-oh, that's not a sweat. I just got out of the shower.” Saad niya at alam kong nagulat siya sa nangyari sa akin at tiningnan pa ako.

“Ay hala, sorry po. Nakadistorbo pala kami. Tara na, Jazz.”

“Teka, baka ipakita ni Doc ang kahubaran niya.” sagot ni Jazz.

“Huwag kang malandi, Jazz. Nakadistorbo na tayo.” Naririnig ko pa ang reklamo ni Jazz pero lumalayo naman ang boses nila. Kinalas na ni Zairon ang alaga niya at hinila niya ako palapit sa kaniya at hinimas ang pagkababae ko.

“You squirt,” he smirked at me and kissed me again. Bigla niya akong binuhat at wala akong choice kung hindi ay kumapit sa leeg niya. Pinasok niya ulit ang alaga niya at sumasalpak ang katawan namin habang buhat-buhat niya ako. Ang lakas niya kaya para lang akong damit na kumapit sa leeg niya.

Siya mismo ang sumasalpak sa pwet ko upang salubungin ang pag ulos niya hanggang sa mas bumilis siya.

“Ohh! Ohhh.. Zairon.”

Inabot niya ang labi ko at sinipsip niya iyon.Nakaramdam ako ng hapdi roon dahil sa pang gigil niya hanggang sa bumibilis na ang pag ulos niya at tumaas na naman ang tensyon sa puson ko.

“Laurene.. Where do you want me to explode?”

“Ahh! Ah, please cum inside me..” Wala sa sarili kong sambit at niyakap siya habang napapadaing sa sarap. He was pounding fast until we both reached the climax. Ramdam ko ang katas niya sa loob ko at hindi niya pa iyon hinuhugot. Hindi niya rin ako binaba at naglakad siya sa higaan at doon na niya ako binaba upang ihiga.

Nagkatinginan lang kaming dalawa. Hindi ko rin alam kung ano ang sasabihin ko dahil nanghihina pa rin ang katawan ko.

He planted a soft kiss on my lips and smiled at me.

“I love you, Laurene.”

Tila nabingi ako sa sinabi niya. Hindi man lang ako makaimik at tiningnan lang ang abo niyang mata.

“I love you and that never changed. Alam kong hindi mo pa rin ako kayang mahalin ngayon pero gagawin ko ang lahat para mapasa akin ang puso mo.”

Gusto kong sabihin sa kaniya ang nararamdaman ko pero may bumabagabag pa rin sa akin. Hindi pa rin malinaw ang lahat kaya ay nagdadawang isip ako.

The silence continued. The only sounds were the beating of our hearts and the conversation of our eyes.
 
"I won't ask you to love me now, Laurene," he whispered. "All I need is the chance to prove to you that I'm worthy of your love.”

I was moved to tears by his words. I didn't know why, but there was a strange warmth flowing through my body. A warmth that gave a unique meaning to his words.

"I don't know what will happen to us in the future," I replied. "But, for now, I want to give you the chance to prove your words.”

I saw how his eyes smiled and his lips before he kissed me passionately and warmly.“I hope this isn't a dream, and if it is, I don't want to wake up anymore.” He said, and my heart started beating faster.