Today being August 21st Mario's birthday I was kinda feeling down. He wanted to go all out for his 21st and he wasn't even here to celebrate it. He wasn't going to be here for his daughter's birth, her first time crawling, her first tooth, her first steps, her first word (which better be mama), her first day of school, none of that.

I was on the way to pick his brothers up from the airport, at first I was upset because they wanted a DNA test but I know who I gave my virginity to. I ain't fuck nobody after him so I wasn't worried. What I was worried about was that damn needle they was going to be using to draw my blood. 

All three of them were getting swabbed... in the mouth while I had to get blood drawn. They was paying that $3500 not me so I don't even care.

Even though I ain't officially move out of the apartment with Xander I've been trying to make my loft as homey as possible. I of course will be sharing a room with my beloved child and it was enough space for the both of us.

I sat outside the airport and waited for dumb, dumber, and dumbest.

They finally came out after like a million years.

"Como esta, vaca?"

"Very good, Bitch."

I drove to the office where they were doing the test, we waited in the waiting room. The boy were taking selfies with my belly, white folks looking at us like we were crazy and shit.

"Anderson v. Santiago!"

"Damn, I feel like we in court or something."

She led us to the back, we gave her the back story and she prepped me. I didn't like needles... at fucking all.

"Okay mama, I'm going to wrap this band around your arm, leave it there for a few, I'm going to thump your arm a few times to get a good look at that vein then I'll stick you."

I nodded my hand I wish Xander was here. He helped me through my glucose testing last week even though we haven't been speaking, he went to all of my appointments so that I had some support.

I wasn't even paying attention when she stuck me but I felt it.

"Que chingados, Pinche pendejo, petero, cabeza de pija..."

"Whoa, whoa, whoa... watch your mouth!"

"All done."

She swabbed their mouths and told us the results would be ready in 8- 14 days.

We headed to my house where they would be staying until I got the results.

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"This shit is girly as fuck."

The Main Quarters

My Little Demon Seed & I's Living Space

Last But Not Least... The Bathroom/ Bar... Don't Ask.

"It looks pretty plain to me..."

"Who's the white baby by the crib?"

"I'm not white, I wasn't white. I just barely had color. I'm tan now though."

"Yeah okay, white girl."

"You guys are mad annoying."

Later that night...

I just arrived back at me and Xander's apartment, he was here cause the lights were on. When I walked up to the door I heard yelling, he was yelling at Baby Alex and Honey was yelling at him for yelling at her...

This was going to be a long ass night. As soon as she saw me she shut up and started crawling to me.

"No mamas you can't be doing that." I told her picking her up, "When Baby A gets here you gotta be a big girl and not cry so much."

Xander looked at me with a face full of irritation, "What'd you do to her for her to listen to you before she listens to me? Being that I'm actually her dad."

"It's this thing called quality time. I spend my whole day with her and give her hella attention. You needa start doing that because once Baby A gets here I ain't gon' be able to."

He nodded as Baby Alex layed her head on my shoulder and sucked her fingers. I went into the room and got me and her some bath water ready.

I poured some lavender bubble bath, lavender bath rocks, and I got my dove purely pampering body wash (the cocoa butter kind) and got our nightclothes out.

I got her a fresh pamper and proceeded in the bathroom.

We soaked and I washed her. She had a blast with the bubbles as I played some Layton Greene. Next thing I know she was sleeping on my chest with bubbles everywhere.

I stood and let the shower water rinse the bubbles off, I dried us off and got us ready for night-night.

"Eah eah."

I thought this brat was sleep, "Eat eat, you hungry?"

She nodded. Welp to the kitchen we go. She was 9 months old now so she was trying to move on to more solid foods, don't get me wrong. She still drinks milk, most of her food is mashed up but her teeth are coming in so we gotta start slowly but sure transitioning her now.

I made pasta with meat sauce, Xander and ol girl wasn't hungry so I saved the rest for Xander's friends.

After watching Baby Alex feed herself and make a mess, I cleaned her up. She went right asleep as I put her in bed, she normally sleeps in her crib if Xander is already sleeping, she sleeps on the bed if me and her go to sleep first, that way Xander can't tell me no.

"Xander where is my maternity pillow?!"

"In the closet with all the baby stuff!"

After grabbing my maternity pillow I looked into the closet, my parents went all out for the baby, so did Xander and his friends.

I closed it and made a mental note to have Mario's brother's move this shit to my closet in my place then I went and layed down, eventually drifting off to sleep.