Volume ten

I walked out the interview with a smile on my face, I got hired on the spot. Even though I was making money by selling platters I was tired of sitting in the house every day, I needed a job. 

I needed a car then everything would be fine. 

I walked to the bus stop instead of requesting a uber or lyft, they start to add up once you think about it. Nothing was wrong with taking the bus anyway.

Getting on the bus, I walked to Esme apartment knocking on her door. I heard Hero barking before she even came to the door, when she did I smiled but she didn't. This was the first time speaking to her in almost three months, basically since Dylan got locked up. 

"What you want?" She asked as I sat in the chair. 

"I want a high ponytail frontal." I told her making her nod.

It seemed so awkward being around her now, I wasn't used to her just being on some quiet shit. She was always the person making everybody else smile through their problems, I wished I knew how to help heal her heart. 

"You love you some gospel music." I told her making her smile. 

"It's like Gospel music hit different when you in need of healing." She spoke sadly making me nod. 

"Have you spoke to Dylan?" 

"Nope." She said as she washed her combs.

"So you hear about everything going on with the Kardashians?" I asked changing the subject knowing she loved her some Kardashians. 

"Girl." She rolled her eyes making me chuckle. "I was arguing with a few people on the shade room. They really tryna justify Jordyn actions by throwing up they past which some shit not true but bitches gon run with shit anyway."

"I mean Khloe did do some wrong shit."

"She did but some of the shit she did not even true, talking bout she fucked the Game after Kim did, she fucked Scott, she stole James Harden from Trina and shit like she did not do that shit."

"Kim fucked the Game?" I scrunched my face up, the Game was corny as hell. 

"Girl, you ain't hear his corny ass song he made some weeks ago talking bout how he smashed her and he was eating cereal with Kylie and shit?" 

"No, I need to keep up with the Kardashians."

"You know I love me some Kardashians, people always on they dick like they not fucking for purses or they rent money. Every nigga Kim had she made them fall in love and they still talk about her til this day. Ray J a whole married man with a daughter and he still do radio talks just to bring up her name."

"Oh I saw that." I snapped nodding as she started combing through my hair. 

"And don't even get me started on Tyga and Kylie, they talking about my good sis stole him from Blac Chyna when even after he called out their engagement he still was single. People just love talking bout them.: 

"Tyga and Kylie was cute though."

"Right, I'm upset she with Travis but Travis and Kylie cute too."

"Do Dylan try to call you?" I asked.

"Everyday." She spoke starting my hair.

"Do you answer?" 

"Nope."

"Do you know she has like 16 more months left?" 

"Yup."

"Are you going to talk to her when she get out?" 

"Maybe."

"I know you're hurt because Dylan is somebody you're really attached to and I know how much it hurts when you need somebody and they aren't here." I spoke to her. "Kee was locked up for my whole second trimester and some of my third, he got shot the day Kreed was born so I almost had a stillbirth and a dead baby father, don't even get me started on being homeless during all this. I know hurt."

"I understand all that Spencer but that's my sister." She said as I heard her voice start to crack. "I have been there for her since I met her and vise versa, I never wanted to know how it was to live without her and now I'm forced to because of dumb ass decisions she made. It was so many ways she could have lived and she chose to do this bullshit."

"Fast money." I told her. "Who wants to work pay check to pay check when you could make a thousand in a day? Money can be an addiction."

"You're right." She nodded as I heard her sniffle. "I just miss her."

"Talk to her then."

"I'll try."

"Here stinking ass." Black walked in her apartment with Keyz handing her a bag.

"Thank you." She smiled.

"Wassup Spence?" He half hugged me.

"I could hug you or ya baby father gon come out the cut?" Keyz joked making me laugh as he hugged me.

"Keohn not beefing with nobody." I told them.

"As he shouldn't." Keyz sat down.

"What the fuck you sitting down for? We gotta fucking leave dumb ass." Black said.

"Who you talking to? That's why I'm telling Esme about that girl that was flirting with you."

"I know he wasn't flirting with a bitch." Esme shrugged. "He barely like me, you think Imma believe he being nice to another bitch?"

"Damn, can't even lie in peace." Keyz glared making us laugh. "Aye Spence, when you doing ya dinner plates again?" 

"I don't even know."

"Next time you do them, do some nachos or some shit. I been wanting some."

"I should do that." I furrowed my eyebrows thinking.

"Aye, I get a discount."

"All that money you making, boy bye." I waved him off. 

"Don't be watching my funds."

"Boy bye." I repeated.

"Nah for real Spence."

"Tomorrow." I told him.

"Bet." He spoke as they walked out.

We continued talking as she did my hair, when she was done I paid her then went my way to the supermarket. I really needed a car cause I was tired of walking or waiting for rides, it was so pointless to have my license.

That was definitely next on my list.

I went to get a lot of stuff for tomorrow platters, Keohn been bugging me to make some more platters anyway since the previous ones went amazing. I yawned waiting for the Uber to come, I just wanted to go home and lay down.

"Mooommmmyyy!" Kreed dragged out as soon as he saw me running into my leg making me smile, there was no better feeling.

"Hi baby." I picked him up smiling.

"I got snack."

"What you got? Let me taste."

"You just wan eat." He said making me bust out laughing.

"Why you so smart?" I asked as he stuffed a cookie in my mouth.

"Where daddy?"

"Bafroom."

"You hungry?"

"No mommy."

"Okay." I put him down picking up the bags to put them away. "Where ya Godfather?" 

"I dunno."

I stopped asking him questions cause he looked like he was getting annoyed by me since he had to keep turning around to answer me. 

I put everything up grabbing a pizza hot pocket from the freezer since I was hungry but didn't feel like cooking. Keohn walked out the bathroom looking around, he kissed me on my forehead then sat at the island.

"What you cooking tonight?" 

"What you want?" I sighed.

"Whatever you feel like cooking."

"I don't feel like cooking anything."

"So why you ain't say that?" 

"Cause if you was hungry I was going to cook for you."

"You come first." He kissed my forehead grabbing the box of pop tarts. "I'm feeling ya hair by the way."

"Thank you baby." I smiled taking out the hot pocket sitting next to him.

"How you feel about upgrading?" 

"Upgrading what?" 

"The apartment."

"What you mean?" 

"They have an opening down stairs for a three bedroom."

"How much more?" 

"A few hundred."

"What's a few?" 

"1400."

"So you wanna leave our 1000 apartment for a 1400 one?" I asked looking at him like he was stupid.

"Kreed could have his own shit plus the master bedroom has a his and hers closet along with a bathroom, the kitchen bigger-"

"Why it sound like you already went to see this apartment?" 

"And Kreeona gon need some space-"

"Kee you bought the apartment already, didn't you?" 

"When you say bought-"

"Keohn!" I hit him. "We barely could pay the bills in this one why would you think we could afford 400 more?" 

"Cause once I graduate and have my record expunged, I'm done with this street shit. I want to be as comfortable as we can since I ain't gon be touching that much money in a while."

"I understand where you was coming from with this but-"

"I already paid the security deposit and rent for three months so at this point there is nothing you can say." He rushed out making me look at him.

"What else did you decide for us?" 

"I cancelled the cable bill so it's going to cut off next week but I bought fire sticks that's jail broken for every room."

"You reall-"

"That's eliminating a hundo right there, WiFi is 45 a month so now all we have to pay is our phone bill, electric, food and house supplies."

"I wanna be mad but you sound real responsible right now."

"Baby, a year ago this wouldn't have been a thought, I wouldn't have been the man I am now without all the shit we had to go through and without you none of this shit would have happened."

"You sound like you bout to propose." Face said making us look at him.

"You got a girl and you still annoying as hell." Kee scrunched up his face making me laugh. "Like even if I was why would you ruin it?" 

"Cause you don't deserve her bitch."

"You jealous as hell." Kee laughed mushing his head.

"Brah, you know I don't like that shit." Face punched him making me laugh, he hated getting mushed.

"Are y'all free tomorrow? I want to do platters." 

"Yeah." Face nodded. "What's on the menu?"

"Loaded nachos." I smiled. "Imma do shrimp, ground beef, steak, buffalo chicken, ground turkey just in case, different kind of chips, it's just going to be good."

"How ya job interview go?" Kee asked heating up the spaghetti I made yesterday.

"I got it." I smiled. 

"See we bout to be wonderful, I had a talk with that woman that birthed me so whenever we need her to babysit Kreed cause one of us working, she'll do it."

"Did she say anything about my mom?" I asked lowly making him look at me.

"They still live across the street from each other, she said when she told her about you and how good you were doing it looked like she was proud but she didn't say anything."

"Oh." I nodded. "Okay."

"I know you want her to be in your life but if she don't want you there it's nothing you can do."

"I'm not going to have anyone in my life that don't wanna be there."

"There you go." He kissed my nose making me give him a small smile.

I wouldn't say it didn't hurt because it did, not having your mother hurts so bad. My mom used to be my best friend until I got pregnant. Almost four years later and I still missed everything about her but like Keohn stated, I can't want someone in my life that doesn't want to be.

"When Kreeona getting here?" Face asked taking me out my thoughts.

"In a few years." I spoke making Kee turn around.

"She fucking lying."

I just rolled my eyes throwing my hot pocket paper away, I went in the room to lay down. I wasn't planning on falling asleep but that's what I did.

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"Spence, somebody want you to hold they plate until they get off work." Benji spoke as I continued focusing building my platter.

"That's fine." I spoke hearing my phone ding.

I was done so I closed the platter then looked at my phone seeing Keyz wanted to come pick up 4 platters, I looked around at all the boys and told him I'll bring it to him downstairs because I didn't want it to be no fight.

I heard a knock on the door as Keohn opened it, Keyz was standing there. Keohn scrunched up his face but he didn't say anything, Keyz just walked passed coming towards me.

"You talking bout you'll meet me outside knowing you busy as hell." Keyz sat down as I hurriedly made his platters.

"You know why I said that."

"I already told you I ain't beefing with nobody." He shrugged. "And Esme want two peach cobblers."

"I already had that ready." I pointed to Esme whole order.

"She a fat ass." He shook his head.

"If it ain't that nigga Keyz." Face came up behind him dabbing him.

"Wassup Face ass nigga?" Keyz smiled. 

"You hungry as hell." Face chuckled sitting next to him.

"This ain't even all for me."

"Here go everything." I told him bagging everything up as he stood up paying me.

"I left a lil extra in there even though you should be paying me cause this was my idea." He joked making me roll my eyes and laugh. "Thank you tho, let me know next time you doing this you know imma always support."

"Thank you." I side hugged him.

"Aye we gon talk fool." Keyz told Face.

"You know the number." Face told em making him nod.

I gratefully nodded because there wasn't no beef, no fights, no banter. I turned around to finish making platters, I bought a lot of food because we always ran out of platters after like 30 so I wanted to do a lot of platters this time.

"What the fuck y'all lock me in the room for?" Ice asked as Reem let him out.

"Cause Keyz came to pick up something and nobody got time for you to egg him on." Kee said.

"Man y'all some bitches." Ice smacked his teeth.

"Nobody have time for you." Face said.

"We agreed ain't no beef, you don't know how to drop shit. It's bigger shit to worry about besides fighting niggas who gon bust guns for us." Reem spoke.

"Fuck outta here just last week, they was finna bust guns at us. I don't take threats lightly, y'all niggas might-"

"I'll kill you right now." Face said as Ice looked at him.

"Don't fucking cut me off!" Ice yelled tackling him making me gasp in shock as they hit the floor.

"Oh my Godd!" Kee dragged out laughing.

"Just why? Why?" Jaelyn asked walking in.

"Get him the fuck off me." Face yelled. "I'm bout to fuck you up brah."

"Y'all just so childish, childish as hell." I told them.

"Stop." Reem grabbed them. 

"Reem be looking so damn stressed dealing with y'all." Jala laughed.

"They so fucking annoying."

"Watch I air all this shit out." Ice walked out the door.

"Y'all missing out on orders." I told them rolling my eyes.

"We going right now." Kee spoke grabbing all the bags with the food and addresses.

"So when y'all moving?" Sanaa asked.

"In a few days when the cable go off, we packing and stuff right now. Keohn wanted to be extra and shit talking about throw all the furniture out and shit like nah we not balling like that."

"He got a few more months to get out the game, he probably got mad money saved up."

"We got a lil sumn sumn."

"Shit, gimme a lil sumn sumn." Jala spoke.

"Efae." Kreed said walking in the kitchen rubbing his eye.

"She not here." I told him making him frown but he walked away.

"Damn everybody just miss Esme." Jaelyn laughed. 

"I was surprised when she said she was coming to my party." Jala said.

"Black prolly making her go." I spoke.

"I know but I still wanted to feel special." She chuckled.

I shook my head doing the last platter feeling grateful, I gave everything to Reem as they walked out. I looked around the dirty kitchen and sighed, I didn't even feel like cleaning.

"I got you sis." Jaelyn said.

"You don't have to."

"Nah, we got you." Jala spoke closing her platter starting to throw stuff away.

"Thank y'all." I smiled going to sit on the couch.

I was real grateful for the people in my life.
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