Volume two. (Explicit graphic and content)

"So y'all good?" I asked over the phone while I ate my dinner.

"Yeah, whatever you said to him worked. He gave me money and we had some bomb ass sex, his dick so damn good."

"That's good." I mumbled feeling a type of way lowkey.

"So when you gon get a boyfriend? You not that bad looking."

"What?" I scrunched my face  up.

"Girl, I'm only playing." She laughed. "I'm going to find you someone to talk to, Saymon has this friend and he's cute."

"No."

"I'm still going to do it." She stated hanging up before I could say anything else.

"Why you looking like that?" My brother, Face, asked walking in the kitchen.

"Janey always hanging up on me." 

"You still friends with that girl? Thought y'all would of been separated." 

"Why?" 

"I feel vibes but I can't tell you who your friends are."

"Where you going?" I asked seeing he was fully clothed with his coat on.

"I'm bout to go with Kee for a few, I need you to do me a favor."

"And I need $20." I held my hand out.

"Damn, I can't even ask my little sister for a favor no more." He spoke going through his money handing me a 50.

"Now what's the favor?" 

"If I'm out before ma get here, cover for me. I got shit to handle."

"Like what?" 

"Don't ask nothing you don't want the answer to." He said making me instantly frown.

My brother was in the streets heavy, he was always fighting or in some sort of trouble. He was in a gang and sold drugs although he didn't want us to know. I prayed over my brother safety every night when he don't come home.

"Please be safe." I mumbled as I hugged him tightly. 

"I always am bubbles." He kissed my forehead taking a chicken strip off the plate walking out the kitchen as I heard the front door slam.

I started going through my Instagram timeline seeing nothing interesting so I was just going to take a shower since I didn't have anything else to do. I walked down the hall turning on the hot water so it can be real hot by time I got in. Just as I was about to get in the doorbell rung twice making me groan out loud, Face always forgets his keys.

Wrapping the towel over my naked body, I walked towards the front door quickly so I can hurry back to my shower. I swung the door open about to curse him out but there stood Saymon looking me up and down. 

"Why are you-" I couldn't finish my sentence because he crashed his lips into mine picking me up. He closed the door with his back while we continued kissing.

He walked us through the house as our lips never disconnected, he came out his shoes and socks as we entered the bathroom. I took his shirt off throwing it anywhere in the bathroom while he fumbled with his belt. Finally naked he carried us in the shower under the hot ass water sliding the glass door.

He looked in my eyes as I looked back in his, he put his arms under my thighs and before I knew it, he was sliding into me making me gasp with my mouth wide open. He moved slowly to get me adjusted to his size and once I was he showed me no mercy. I was grateful we were the only ones here because I was yelling.

He put me down as I almost fell, he turned me around entering me again. I put my hands on the wall throwing it back so I could match his rhythm, I heard him say oh shit under his breath turning me on even more if possible. He wrapped his arms around my waist making my back touch his front while he reach his hand down to pay with my clit making me run my hand across the glass trying to grab something

"Oh my God." I whimpered feeling tears in my eyes.

~

"I'm home!" I heard my mother yell waking me up from my sleep. I yawned knowing it was a dream until I started feeling pain and saw Saymon naked body under my sheets.

My eyes shot open as I put the towel around my body going out the room before my mother came in. I looked in Face room seeing he was in there sleep making me smile in relief, I walked in the kitchen seeing her about to heat up the food when she turned from the microwave she looked at me.

"You took a shower at six in the morning? You never up this early." 

"No, I been took a shower but stupidly fell asleep like this." 

"Well, I'm bout to eat and go to sleep. Don't bother me." She said walking past me with her food and drink in her hand going into her room. 

I grabbed a water out the refrigerator walking back to my room to see Saymon on his side checking his phone. I closed and locked my door getting his attention, I laid on my back looking at the ceiling.

"You okay?" He asked putting his phone down.

"Why would you do that?" I mumbled as reality set in. "She was just telling me how y'all are good, why would you come over here?" 

"I didn't hear you saying no not once." He said making me sigh.

"I know."

"What you feeling regret now? You-"

"Why did you come over here?" I repeated my question. "You took her shopping and had sex with her after admitting your feelings to me. Why are you here?" 

"It felt right at the time." He answered. 

"Don't feel right now, does it?" I asked turning my head to look at him. "I don't know what you thought this was but I'm not about to be your sidechick or whatever." 

"You wanna be the main?" He joked not knowing I was serious. 

"So you're leaving now, right?" I asked standing knowing I had school in a few more hours. 

"Why you acting like we-"

"There's no we. You have a girlfriend, who is my best friend, who doesn't deserve this." I sighed. "I'm a horrible person." 

"No you're not." He spoke coming to me. "We had sex, we both wanted it. Shit, we needed it so therefore it wasn't a mistake."

"Can you just go?" I sighed sitting back on the bed. 

"I'll talk to you later then." He kissed my forehead gathering his stuff then going out the window. 

I laid back kicking my legs while covering my face in the pillow yelling, how was I supposed to tell her I slept with her man?

~

"So where were you yesterday?" Janey asked as we walked to my locker.

"Huh?" 

"I called you back to back and you didn't answer, I know you ain't talking to no boys so what were you doing?" 

"Sleep." I lied. 

"You're always sleep, you need to wake up when I call."

"Girl, you are not more important than my sleep." I scoffed closing the locker as we walked outside. 

"I'm the most exciting thing in your life, you have no friends, no boyfriend, I'm basically your life." 

I didn't say anything since she was making my head hurt, we walked outside as I spoke and hugged a few people. Just as I was about to go look for my brother, Saymon and some other boy caught my attention. I made eye contact with him and immediately turned my head to Janey. 

"What's Saymon doing here?" I asked. 

"Remember yesterday I told you I was going to set you up with his friend?" 

"You was serious." I shook my head. 

"Isn't he cute?" She smirked wiggling her eyebrows. "Let's go introduce y'all." 

I threw my head back groaning, Janey walked to them smiling and cheery. She hugged the boy then kissed Saymon making me turn my head, he was just eating my pussy then kissing her like it was nothing. I shook my head pulling out my phone to see where my brother was. 

"Since they rude asses not gon introduce me, I'm Donovan." The boy spoke making me look up. 

He was taller than me, much taller than me but he was cute. He was lightskin and his jaw line was strong. His eyebrows looked better than mine and just fit with his face, he had a fuckboy hair cut and a mustache with a low goatee and a small stud in his nose. He looked better than cute, he was handsome. 

"I'm Sanaa." 

"Like the actor?" He asked making me chuckle. 

"Exactly where my mom got it from." I smiled. "She's my Godmom." 

"Sanaa Lathan yo Godmom? Like you know her?" 

"Yes." I laughed at his reaction. "My brother and I spend the summers with her."

"You lucky as hell, that's my wife." 

"I'll let her know she got a husband she don't know about." 

"Come on." Janey smiled pulling me towards the car. "Don, you gon have to sit in the back." 

"You got it." He nodded sitting next to me. 

He turned to me smiling making me smile at him, he started conversation as we jumped from topic to topic. He was really cool and could hold a conversation unlike most boys that'll ask what you doing every five seconds or give dry responses. 

"I like this." Janey smiled looking back at us making our attention going on her. "Look at my lil projects, I want a Godchild." 

"Damn, can I know her favorite color first?" Donovan asked making me laugh. 

"Blue." Janey smiled.

"Black." Saymon harshly corrected making all of us look at him. He looked at me through the mirror making me turn my head and look down at my vibrating phone. 

"I have to go home." I spoke looking at the text from Face. "You could stop right here and I'll get on the bus but I gotta get home." 

"What happened?" Janey asked. 

"I don't know, something's wrong with Face." 

"Maybe he's just overreacting like always, you can go-"

"No, I have to go now." I cut her off. 

"Well babe, you can just drop her off right here and she'll-"

"Nah, Imma take her home." Saymon said making a sharp right turn. 

"But Olive Garden the other way." She frowned. 

"I'm sorry." I spoke up to Donovan. "I was looking forward to our eating competition." 

"Family come first, we can do that anytime." He waved me off. 

"Thanks for understanding, how about I get your number so we can reschedule?" I asked as he handed me his phone. I called myself then saved my number. 

"I'll text you." He spoke just as Saymon pulled up.

I didn't even say anything to anybody rushing out the car, I walked in the house closing the door hearing yelling. I went straight to the source seeing my brother and mother in his room yelling, I was confused I never saw them argue like this before. 

"What's going on?" I asked so they can stop yelling. 

"Did you know about him selling drugs?"

"Huh?" I asked even though I heard her perfectly. 

"No she did not know, this not something I wanted y'all to get in the middle of." He lied. 

"Do you know how dangerous is this? I give you money! I give you everything so what are you doing this for? Are you trying to make a name for yourself out here?" 

"I been made a name for myself out here ma, I'm doing this because I need to." 

"You don't bring that shit in my house, what if the police would have came here? Do you know your sister and I would have been locked up right along with you? What if somebody would have came and tried to rob us because of you?" 

"That wasn't happening ma, I'm not in no gang I make money then go home. I'm not heavy in the streets for all that to happen, I move smart."

"This is not smart!" She yelled. "This is why I flushed all those-"

"You what?" He yelled going under his bed seeing the empty box, he sat on the bed and grabbing his head. "Do you know what you just did?" 

"Yes, I got them damn drugs out of my house! You lucky I didn't get rid of the dirty money either, I don't want any of that in my house!" 

"I think we should just get away from each other for a min." I spoke seeing Face turning madder which each word she spoke. 

"Do you understand I had to sell those? I don't make the fucking drugs, I sell them! You flushed around 3 thousand worth of drugs, you think he gon be generous for 3 thousand? If you wanted them out your house you could of called me and told me to remove them! Do you have 3 thousand sitting around because I don't! That's the stupidest shit you could have ever done!" 

"Saheed, you're going to-"

"You talking about you don't wanna be put in danger, do you know what's gon happen when I don't have that man money? You think he gon care about my fucking excuses? That's my head, yours and Sanaa's! You really could not be this damn dumb!" 

She smacked him making me gasp as I saw him back up so he can catch his reflexes, she stared at him while he blew his breath trying to calm down. "Just give him space." I spoke looking to my mom. 

"I want you out my house! You're going to be disrespecting me and calling me out my name, you gotta get out! Get out before I call the police!" 

"Ma no he can't-"

"Shut up Sanaa! I'm giving you ten minutes to pack what you can then go." She spoke turning out as I sat there with tears in my eyes. 

"She's not serious, don't go." I spoke trying not to cry, my brother was my world. 

"It's good, Imma get up outta here." 

"Please don't, I can't live here without you." I spoke as a tear came out. 

"Come here Bubbles." He dropped his bag holding his arms out as I rushed into them. "Imma go to Key house for a few days until I could make this money back, Imma be good. I got my phone, call me whenever." 

"I don't want you to go." I cried into his chest as he held me tight. 

"You crying like I'm moving away forever, Key live three blocks down girl." He chuckled. "I'll come chill with you when she at work or you can come over there, you know his baby mother right?" 

"Yes." I nodded as he wiped my face. 

"Then we gon be good, go wipe your face."

I went in my room going to my secret stash instead, I walked back into his room handing him everything. He looked at me then looked at the money in my hand pushing my hand away from him, I opened up one of his bags putting the money in there.

"I was saving up for a car but you're more important." I sadly smiled. "This a little over a thousand and most of this is from doing you favors so technically this is your money so you have to take it." 

"I'll pay you back Bubbs." 

"I know, you're good for it." I smiled. 

"Time up, let's go." My mom said ruining our moment. 

"I love you, aight? Don't forget what I said." He spoke hugging me again kissing me on my forehead. 

"I love you more." I sighed walking him to the door. 

I watched him get into his car then pull off down the street, I walked passed my mother not saying anything to her. I locked my door preparing to take a nap because I was truly pissed off, sad and tired. Everything's just going wrong. 

~

I woke up to it being dark in my room now, I saw light above me making me confused. I sat up seeing I was laying on Saymon while he was going through his Instagram feed, I wiped my eyes to make sure I was seeing clearly. He looked at me while I stared back at him. 

"Umm?" I tilted my head. 

"I came through the window, I wanted to check on you but I ain't wanna wake you up." He spoke. "You was crying in your sleep so I stayed."

"I was?" 

"Yeah, you was calling out for Face so I figured something was wrong and I'll be here for you when you wake up." 

"She kicked him out." I mumbled pulling the loose thread from my blanket. "She found out he sold drugs and flushed them then kicked him out." 

"How much she flushed?" 

"Almost three thousand." 

"Damn Face." He shook his head. "Imma call em and let him hold something."

"He won't be able to pay you back for a while." 

"I ain't putting a expiration date on it." He spoke. "He'll do the same shit for me, nah he did the same shit for me when my moms couldn't pay her bills. That's my brudda, I got em." 

"Thank you." I sighed as he leaned over wiping my face.

"You don't gotta thank me." He spoke lowly rubbing my face then leaning in kissing me as I kissed him back. 

He laid me down still kissing me while I let him, I pulled his shirt from over his head while he pulled down my jeans entering me making me gasp while his kisses traveled to my neck. I scratched his back biting into his shoulder making him hiss as he went deeper making me go crazy.

So much for keeping my distance.
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