A/N: Hi fruity babies! I had forgot to update this because I wrapped up in other fics and I just plain forgot (lol sorry)

Warning: really sad. (keep tissues handy)

Enjoy!
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“So how are you feeling today Tyler?” Dallon smiled at him from over his notebook.

Tyler just looked around the room. He didn't answer him.

“Have you been eating well?” Dallon continued to be hopeful. He leaned forward in his chair.

Tyler just kept on ignoring him. He stared at the nice clock on the wall.

“Any new hobbies perhaps?” Dallon was now forcing to keep his smile. His patience was beginning to run out.

Tyler laid back on the couch and started to play with his fingers. His eyes locked to the ceiling. He’s played this game with his doctor before. And in the end he always wins.

“Fine Tyler just ask your questions already.” Dallon sighed as he closed his book. He hated this tit for tat they engaged in every week, but it was the only way to get him to talk.

“How is he?” Tyler asked as he sat up to look at him.

“Fine. Next question?” Dallon sat back in his chair.

“Elaborate damn it!” Tyler snapped at him. Dallon only sighed.

“No.” Dallon calmly drank his coffee. He wasn't going to give him what he wanted just because he had a temper tantrum every time someone said something he didn't wanna hear.

“You’ve done it before! Why stop now!?” Tyler demanded as he felt the tears creep up again. He was desperate to know that Josh was alright. Especially since he hasn't seen him since they took him away when he was in the hospital. That was nearly two month ago. “Please doctor I love him and I'm just worried about him.” He cried to him.

“I know Tyler.” Was all Dallon said. He’s been tricked by those tears and pleas before. It's all his ploy to guilt trip Dallon in order to get his way.

“What's wrong with you!? What did Dr. Black tell you not to tell me anything about Josh!?” Tyler yelled. He was growing tired of her interference.

“Dr. Black said nothing of the sort. I'm just more interested in you.” Dallon replied as he opened his notebook again.

“I need to know that Josh is alright! Now tell me how he is!” Tyler demanded as he stood up. Dallon remained silent as he wrote in his notes, unphased by Tyler’s performance. “Look Josh-”

“Josh is NOT my patient. YOU are. Therefore from now on all I want to hear is about TYLER.” Dallon stood up to meet his gaze. They stood their like statues trapped in a showdown. Tyler was the first to turn away.

“Why are you making this so difficult doctor!?” Tyler groaned and began to pace the floor.

“I could ask you the same thing Tyler.” Dallon sat back down. “You see your problem is you’ve wrapped your whole life around Josh. So much so that you lost who YOU are.” He said as he watched him pace faster. “I mean there has been past abuse between you two. The guy nearly killed you only a few weeks ago. Yet here you are asking me, BEGGING me to tell you of his welfare. I mean who does that?” Dallon continued to talk.

Tyler started breathing faster. Biting his bottom lip. Scratching at his face. All while he paced and listened to Dallon talk. He knew he was trying to get him to open up, but he promised himself he wouldn't. He couldn't.

“You wait on him hand and foot. Make sure he takes his medications daily. Deal with the constant personality changes. Tyler I have to say you’re a better man than me.” Dallon knew that by making Josh seem like a problem was getting to him. And all he had to do was say the right thing before Tyler would explode. While he doesn't usually like to intentionally push his patient’s buttons. Tyler was very emotional, but he kept it well hidden behind a wall. A barrier to keep him and Josh trapped in his perfect little world in his mind.

So all Dallon had to do was break down that fortress of his. And when all those emotions came flooding through. Then the truth will come out as well. “And does he even show any gratitude for it?” Dallon asked as he stood up again.

“O-of course he does!” Tyler countered.

“How? By beating you?” Dallon walked closer.

“No he just-” Tyler tried as he stopped pacing.

“Raping you?” Dallon got closer.

“He never-” Tyler tried again. He could feel the tears coming.

“Oh I saw the medical reports from when you were in the hospital. And when they did a physical, it showed tearing and scarring Tyler.” Dallon walked until they were face to face.

“You don't know what you’re talking about!” Tyler quickly turned away to avoid Dallon’s strong gaze.

“Oh I think I do. You’ve become nothing but Josh’s GUARDIAN.” Dallon started.

“Shut up.” Tyler closed his eyes to keep the tears in.

“His RAG DOLL to throw around.” Dallon closed in on him from behind.

“No.” Tyler pressed his fist to his temples to get the building pressure in his head to stop.

“His pretty little WHORE he can fuck to his heart's content!” Dallon was playing with fire, but he could sense the wall between them beginning to crack.

“Please stop!” Tyler begged as he covered his ears to try and block him out.

“Stop? But we’re just getting started Tyler.” Dallon walked around so he could be face to face with him again. “I mean don't you wanna hear about Josh?” He asked as he narrowed in on him again.

“I don't want to talk anymore.” Tyler whimpered as he opened his watery eyes.

“I see it in your eyes that you do Tyler.” Dallon smiled at him. “So let’s talk about what you could be doing with your life.” He took a step closer.

“I'm DOING what I wanna do with my life!” Tyler sniffed as he tried to regain his composure. He tooked a step back.

“Oh but as I recall you were in college before Josh.” Dallon stepped closer. Tyler could put on a great act, but that wall was falling apart. And they BOTH knew it.

“School wasn't really for me anyway.” Tyler glared and kept moving backwards.

“Well there was the music. You played gigs all around town before Josh also.” Dallon continued to drill into him. So he moved forward.

“Music was just something to pass the time. It wasn't THAT important.” Tyler gritted his teeth as he felt the pressure building again.

“What about friends? Didn't you have so many friends before Josh too?” Dallon inquired. He had now backed him into the wall. There they were, eyes locked in battle once more.

“Josh IS my friend.” Tyler spoke slowly to calm his frazzled nerves.

“What are hiding Tyler?”Dallon leaned in closer.

“Nothing.” Tyler replied. The tears were creeping in the corner of his eyes. Dallon knew he was almost to a breakthrough. It only took one last blow. He leaned in so close to Tyler, you would’ve thought Dallon was moving in for a kiss.

“I know what it is now. You need Josh more than he needs you...just look what a mess you are without him.” Dallon whispered in his ear. Tears rolled down Tyler’s cheek. His breathe hitched and his muscles tightened. Dallon had just shattered that wall of his. All that was left was for him to finally tell the truth. “Is that why you feel compelled to give up everything to take care of him?” He asked as he backed up a bit to gage Tyler’s response.

“No….I...I just have to take care of Josh…” Tyler didn't want to say anymore and the tears refused to stop. He gave Dallon sad eyes as a plea for them to stop.

“But WHY? WHY is Josh so important? WHY do you feel so guilty to let him hurt you so? WHY can't you let him GO!?” Dallon demanded to know. He wasn't going to let Tyler run away anymore. He needed to come clean once and for all.

“BECAUSE IT'S ALL MY FAULT!” Tyler screamed. “T-the way he is….it's because of me…” He spent all these years trying to hold it in, but it was gonna come out weather he wanted it to or not. “Y-you see doctor we grew up together...always so close...Josh was my best friend...but as we got older t-those feelings changed.” Tyler smiled sadly. “S-so I went to my dad one day and asked if it was okay f-for a man to love another man….purely hypothetical of course. And he got so angry...said it was DIRTY...SINFUL….a-and that QUEERS deserve to burn in HELL! My father said THAT!” Tyler cried to Dallon.

Dallon was at a lost for words. What could he really say to that?

“W-well stuff like that really sticks with a kid you know....a-and while me and Josh were playing in our tree fort some time after that...he….umm...he told me that he liked me a lot. And I said I liked him a whole lot too. He kissed me on the cheek and it wasn't a big deal….b-but then he moved in a-and kissed me on the lips.” Tyler gently touched his lips as if he was remembering that day vividly. “I had never been kiss on the lips before...a-and it felt good...great even. We kept kissing u-until I was flat on my back...we held on tight to each other...b-but then all my father’s words came screaming in head. A-and I told myself I had to stop...c-cause my dad would be so mad at me.” Tyler’s breathing became shallow.

“Well that's understandable. I mean you were young and you only wanted to do what was right. And your parents are always right at that age. It never occurred that your father could be wrong.” Dallon tried to reason with him so he would know it wasn't his fault.

“No doctor it's NOT!” Tyler snapped at him. Dallon could see the loathing in his watery eyes. “I-I got so scared of my dad finding out that I was with Josh l-like THAT! S-so I pushed him off me….so HARD….h-he nearly fell out of the tree fort.” Tyler held himself tight.

“Tyler it's alright, you didn't mean to hurt him.” Dallon moved closer. He put his hand on his shoulder to reassure him that he only wanted to help him.

“NO!” Tyler objected as he turned to the wall. “I didn't just push him….I yelled at him...I told him….OH GOD I TOLD HIM TO KEEP HIS DIRTY LIPS AWAY FROM ME...AND THAT QUEERS LIKE HIM DESERVED TO BURN IN HELL!...I SAID THAT TO JOSH!....MY BEST FRIEND!” Tyler screamed as he cried harder. “I still remember the pain on his face….h-he looked so heartbroken...and all I did was RUN AWAY!” He clawed at the wall as he wanted so badly to forget, but it always stayed present in the back of his mind.

“A-and we were supposed to go to Disney World that summer together...b-but I refused to go with Josh.” Tyler turned to face Dallon to beg his forgiveness. “Please you gotta understand I couldn't be alone with him anymore...not after THAT! I mean what if it would've happened again and I didn't stop and my parents FOUND OUT!? I-I...I just COULDN'T!” Tyler bit his lip to try and calm down, but the tears kept flowing. “So we went on separate trips that summer...I went to visit my cousins...a-and Josh went on his camping trip with his folks at the beginning of the summer, instead of the end like they usually did…” Tyler was desperately trying to process all these horrible feelings. He could barely breathe, but his heart was pumping so fast.

“Tyler just relax now.” Dallon attempted to get his attention.

“I-if only I would’ve went...then Josh would still have his family and he wouldn't be so lost now….DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND DOCTOR I CAUSED THE MAN I LOVE HIS FAMILY AND TO BE TORTURED AND RAPED FOR SIX YEARS! ALL BECAUSE I WAS TOO AFRAID TO TELL HIM I LOVED HIM BACK! I'M AS MUCH TO BLAME AS THOSE MONSTERS WHO DID THAT TO HIM! THAT'S WHY I GAVE UP EVERYTHING FOR JOSH...I GOTTA MAKE AMENDS FOR THE PAST! SO I DON'T CARE WHAT HE DOES TO ME BECAUSE I DESERVE IT ALL AND A LOT MORE!” Tyler screamed and held on tight to Dallon’s shoulders. That way he could know that it was not only his duty, but his punishment to take care of Josh. It was the only way he felt that would at least somewhat balance out all the bad he caused him.

“Tyler bad things just happen sometimes. And it's not necessarily someone’s fault. Just how the world works sometimes. You had no idea that, that was going to happen to Josh and his family. Now THOSE MONSTERS are to blame Tyler. Not YOU!” Dallon told him sternly. He had no idea Tyler had this huge of a weight keeping him tied to Josh.

Tyler just broke down crying in Dallon’s arms. Sure he finally got him to open up. He had single handedly tore down his barriers. Made him feel all the emotions that Tyler had locked away long ago. He had accomplished his goal, but as Dallon cradled a broken Tyler as he cried and pleaded for Josh’s forgiveness. He wasn’t so sure if that was what he wanted it anymore.