Dear you,

I wondered how I could ever meet someone when every day I just go home after work, without going out at all. Occasionally, I'd go to a café to chat with friends and then go back home.

Honestly, I knew what I looked like, so no one really noticed me. You wouldn't believe it, right? Twelve years of school — not a single love letter, no confession, not even a rumor about someone having a crush on me. I stayed optimistic and brushed it off because, back then, I didn't need anyone. I didn't want to like anyone, and I didn't want anyone to like me either.

But things felt a bit different when I got to university. Life just got... duller. I tried to notice someone, and somehow, in a way I couldn't explain, I stopped liking them after just a few days — just because they did or said something I didn't like. If they did one thing that didn't match the image I had in mind, they instantly went on my blacklist. Haha.

People said I was too picky — that's why I stayed single for so long. But even if I was picky, why didn't anyone ever like me? It was a bit sad. Even when I was the only girl in class, I still couldn't find a single crush. It felt like I just couldn't like anyone.

So I spent four years of university going to class, then going home, and attending church on weekends. I prayed to God, asking Him to bring you to me, telling Him it's about time. But maybe God thought it still wasn't the right time. Hihi.

When I started working, I imagined maybe I'd meet someone at the office, and maybe life would become a little brighter. But well... my workplace had only a few people, and all of them already had partners or families. So even that possibility disappeared.

I didn't know what else to do, so I just let things be.

Until one day, my best friend — who sometimes used dating apps and met a lot of guys (he's gay, by the way) — suggested I try Tinder. At first, I was terrified and even looked down on people who used those apps. But I thought, why not? I had nothing to lose, so I gave it a try.

The first week on Tinder... oh my, I kept wondering — do handsome guys not use dating apps? Or are they all taken already?

By the second week, I matched with two or three people, but none of them texted me. One guy matched later, so I waved first. He replied with a few questions, then ghosted me. Nobody seemed to care, not even on a dating app.

I got frustrated and deleted it.

Around that time, I saw one of my cousins announce his engagement. They looked so perfect together, and I couldn't help wondering — why does everyone else seem to find good people so easily?

A week later, I downloaded Tinder again because I was bored during my lunch break at work. And boom... I swiped right on so many foreign guys, hehe. But I hesitated when I saw you. You only had one clear photo — the other two were of a dog and one is one eye of yours with a masked face, and your profile even said "University of Cambodia." ???! I was a little confused and hesitant because of that. To this day, I still don't understand why Cambodia?? Haha.

That was the first time I saw you. I hesitated for a few thousand seconds before swiping right. And I think that was one of the most fateful decisions in my life.

Then you messaged me, "Hey ;)))" and I replied, "Hiiii there." Nothing special, but it was the beginning of us, wasn't it?

It was 22/08/2025.

You know what? I was so happy. I even showed my two best friends, hihi. They didn't think it would work but still told me to give it a try. They gave me a little courage, so when you asked for my Instagram, I gave it to you. And that night, after you followed me, I couldn't stop smiling.

And from that moment, my lonely, quiet days... slowly changed into something unfamiliar — something I can only describe as happiness.

— PikaPika, 24/08/2025