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Everyone was sitting with Karan having worried expression on their face. By now even karan got to know about his damaged kidney and it will be a lie if he will say he is scared. He was worried about his family,if something happened to him,they might loose themselves in the pool of guilt. It's not easy for someone to overcome 5 years of severe depression and anxiety in a moment after you get your family back. He was still suffering but choosee to stay quiet. He still don't have any will to live cause to be honest he was just tired. Tired of fighting with his problems every now and then. If this would have happened with him few months back,he wouldn't have agreed for Operation as well. He would have choose to die but now he knows he has a family who will be destroyed if something happens to him. But still he was not happy with a decision of his family members about donating their kidney.

Seeing him lost aarav came and put hands on his shoulder and said- hey, what's wrong? Don't worry I'm pretty sure someone's kidney will surely match with yours.

Karan just give him small smile and at the same time they saw angry nandini entering inside and behind her Manik came manofying her

Raj- (lovingly)what happened nandini? Why are you so angry?

Nandini-(frustrated) ask from your stupid monster son dad...he didn't let me do the test for matching donor.

Manik(helplessly)- nandini I said na...if no one's kidney match with karan then you can go for it, why are you not understanding?

Nandini (angrily shouting)- but why can't I do it now Manik? I don't want to be a last option, I'm his mother for God's sake why can't I give my kidney to him?

Now Manik too lost his patience and shouted- I had explained to you already Nandini, I'm not putting your life in danger. You work more than any of us, you handle whole house Nd what about myrah haan? Who will handle her if you will be weak? Tell me? You are our backbone Nandini, why can't you understand this?

By now everything was cleared to everyone and they were agreeing with Manik. Even nandini knew she is becoming stubborn without any reason but she wants to do something for Karan. She is still blaming herself for all the hardships karan had to go through. Maybe after donating her kidney she can feel little better?

On the other hand both manik and karan were well aware why she is so adamant on donating her kidney but they can't risk her life for this reason. Specially when they know she is not the one who should be blamed.

Before Manik could speak something Karan asked everyone to go out as he wanted to talk to nandini alone.

After everyone went out Karan made nandini sat beside himself and hold her hands.

Karan(calmly)- I know maa why you want to donate your kidney. You really think you are at fault? Because of you I had to go through all those shit? Noo maa...noone was at fault except my bad fate. Maybe I was the one who deserves all that.

Nandini was going to say something but karan cut her in between and said.

Karan- let me speak maa...even though you will say it's not about my fate, then also you are not at fault. You  were friends with them from your teenage infact they were childhood friends of dad. We all trust our close friends don't we? Friends are our second family,thats what even you and dad thought about all of them. Mukti Bua was dad's little sister maa whom you and dad thought of as your first child. How can you not trust your child? You all are not a fault maa...you never was and you will never be. I want you to know one thing, I still feel that I destroy your happy family and if you will donate kidney I will feel more miserable. Please maa... please do this for me. It's becoming very hard for me to survive...I don't want any more  favours from anyone maa. I don't even want all of them to donate... it's not just about you, it's about everyone but even you know they won't agree also they will start blaming themselves once again. Noone I really mean,noone of you is at fault. I deserve all that, that's it.

Nandini didn't had anything to say, she wanted to donate her kidney also cause she was his mother not only cause she wanted to pay for her deeds but she choose to stay quiet and not let karan know about it cause she knew he won't believe her. Everyonee including herself thought that karan had overcome his mental illness but how can she forgets it's not easy to forget all the mental trauma a person had to go through? She decided to speak with everyone about this. She won't let her child suffer internally this time.

Before she could answer something Diya came inside and said- maa, reports have come, only dad's kidney match with karan. He said he will donate it.

Listening her Nandini was somewhat relief that Karan will be fine soon but she was worried about manik too
Whereas karan closed his eyes in frustration and guilt,he definitely didn't wanted this.

Soon karan and Manik was taken in their respective operation theatre while everyone else stayed outside praying to God to keep both of them safe.

( I know you guys wanted Nandini to donate, but there is something big coming up and that's why I can't let nandini donate her kidney. I hope you all will understand)

Before doctors could Start operation one nurse came running inside manik's room and stopped doctor.

Nurse- sir, we don't have to take Mr Malhotra's kidney, there is one patient who had died just now and he had asked his family members to donate every body parts of his to needy.

Doctor- what? That's a good news but did his kidney matched with Karan's?

Nurse- yes sir,it did.

Everyone was relieved listening that,on the other hand even karan was informed about this, he was happy with this little news. He didn't wanted anyone from his family to donate their kidney.

Doctor asked Manik to get up which he did and came out. Seeing him coming out even nandini ran towards him and hug him tightly.

Nandini- see Manik, aiyaapppa listened to us. Manik that family give that person's kidney without any money,I think we should help them. They are very poor manii that's what nurse told me.

Manik-yes Jaan, we will...let me ask doctor about that family.

Doctor was going towards Karan's room when Manik stopped him and asked him about that patient's family.

Doctor- I'm sorry Mr Malhotra we can't tell you about that family, they asked us not to tell you also they don't want to sell their family members kidney by taking money. They said it was just a act of kindness from their side.

Manik-but still doctor, if not by giving money we can might help them through some jobs or by paying their some loan if they have any? Or maybe I can pay for their child education if they have any kids.

Doctor- I know what you are trying to say Mr Malhotra,but they have strictly asked us not to let you know their identity. I'm sorry I can't help you with this Mr Malhotra.

Saying this he went towards karan while Everyone was confused but cabir asked them to let it go and concentrate on karan for now. In all this nobody noticed one person was missing.

After 2 weeks. At night

Karan got discharged one day after operation only. He was resting on his bed but his thoughts were not leaving his mind. He was feeling as if his own mind is his enemy. He was having intrusive thoughts as well, but he didn't know how to explain to anyone or how to control his mind. One drop of tear left from his closed eyes to which he sighed tiredly. He just got up and started searching for his pills. He was going to take them but remember nandini's words of how she asked him for a promise that he won't have this pills no matter what.. few days ago. He groaned in frustration and came down to see everyone sitting in living room discussing something or the other.

Seeing him coming mrudula and aarav got up and hold him from each side giving him support while everyone else made space for him to sit.

Raj- what was the need of coming down Bacha? You should have called us.

Mrudu-yes, why did you come down all alone?

Aarav-what if you would have fallen down idiot?

Already karan was frustrated and now this question session was getting on his nerves. He just calm himself down and sat down without answering anything to anyone.

Karan (tiredly)- I'm fine...I just needed to get out of that room. I'm tired of resting. (Then he turned towards Raj and said) dadu, can I come with you to office tomorrow? I really want to work,or can you give me something to work on? Any project or something? I'm already done with my school work.

Before raj could say something,Manik said loudly.

Manik- (angrily+loudly) are you mad? Why do you need to work this much? I told you to stop doing office work right? And why did you do your school work as well, didn't doctor asked you to take complete rest for 2 months?

Nandini immediately realised seeing Karan's expression that he is disturbed. All the things going on made her forget about having a talk with Manik about Karan's mental health. She cursed herself mentally and tried stopping Manik. She knew karan might be feeling a lot more anxious, frustrated and manik talking this loudly and stopping Karan from doing work which is for now his only way of escape can cause Karan to blast.

She put her hands on Manik's shoulder and said- manii, please calm down. We can talk na... it's okay.

Manik- no it's not okay nandini, why do he needs to work when all of us are here? He should be concentrating on his school, his social life not all this shit. Infact for now he should just take complete rest.

Being already tired of his mind and now Manik's shouting was not helping karan at all. He still tried to be calm and rubbed his sweating hands on his jeans. Firstly he didn't got his pills, secondly his intrusive thoughts had taken over his mind by now and in addition Manik's behaviour was making him insane. Earlier he used this working on other stuffs as his only way of escape from his own mind which becomes his enemy and now manik is asking him to leave that as well?

Karan(calmly)- dad... please understand...I really need to work,I can't sit idly. And about having social life you know I can't go out and party right now in this state and about social media? I don't have any interest in chatting with someone or playing some random games. I can't sit like this, I need something or the other to work.

Manik didn't had any idea about karan using work as his escape mechanism. He really thought Karan was working earlier cause he wanted to be independent and not depend on anyone including him, Raj or neyonika. But now everything is fine right? Didn't he forgive them? He was already hurt that his baby sister,his friends betrayed him so bad and now the thought that his son has still not forgive him was making him drown in pool of sadness,guilt,agony and what not which came out as anger. What he doesn't know was Karan was never angry on him, he is angry on himself about how he is not Able to control his mind and how he is still having suicidal thoughts and about he is having fear that he will go mentally insane.

Overcoming depression and anxiety is never easy,it takes years of healing,patience and love which manik and everyone else were not aware of yet.

Listening karan and then his own thoughts about karan's working and recent happenings made manik speak something which shocked karan to the core.

Manik(frustratingly)- enough is enough Karan! I'm telling you won't work In office anymore and that's final. Why do you want to work haan? Do you still want to prove everyone of us that you are independent and that you don't need anyone of us? We are aware of that already, or you are letting us know that you haven't forgive us yet? Tell me...tell me what should I do that you can forgive us and move on?

Now karan lost his patience and stand up angrily. Nandini knew that now this is the end and he had lost his calm.

Karan(shouting)- move on dad? Move on? You really think overcoming a trauma of fucking 8 years is easy? That you can just get your family back after 8 years and boom everything is fine? Out of everyone you think like this? I never,I never blamed you or anyone in this family. I have told you this multiple times. How should I tell you I'm frustrated with myself only? And what should I tell you huh? That I'm still suffering from my mental illness or that how I'm still having suicidal thoughts or how I'm having fear of going insane or mentally unstable? Or how whenever I see any pill Or knife or something how I have this thought to kill myself then and there only? I...I had forgiven you guys earlier only, forget forgiving I was never angry at you guys. I wanted to work cause this is the only way about how I can distract my mind from all those shits and past memories. If I was doing all this to make you feel guilty na I wouldn't have stopped taking pills when maa asked me too, I wouldn't have agreed for Operation when I knew you will be the one who will be donating it. I would have never tried to stop working in office cause you said so. If I can understand your feelings why can't you understand about how I can't just leave every freaking things just like that? Forget it...I really don't want to talk about anything to anyone. You don't want me to work? FINE. I won't.

Saying this he went upstairs shocking everyone with the outburst. Manik was just numb, he never thought his son is going through all this?

Ram(blank)- what just happened?

Ishita- (Guilty)we should have noticed this. It's obvious for a 17 year old to still not overcome his trauma.

Nandini (sighed)- it's not about age ishu... it's difficult for everyone to overcome their trauma. It takes great courage and Karan is doing everything he can to be a better person. It's us who lacked.

Neyonika placed her hands on Manik's hair and lovingly called out his name.

Neyonika- (worried) Manik, say something Bacha.

Manik-(numb) I failed ma.