hello, and welcome to MY SONGS OF THE YEAR FOR 2018

*ahem*

this has taken me,,, too long

these aren't necessarily songs that came out this year, or ones that i only got into this year. theyre just songs i realllly enjoyed this year yay

unlike songs of the month i haven't left any notes cause i don't want this to be too painful to read (if anyone does), and i just put them in alphabetical order because i didn't know what else to do with them ahhhh

without further ado... here is the list (thanks spotify):

1 | a cautionary tale - the mean girls musical

2 | after ever after 3 - jon cozart

3 | all i want for christmas is you (2005) - my chemical romance

4 | a little less sixteen candle, a little more touch me - fall out boy 

5 | apex predator - the mean girls musical

6 |  baby youre a haunted house - gerard way

7 | bird that carries you over a disproportionately small gap - tony fox, the undertale soundtrack

8 | birds - thomas sanders ft. terrence williams jr

9 |  burn - hamilton

10 |  cancer - my chemical romance

11 | cecily smith - will collonny

12 | cemetery drive - my chemical romance

13 | chlorine - twenty one pilots

14 | crofters: the musical - thomas sanders

15 | crush - tessa violet

16 | cousin - 21 chump street

17 | dasher - gerard way ft lydia night

18 | dead - my chemical romance   

19 | dirt - emma blackery 

20 | disenchanted - my chemical romance

21 | dying in la - panic at the disco

22 | flames - david guetta ft sia

23 | freeze your brain - heathers the musical

24 | found/tonight - lin manuel miranda and ben platt

25 | getting down the germs - gerard way

26 | girlish body - shane dawson

27 | god, i hate shakespeare - something rotten

28 | helena - my chemical romance

29 | here comes a thought - steven universe soundtrack  

30 | high hopes - panic at the disco

31 | how far i'll go - moana

32 | house of memories - panic at the disco

33 | house of wolves - my chemical romance 

34 | i can do better than that - the last five years

35 | i don't love you - my chemical romance

36 | i'd rather be me - mean girls the musical

37 | i'll make a man out of you - mulan 

38 | i'm not okay (i promise) - my chemical romance

39 | immortals - fall out boy

40 | impossible year - panic at the disco

41 | incomplete (the puzzle song) - thomas sanders

42 | i never told you what i do for a living - my chemical romance

43 | in the bedroom down the hall - dear evan hansen

44 | levitate - twenty one pilots

45 | life lesson - dodie

46 | mama (live demo) - my chemical romance

47 | meant to be yours - heathers the musical 

48 | model behavior - women on the verge of a nervous breakdown the muscial

49 | na na na (na na na na na na na na na) - my chemical romance

50 | not today - twenty one pilots

51 | requiem - dear evan hansen

52 | revenge party - mean girls the musical

53 | save rock and roll - fall out boy  

54 | secret for the mad - dodie

55 | seventeen - heathers the musical

56 | sincerely, me - dear evan hansen

57 | smithereens - twenty one pilots

58 | someone gets hurt - mean girls the musical

59 | stop - mean girls the musical  

60 | superluv - shane dawson

61 | thank you for the venom - my chemical romance

62 | the end - my chemical romance

63 | the jetset life is gonna kill you - my chemical romance

64 | the kids aren't alright - fall out boy

65 | the light behind your eyes - my chemical romance

66 | the sharpest lives - my chemical romance

67 | the things we used to share - thomas sanders

68 | the world is ugly - my chemical romance

69 | this is gospel - panic at the disco 

70 | this isn't hogwarts - hank green

71 | times a hard for dreamers (pop version) - amelie 

 72 | tina takes newt in / the macusa headquarters - fantastic beasts and where to find them soundtrack

73 | to the end - my chemical romance

74 | toxic - the barden bellas, pitch perfect 3 

75 | waving through a window - dear evan hansen

76 | we are the champions - queen

77 | what the heck i gotta do - 21 chump street

78 | where did the party go - fall out boy

79 | where do you belong - mean girls the musical

80 | won't say (i'm in love) - herceleus

81| won't say i'm in love (mashup) - thomas sanders

82 | words fail - dear evan hansen

83 | world burn - mean girls the musical

84 | would you be so kind - dodie  

there's probably a mistake in there somewhere oops

now. this is gonna be my last post of the year, and although i wholeheartedly believe that time is an illusion and new year is actually pointless, i thought i'd tag a few people who deserve more appreciation because i love and care about them:

BigBoyCikada2 for making the cover for this book, I love it and I also love your twitter!

Creatively-Anxious for being so kind and politically correct (lol) when asking me about my name change, and just generally being a great human <3

TheGayJay for iconically congratulating me on 420 followers, which I still have screenshotted on my phone lmao. your writing is amazing, i hope you are well!

flameme for still checking up on me after all these years. i hope 2018 has treated you well, and that we can catch up soon x

maximumluv2004 for helping me through a panic attack this year. you probably don't remember, but i do, and i don't know what i would of done without you, so thank you x

StardustGypsy for BEING SUCH A SUPPORTIVE AND KIND HUMAN. you are constantly replying to my comments, with funny, caring words and you've really been there for me through a lot of changes that have happened this year. hopefully one day i can repay the favour!

xXAestheticAnxietyXx although you may be a fairly new friend of my mine, we have a lot in common and i really enjoy talking to you. i hope you know that you can always talk to me, and you. deserve. better (you know what i'm talking about.) love ya x

amarooze youre always so supportive of me and i'm very grateful to have you in my life! thank you again for that chapter you wrote, it (obviously) hit really close to home and i just. love. you :)))

_i_am_confusion_ i know you don't like long paragraphs so just a reminder that i love youuuu and youre the besttttt

Rockytop767 hopefully you know how much i love you, and that you mean so much to me. i feel so bad all the time because your always the one to message first, i promise i'll try harder to get in touch more often :( you're such a good friend and i'll always treasure the foof rp, the oneshots we've written and our friendship in general :3 i love youuuu

-Satan_- i idolised you for soooo long before we became friends lmao your writing is amazing, your really funny and chill to talk to, while still being supportive and just generally great. i look forward to my postcard in 2019 my best fri and twin x also WE'RE PLATONIC ANALOGICAL AH

TrulyNothingEnds i'll be totally honest, youre the reason i decided to write this section of this post in the first place. becoming friends with you is probably one of the best things that has happened to me this year; you're one of the first people i think of to talk to you when something is wrong, we really click in conversation (even if all we do is type in caps oops), and you've always been so kind to me, even though i really don't deserve it. i hope you know that you can always talk to me, because youre not a burden, you are wonderful, and you. deserve. the. wORLD. also, youre incredibly talented! your writing style has transformed this year from great to AMAZING, your artistic, your poetry is good, you give great advice, your intelligent! i could go on. but i'll stop now, because my mind has gone blank even though i definitely had more to say oops, but hopefully you get the message. you're amazing and i love you urgh if y'all don't follow this bitch your doing something  wrong xxx

doN'T WORRY i'm done with all the sappiness. but i really do love you all you're all the besttt

(sorry if i forgot anyone call me out lol)

one more thing before i piss off until next year - i was looking back at some old chapters and screenshots and realised my follower count has more than doubled this year? what the heck? you guys are amazing, thank you so much x

right. i better go. i hope you've all had a good year, and have an even better 2019!

- virgil :3