A/N: meeeee!☝🏻️Lol

Shoutouts: CastawayHemmmo, hypocal, PaynefullyObsessed

Dedication: Elsa_Almeerah_Delle

As always, 

-ily xx

[Niall] 

I haven't spoken to Caitriona in a few days. I guess I'm just unsure, I don't know if I'm unsure of what I want, or if I'm unsure about her. I just can't wrap my mind around the whole Ronan deal, how could she let him act so cold to her?

Maybe I am just over reacting, I just need her right now. Just her, nothing else. Just to sit and lie under the midnight stars, to kiss her softly and just hold her hand in comfort. 

I know for a fact that there is just something about Caitriona Aimee Walsh. I don't care what it is, I don't know if it's the glow in her hair, or her porcelain complexion that I feel so scared to touch, or just her beautiful smile and her willfulness to dare everyone around her. 

She makes me so nervous every time she comes into the room. She makes the butterflies in my stomach resurface and an anxious smile spread across my face. 

I want to take a chance with her, but I don't know if she's ready, or if I am. I just know deep down, in every single crevice of me, and even deeper down into my soul, my heart...that in just two weeks, I've fallen madly in love with Caitriona Aimee Walsh.

And there is no way I'm going back.

I quickly text her, not even knowing if she'll answer back. I just feel so different, I have goosebumps surrounding my entire body. I begin dancing in my room, only in my boxers, and with a hair brush. 

And I start singing No Control.

Now I'm pretty sure if you saw this I'd look like a complete idiot, but my feelings and emotions are fueling me, with an uncontrollable bliss. I jump up and down on my bed, singing the chorus with a happy grin.

I start to sing the part of the song that I do declare true. 

"Lost my senses, I'm defenseless, her perfume's holding me ransom, sweet and sour, heart devoured, lying here I-" 

"Niall what the hell are you doing?" Aedan says looking confused, as I hop off my bed with an embarrassed expression. "Your Mum said you were making a ruckus and wanted me to check up on you! God Man! You've embarrassed the pride of every man looking like a Hannah Montana wannabe!" he said not even looking me in the eye.

"You're never gonna forget this are you" I sigh.

"Kinda hard not to" he says shaking his head as I run a hand through my hair.

"Just put a shirt on and I'll never mention this again" he says slamming the door shut as I face palm, then I hear a notification.

Caitriona🙃

I'll meet you a block from my house asap xx

{Caitriona}

Niall hasn't talk to me for a few days, I've seen him, but he's ignored me. I could see why, he must've known in someway I wasn't telling him everything that was going on between me and Ronan.

Ronan and I are together...but that's only by his standards, by his standards I mean he gets to fool around and flirt with other girls but I can't talk or be near any other guy on this damn continent. 

I wish...that I meant something to someone.

Niall xx

I want to show you something <3

The text set me off a bit, I don't know what I want to say. I don't know how long I can continue this, or drag Niall into my mess. I don't understand why he wants to be my friend, especially after I turned him down.

Caitriona

I'll meet you a block from my house asap xx

I rush out of my house, not even caring if my Mum yells for me. Her words are muffled with the sound of my heart beating, my adrenaline rising. I feel myself running, running away, but from what? Am I running away from the past or am I running away from the present that I want to escape from...only time will tell.

I feel scared, confused, and trapped...I am consumed in my mistakes.

I feel a pair of hands stop me at my shoulders. I just want to keep running but I can't. Niall surrounds me in a hug, stroking my hair and soothing me as a few tears escape my eyes.

"Are you okay?" He asks, grabbing my face and searching into my eyes. I bury my face into his chest, I just want a friend that can hold me like this, like I actually matter for once.

"Yeah I'm okay" I say as he wipes my eyes. 

"Here climb up on my back" he said as I looked at him questionably, crossing my arms. 

"I have a pair of feet you know" I say sarcastically as I see a smirk form on his face. 

"You just don't give up do you?" He chuckles. "Okay then-"

"But a piggy back ride would be nice" I smile. "You know because my feet hurt a little" I cover up.

 "That's what I thought" he laughs as I wrap my hands around his neck and jump on his back.  

He walked into the cornfields, so no one would see us. I bury my face in the scent of his hair, and I feel everything around me disappear, like it was just him and I. He stopped and placed me down gently at this small creek that I've never seen before. 

It's sunset and the sky is illuminated with pinks, purples, blues, oranges, and yellows. I stare at the sky breathlessly, taking in its every feature. I feel this wind blow through my hair, as Niall pulls me toward the dock.

"Wow it's so" I pause. "Beautiful" I breathe as we take off our shoes. I let my feet dangle into the water as Niall sits next to me. 

"My Grandpa would take my grandma here all the time" he pauses rolling up his pants and placing his feet into the water. "He said that every Sunday they would journey here, just so he could sit up against that tree and read to her. She didn't even care what he read her, but she loved it when he read her poems" he smiled taking my hand. 

"And if you don't mind, I wrote you a poem" he smiled as I blushed, smiling ear to ear. 

Waking up to kiss you and nobody's there,

The smell of your perfume still stuck in the air,

It's hard,

Yesterday I thought I saw your shadow running round,

It's funny how things never change in this old town,

So far from the stars,

And I want to tell you everything,

The words I never got to say the first time around,

And I remember everything,

From when we were the children playing in this fairground,

Wish I was there with you now,

If the whole world was watching I'd still dance with you,

Drive highways and byways to be there with you,

Over and over the only truth,

Everything comes back to you.

"I wonder what unfortunate girl you wrote that for" I tease. "I'm kidding, I'm kidding" I pause. "It's beautiful" I say as he blushes a bit. 

"I'm glad you were kidding" he chuckles. "I'm glad you like it though. I actually wrote this a while back about this girl who is just so fascinating and beautiful...I don't think there enough words on this earth to describe her" he says softly reminiscing his love. 

"I wish Ronan would do something like that. All he does is get high and shoot beer pong all day" I laugh, and then feel the pain of actually how truthful it was. It really hurts me how cold he is towards me.

"I don't know why he wouldn't..." he trails off, his voice almost in a whisper, His face draws closer to mine. "You're perfectly beautiful Katie" he says softly, drifting his lips nearer and near to mine...and then he pulls away. 

"I'm sorry, um I forgot the whole...you know" he clears his throat getting up. "Um just forget that all of this happened" he says awkwardly, placing his hands in his pockets. 

"Oh okay" I sigh almost wishing he didn't say that. 

"Okay well I'm gonna go...so goodnight" he says pushing his way through the cornfields until he's no longer visible. 

I feel so confused, why was I hurt that he didn't kiss me? 

Did I want him to?

I hear ruffling again from the fields and I see Niall reappear from the darkness. 

"Excuse me for my rudeness, um would you like me to walk you home?" He asks as I nod. 

The way back to my house was quite silent for the most part. Once we reached my house he stopped walking.

"Well this is it" I say.

"Yep" he sighs, shrugging as his hands stay in his pockets. "Well goodnight" he turns around, walking towards his house.

"Um Niall?" I say, stopping him. He turns around and meets my gaze.

"Thanks for being my friend." I smile. "I know I'm not the easiest to warm up to. So thanks" I say.

"No problem" he smiles slightly, and then it fades. We both walk back into our houses and drift to sleep.

But I couldn't really sleep.

// 

I'm crying, again...hope you liked it!

New update soon!

As always, 

-ily xx