A/N: I know this chapter may be a bit boring but next chapter you will meet someone very important to the story. 

After he said those words, it was like my whole world stopped. Liam leaves, stumbling out of the front door. 

"Niall that's not what I meant.." I trail off grabbing his wrist but he snatches it from my grasp. 

"Really Caitriona? Really?" He pauses, pinching the bridge of his nose. "Do you know how hard it will be for me if we stay together? I have to take care of Amelia while your gone at school and on top of that be her father since Liam isn't sure what he wants"

"I know Niall-" 

"I'm not done" he snaps. "Kate, what are you gonna do if I start touring again? How is this all gonna work out? I can't have you stay here with him." He pauses. 

"I don't want anyone to take you from me, not anymore" he sighs, grabbing me by my waist. "I didn't really mean I wanted to break up with you, I was just so angry..." he trails of searching for something in my eyes. "I can't loose you, ever" he leans, kissing me deeply. 

"I love you" I whisper as he looks into my eyes. 

"I know" he sighs, pulling me into a hug. He kisses my hair and rubs my back softly. 

I know things are hard for him, they are hard for me too. I just wish he could understand that. I honestly don't know what I would do if he started touring again. 

What hurt the most was that he couldn't bring himself to say I love you back to me. I wanted to hear him say it, but he didn't. He stopped hugging me and pecked my lips before saying he had to go. I watched him leave me again and I feel a pang in my chest. 

Does he love me?

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The next day xx

Today is the first day of going back to college and I feel very excited. I'm really nervous though that I won't make any friends, since the only friends I ever had always leave me for my mistakes. I don't know why but I always pick the wrong crowd...and end up hurting myself or others. 

Niall also hasn't texted or called since yesterday, and I'm anxious to see him. He's supposed to take me to school today, I mean I have a car but we've already previously made plans that he would take me on my first day. 

I really want to make an impression on my professors, so I have to ditch the whole "I don't care rebellious look". So I take off all of my makeup from yesterday, and finally got a real look at myself. I can actually see my freckles that I always so desperately want to cover up. I also see my ocean blue eyes without so much darkness surrounding them, not only that...I see me. Someone so different than I try to be, maybe that's why people don't like me. 

I only show what I let them see, someone who isn't me. 

I let my hair dry in its natural waves instead of straightening it, realizing how long it is now. I should probably get it cut soon. I pull out a black dress with pink flowers all over it, and pair it with a long tan cardigan. I wasn't going to wear heels today since I didn't want my feet to kill me later; so I pulled out my black flats. 

I am very short, so when I don't wear heels it feels at little weird since I can barely see myself in my bedroom mirror. The closest I could get to see myself was if I stood on my tippy toes. 

I grabbed my books and stuffed them into my bag, I was so happy I actually got them before school started. I really didn't want to get them the first day because I probably would've bought a smaller bag than I actually needed. 

I waited silently on the porch until Niall came. 

Caitriona

Hey babe :) I'm waiting xx

And ten minutes later...

Hey are you okay? Your supposed to drive me today remember?

Five minutes later...

Niall I'm gonna be late...why aren't you answering?? 

Niall I seriously have to go😡

Ten minutes later...

Fine. I'm leaving, I'll see you later. 

I was so mad that he didn't come. I was racing to school with ten minutes to spare. Why wasn't he messaging me? I wonder if he's still mad at me about yesterday, I still explained to him what happened but he didn't even care. 

And I wonder again...

Does he love me?

Just as I pull onto campus I look at the clock on the dashboard and see I have two minutes left. I pull right in front of my class and stop my car, not even caring that I'm not in a valid parking spot. I run inside thanking myself for not wearing heels today. I sit in the last row by the door just before my professor shuts the door. 

"Excuse me...sorry" I mutter giving her a small, embarrassed smile. As I take my seat. 

"I do not tolerate late students" she spits. "Your career rests in the hands of me and I will not pass you if your late" she looks at me with wide eyes, making the entire room stare at me. I lower my head and say, "yes Ma'am" 

"Very well, let's start class" 

Since this was my only class for today besides advanced anatomy, I knew that this woman would drain any slight of happiness from my life in 80 minutes. 

"Well let me introduce myself" she says. "I am professor Winters, please do not call me hey you, or bro, or any other trending slang. I preferred to be called Professor Winters" she pauses. 

"This semester I will be teaching you Nursing Practice and Theory, we will be talking about  different types of nursing areas, and we also will have a semester project which takes up most of your grade. In this project, you will pick you desired nursing area and volunteering at a hospital for the semester. You will need to apply the topics learned in class to your job, and you will need an eight page report documenting your experience. You can read more about the project in the syllabus.."

There is no absolute way I can do this...I have Emilia, and there's always the possibility Niall could be on tour at any moment...

This is not how I imagined college to be.

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More chapters to come soon! in the meantime, check out Remember Me - H.S.

-ily xx