"I like you Carter"

I closed my eyes as I said that, not wanting to see Carter's face. I cannot believe I said that. Did I really just told Carter that I have feelings for him?

For a moment there was a relief in me. That I finally told the truth, finally admitted my feelings in front of Carter. But that relief was soon gone, replaced with regret.

Why am I so stupid? Why can't I just control my feelings? I thought I was going to forget about Carter but I am standing here in front of him telling him how I feel about him.

There was still silence surrounding us, he didn't say a single word in response of my huge confession. I would open my eyes to look at him, to see if he was still here but the embarrasement didn't let me.

A few more tears slid down my face as I waited. Waited for him to say something, anything. But there was still quite in my room.

"I think I should leave" he said finally.

I heard the scuffling, my door opening  and then closing. My eyes were still closed, not ready to face this world. What have I done? How will I face Carter now, everytime I would see him or he sees him we will be reminded of this moment. What if after knowing the truth he will never talk to me again, won't want to see me again.

Maybe its for the right. I need to let him go, forget him cause my feelings for him are not going to help me in anyway. I need to get rid of Carter and the feelings he give me.

I opened my eyes slowly, wiping away the tears. My eyes not adjusted to this new light of the world.

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"I am so done with boys" said Ally as she took a sip of her coffee.

It was growing beyond cold here. I didn't want to leave the house because of the cold. The wind went all the way in, rattling my body.

We were at the cafe, I was on the counter today, taking order. Ally sat in front of me.

"Tell me about it" I replied, cleaning the counter.

"I cannot believe Mason told Nina about it, he told me that he wouldn't, that we will forget about it like it never happened and then he went and told Nina about it." She said, her anger raising with every word.

"He didn't even honour our friendship" she said softly now, staring at the coffee.

"Ally maybe you shouldn't have brought Drake with you, if you had a problem with Nina going we could have just stayed home, Mason would have realised his mistake and everything would be okay" I said trying to make her understand.

"I know Eva, I just thought that if Mason saw Drake it would piss him of and-"

"And he will start to have feelings for you?" I completed looking into her eyes.

She lowered her gaze as if ashamed.

"That's not how it works and you know you have to go to Drake and apologise to him about that day, he must have been very happy when you invited her"

"I want to go to him and apologize but after how he left us all alone in that creepy parking lot I am not seeing his face ever again" she replied stubbornly.

I took in a deep breath hoping she would understand. I honestly think Drake would be good for Ally, better than Mason.

"Ally I think you should start taking Drake seriously. He is actually not a bad guy, he took a bullet for us remember?" I said leaning a little forward.

She took another sip of her coffee and looked at me sharply.

"Maybe its Drake you is suppose to make you happy not Mason" I said slowly causing a dramatic effect to it.

"Oh stop it, tell me about what is happening between you and Carter" she said raising her eyebrow.

At the mention of his name all the memories from yesterday came back, memories that I don't want to remember. I have been trying not to think about it, think of it as just a dream I had.

My eyes wandered to the cup of coffee in Ally's hand, there was steam still coming out of it.

"Eva is everything okay?" She asked tenderly. 

I don't know she does it move from one emotion to the next so quickly.

"I told him" I said going back to cleaning the counter so I don't have to think about what I said.

"What?" She said as if she hasn't heard a word I have said.

"I told Carter what I feel about him" I said irritated that I have to repeat it again. 

You don't really shout out your stupidity out loud.

"No you didn't" she replied taking in other sip like I was just kidding with her.

I looked at sternly, trying to convey with my eyes cause I don't want to say it out loud again. That I am speaking the truth. Why doesn't she just believe me.

"Eva you couldn't even go up and ask the teacher to go to the bathroom in third grade how can you go up to a guy you have a crush on and tell him you like him. That's a really an uneva thing to do.

"Fine if you don't want to believe" I said grabbing the cloth I was cleaning the counter with and turning around to leave.

She held my elbow from behind.

"You really told him?"

I turned back to her and nodded desperately.

"Oh my God. This is even worse than me bring Drake" she said with a giggle.

She stopped laughing aftet seeing my face. I was about to kill her and she knew it.

"This is very serious" she said sitting up straight.

"What did he say?"

I looked away before replying.

"He said nothing, just left" I stated.

He really said nothing, is that how you react? When a girl tells you that she likes you? Carter makes me so frustrated.

"Are you kidding me? He really didn't say anything?" She asked surprised.

"I cannot believe this, I am going to kill him, I am going to kill these boys, they are making us girls miserable and I don't knoe about other girls but nobody makes Ally James and Eva Evans miserable. He is going to pay" she said standing up.

For the next half an hour she kept telling me that everything is going to be okay, that she will do something, kill someone but none of her words were helping.

There was this hollowness inside me that I couldn't fill, it has been growing day after day and now I wish I hadn't ignore it.

............................

I walked over to the restroom. I was at the school, doing my maths homework, Mason wasn't here so I had to do all of it on my own. Come to think about Mason he has been ignoring me and Ally since that day. But that doesn't surprise me what surprises me is the way Nina is with us.

She is not the nice always giggling Nina that I remembered, she is cold now towards me and Ally. Its like someone has taken over her. I am not liking her these days at all and I miss my friend Mason. Before I didn't like Nina and Mason together because of Ally but now its because I lost my friend.

I made my way to the bathroom and closed the door behind me. Before I could do anything I heard the rest room door open with a loud bang and footsteps.

"Carter this is the girl's rest room we're going to be in trouble if someone catches us" came Caroline's voice.

But what perked my ears up was the name Carter.

I slowly opened the door a little, enough to make me see what was going on outside.

I watched as Carter walked back to the door and clocked it. Turning around he advanced towards Caroline, he looked angry. Really angry. Holding Caroline by her elbow he put her against the wall. Placing his both hands on either side of her face.

"Did you and Kaiden found them yet?" He said looking at her. His eyes total black.

"I don't know what your talking about" replied Caroline looking anywhere other than Carter.

"You do know that your going to get youself in trouble again with this, Kaiden is already a dead game but he is going to take you down with him" said Carter again.

She tried to push Carter away but he didn't bulge.

"Let me go" she said gritting her teeth, looking him in the eye now.

"You tried to get into Eva's house didn't you?"

I found myself stopped breathing after hearing my name.

"Do you really think that I would hide the drugs at Eva's house? Do you really think I would drag Eva into this sick world that we are a part of?" He asked his anger radiating all the way to me.

Drugs?

"And did you really thought that I didn't know the reason why you came back? Why you wanted to date me again? I used you Caroline, like every other guy. Like Rick, like Kaiden" he said with a smile now.

He looked pure evil now, I watched as Caroline's eyes filled up with tears.

"Stay the hell away from Eva, if you and Kaiden tried to do anything with her the consequences are going to be brutal. Remember that"

His smile was gone as he said that, his eyes not leaving Caroline's for once. I took a breath after feeling a burn in my chest due to the lack of oxygen.

"You and me we are done" he said and stepped aside.

Giving her one last look he turned around and left. I closed the door gently and moved back a little, hoping Caroline wouldn't realise I was here, that I have watched all of this.

What the hell is going on?

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Here you go a chapter for you on the dreaded monday. This is a short one but I hope you enjoy it.
Also did you all notice? THIS IS LOVE IS NOW IN THE TOP 1000. WHAT? OTS UNBELIEVABLE. RIGHT NOW ITS AT NUMBER 610. YAY!! THIS IS CRAZY!!!!
I can't wait for more people to read my story and thankyou to the ones who are reading. I love you all so much.
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