I wrote 5 pages for you

Front and back

In the tiniest writing I could

I wanted to fit everything in the paper I could

I poured out all my thoughts and feelings for and about you into those 5 sheets of paper.

I wrote them late at night when I couldn't stop thinking

I wrote them on the bus when I was alone

I wrote them in the back of my classes

Secret little papers

I spent a lot of time on them

Perfecting them

Saying things in them I would never say out loud

Writing out the truth

I let 2 of my best friends read them

The awed over them and one of them started crying and said "y'all are going to last. Your better for him then I was." 

They dared me to give them to you

Telling me that you would love them and that it would be cute.

For 2 hours the egged me into it

Eventually I said I would give them to you

What's the worst that could happen

So I gave them to you

And you never even looked at them

You took and you threw them away while two of your best friends watched

You threw a papers that I had poured my heart out into because you just didn't care

And it hurt me a lot

But not as much as when we got into the fight after you broke up with me

It didn't hurt me as much as everything you said did

It didn't hurt as much as the rumors that you spread around school

it didn't hurt as much as the things people said to me now that I had no idea was even a thing

It didn't hurt as much as the things you called me behind my back and then to my face

It didn't hurt as much as my friends leaving me because of the stuff you made up

It didn't hurt as much seeing you everyday knowing that once upon a time I used to the head over heels for you and now every time I see you I feel like crying

So I guess you throwing away the papers was just the first in a line of many.