Running isn't the answer. Murdoc thought as he stared at 2d. He was hurt, really hurt, but wasn't going to show it. 2d held his glass of water in both hands, staring at it and doing his best to keep himself quiet as he cried.

Murdoc wanted to leave, but knew that it would only fuck things up more. The fact that 2d supposedly cheated on him didn't change how Murdoc felt about him, he still wanted him. Right now, he had to be the bigger man and deal with this, otherwise this whole relationship of theirs would be over. 2d was a mess, and Murdoc realised that he meant every single word in his apology, but Murdoc still felt bad. Could he ever trust the bluenette again?

"I'm sorry..." 2d mumbled out, not even trying to make eye contact. He was sad and empty, his life meaningless.

"I know you're sorry." Murdoc sounded bored of those words. "Now stop." 2d furrowed his eyebrows in confusion.

"What do you mean stop?" 2d slightly turned his head towards Murdoc, but refused eye contact. He was leaning forward, resting his elbows on his knees, while Murdoc was leaning back on the couch.

"Stop being sorry." Murdoc was slightly irritated. He wanted to forget that this happened, just get over it and return to their usual routine. Why does it feel like he's in more pain than me?

"But I hurt you...!" 2d sounded slightly offended.

"No you didn't." Murdoc's words were empty. He just wanted to convince 2d that it's alright so that they could forget about this. He preferred to suffer alone. Not to mention the fact that he felt guilty because of how much 2d was crying.

"But I-"

"You didn't." Murdoc cut him off, not wanting to hear those words again. "How could you have cheated on me if we're not even dating?" He asked.

"But..." 2d didn't know what to say. He looked down sadly.

"Was it a guy or a girl?" Murdoc asked. He didn't really want to know, the answer would make him more miserable, but he knew that all the questions would eat him out from the inside if he didn't ask. He never wanted to speak about this again.

"A girl..." 2d took a sip of his water. He stopped crying by now.

"So how did this happen?" 2d looked down.

"You sure you want to know...?" Murdoc sighed.

"Talking about it will make you feel better, yeah."

"But will it make you feel better?" 2d asked, concerned and guilty.

"I'm fine." Murdoc insisted. They both knew he was lying. "Just tell me." In reality, Murdoc was hiding his sadness behind his anger, he was disappointed and felt like he lost the meaning of his life.

"Ok... well..." 2d momentarily hesitated "I got a message from an old friend saying that she's coming to the area for Christmas, she said she wanted to meet up. Her name's Maddie, we used to be friends a few years back, but then she moved away. I used to have a crush on her... I agreed to meet up with her because it's always nice to meet with old friends, right?" 2d sounded guilty.

"Yeah." Murdoc wasn't pleased. A childhood friend? Fucking great. As if it wasn't already hard enough to get him to like me. And now she shows up and fucking ruins it. Great.

"Well, yesterday my mom asked me how things are going with you, and if we're still just friends. I said yeah, but... we talked... and... I ended up leaving to go to my room and having a panic attack... I got scared... I thought... that you didn't feel anything towards me... I had these stupid thoughts telling me that you were just using me..." melancholy seeped through his voice.

Damn. Murdoc thought. I never knew he gets this worried about our relationship. Murdoc's anger slowly faded as he realised that if he wanted to keep 2d as his, he should have marked him more clearly.

"So I decided to not meet with Maddie. I wanted to meet with you instead, and get those stupid thoughts out of my head. I went downstairs and told my mom, and she asked if that meant that we're officially dating. I said no." 2d seemed frustrated. "I... I don't know why but this made me slightly angry... the fact that my mom thought you're the only person I could be with... I ... I didn't want to be dependant on you... you were... the only person that made me happy... it scared me... how much I relied on you..."

This surprised Murdoc. What is this? A confession? Next thing I know he's going to say that he cheated by holding hands with her. He's too innocent to cheat properly, right? Well, at least it's pretty unlikely that they fucked.

"I wanted to be independent... stupid idea... so I decided to meet up with Maddie. I was too scared to tell you, I felt guilty..."

"So what actually happened?" Murdoc asked, thinking that 2d wanted to use her as a rebound from him.

"We got smoothies and then went to the park." 2d admitted. "We sat down on a bench and just chatted. We talked about my black eyes, and how you're my best friend and I'm in your band, and... before I knew it she just leaned in and kissed me..." 2d went quiet. Murdoc waited. "It was just a peck on the lips... there was no emotion in it... then she looked at me, smiling proudly. I didn't know how to feel... it kinda... I..." 2d struggled with his words. "It didn't feel right. Fuck... I... it's just that... usually, it's normal for guys to date girls. Not the other way around, and... and I know that you're not looking for a serious relationship but... but I just needed some affection.... I just.... thought this would be my only chance... for... for a somewhat normal relationship..." 2d wasn't proud of what he was saying.

Does he really think that I don't want a relationship? Murdoc asked himself. I thought it was painfully obvious that I want to date him... He was having mixed feelings about the situation. He wanted to stay angry, but it was getting hard to. The sadness was taking over.

"So you kissed her back?" He asked bluntly.

"No!" 2d seemed to almost panic. "I... I wouldn't... she just.. I... I let her lean in again... and... and closed my eyes as she tried to give me a hickey..." Murdoc's eyes darted to 2d's neck, which didn't have a single hickey on it. "I did my best to ignore the fact that she wasn't you but..." 2d was breathing faster again. "I couldn't! A-And the moment she bit into me... I-I moaned o-out your name... not hers... and we both knew... that what me and you have isn't just a friendship..." tears started streaming down 2d's face again.

"Wait, you moaned out my name while with a girl you have a crush on??" Murdoc was astonished.

"I-I used to have a crush on her... now I don't... a-and I guess I just got so used to moaning out your name... because of all the touching... the hickeys... But now I ruined it!" 2d burst into tears again, surprising Murdoc. "We could've fucking had something more! But I ruined it! I hurt you!" 2d covered his eyes with his palms.

"2d..." Murdoc wasn't angry anymore, still a bit sad but it was better now. He realised that he had a chance with 2d and this made him feel better. 2d moaned out his name, this clearly meant something, right? And look at him! He looks like his whole existence is made of regret! Besides, he never actually did anything, he just wanted to be loved, and was scared that I wouldn't love him. He wants affection, and he wants me to give it to him. He's so sad... he thinks he ruined our relationship... aww... he wants to be with me... that's all I ever wanted really, it's just sad that I had to find out that he likes me like this. Murdoc let these thoughts cloud his mind. "It's alright." He said calmly.

"No it's not!" 2d burst out. Murdoc looked at him with a sigh. The fact that 2d was being cute and sorry didn't change what he did.

"You can date whoever you want, just next time, tell me, or something..." Murdoc was allowing 2d to see that he was sad.

"Next time?? What next time? There's not going to be a next time!" Murdoc raised an eyebrow. "I'm never doing this again! I just want to be with you..." 2d mumbled the last part yet Murdoc still heard him.

"Why does this matter so much to you?" He asked. "Why are you so hurt?" 2d thought for a moment, he stopped crying but there were still some tears.

"I... I just can't forgive myself..."

"But why?" 2d turned to look at him.

"Because... you're technically like my boyfriend..." Murdoc was shocked; it was written all over his face. "I'm sorry... will you ever forgive me...?"  Murdoc blinked a few times to return to reality. Did he hear this right? Did his crush just admit that they were technically dating??

"So you say that you don't like her anymore?" Murdoc wearily asked.

"I don't." 2d was serious.

"And this won't happen again?"

"Never."

"And..." Murdoc hesitantly reached his hand out to 2d's face. He delicately placed it on his cheek, wiping away a tear. "You consider me your boyfriend...?" 2d's eyes momentarily darted away, he was slightly blushing.

"W-Well... t-technically...." he couldn't believe what he was saying.

Unbelievable... Murdoc smirked. Technically dating... so... it's like he's admitting that he's mine.

"C'mere." Both of Murdoc's hands landed on 2d's waist and pulled him onto his lap. 2d was straddling him, his hands in Murdoc's shoulders. He was blushing. "I thought you said you didn't want to be dependant on me..." Murdoc smirked.

"W-Well..." 2d couldn't find his words. He was surprised that Murdoc didn't reject him for saying that. "I-I guess I had to lose you... to realise how much I need you..." They looked into each other's eyes.

"You need me, huh?" Murdoc was enjoying this. "I sure as fuck hope you'll never pull off any shit like this again."

"I-I won't!" 2d tensed up. "Ever! I promise!" Murdoc started running one of his hand up and down 2d's back.

"So you're admitting that you belong just to me?" 2d blushed even more. He stared at Murdoc, flustered.

"Y-Yes... j-just you..." 2d rested his elbows on Murdoc's shoulders, leaning closer, and started running his fingers through Murdoc's hair. "I'm so sorry Mudz..." he repeated.

"Do you want me to forgive you?" Murdoc asked.

"Yes. I mean, no. I-I mean... uh..." 2d looked down in frustration.

"What's wrong?"

"I want you to forgive me..." 2d looked up sadly, he rested his forehead on Murdoc's. "But I know you can't..."

"Why not?"

"Because I don't want you to.. a-as a friend. Because... I can't forgive myself... so how could you...?"

"You're sorry, right? And you regret it."

"I'm really sorry! I'll never do it again!" 2d repeated himself.

"And you didn't cheat on me on purpose, right?"

"I would never!" 2d panicked.

"Then it's ok." Murdoc brought 2d's body closer to his. "I forgive you. But I'm guessing that you should pay me back now..."

"Pay you back...?" 2d's voice was small.

"Yeah..." Murdoc tilted his face so that their lips would be closer. "Since you're technically my boyfriend..." 2d finally got the hint and leaned in too.

Their lips clashed and it was like neither of them wanted to leave ever again. In that moment nothing else mattered. 2d wanted to be with Murdoc now more than ever, he felt so guilty about what happened, he didn't want to leave ever again.

Murdoc must have been out of his mind to forgive 2d; if it was anyone else he would have just left at the very beginning. But it wasn't worth it. He didn't want to lose 2d, and 2d clearly didn't want to lose him either. So what was the point of arguing, if 2d admitted that he thinks of Murdoc as, "technically", his boyfriend. I care about him too much to ever leave him. Murdoc thought to himself.

Their mouths started moving together, and after some biting and sucking on each other's lips, they started French kissing. Murdoc's long tongue entered 2d's mouth first, making him moan in delight. This wasn't the first time they made out, but this time it meant the most. It was like a promise to each other, that it was always going to be just them, never anyone else.

2d sucked on Murdoc's tongue, wanting him more and more. Their bodies slowly started moving together, involuntarily grinding into each other. It felt great. The heat, the lust; neither wanted to ever leave this, to leave each other.

2d's hands grabbed Murdoc's face, pulling him closer. It almost seemed like their faces were connected, unable to ever leave. The two just stayed there, making out like nothing else mattered.

Disclaimer: they're only technically dating, it's not officially official.

Do you think Murdoc should have forgiven 2d? Was 2d right to tell Murdoc in the first place, or should he have just kept this a secret?