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Night.

As soon as he reached my room, I walked towards him and wrapped my arms around his torso, inhaling the sweet sakura scent he gave out, surprising him.

It was intoxicating; but yet relaxing enough to calm my nerves down.

I just need him to be with me for a moment, even if it's just that short moment.

It meant a lot to me.

"Haru..?"

"Just for a while.."

His silence was a consent, as he returned the favour; bringing his arms and wrapping around me. After a while he loosened his hug around me, and took me near my shoulders. Looking into his red orbs, I started to break down. I was then pulled into his embrace again, trying his very best to calm me down.

"Shh.. It's okay.. What happened?"

"I.. was too s-stressed up... I couldn't h-handle it..."

I didn't feel myself over the past few days. Shouting at my swords was probably the worst thing I had ever done as a saniwa.

"What the hell are you all doing?! Can't you reach the boss node?! How many times has it been?! Should I just melt all of you down back to metal?!"

(A/N: This is literally me when the dice leads to a dead end node..)

They kept silent as I finished my words, before realising what I have done. Gokotai's muffled cries were heard as Horikawa hugged and comforted him. The captain, Shishiou, kept his gaze on the mat, along with the others, Hasebe and Tarou.

I didn't mean it.

"S-Sorry... I-I d-didn't mean it..."

It was the first time I stuttered in front of them, before leaving the meeting room and running back to my room.

I felt that I was such a jerk. Shouting and scolding them? They shouldn't deserve it. I should be the one. I didn't know how fighting would be like. Deaths or injuries, decisions that would affect their lives.. These are the things that I would never understand.

It has been ten hours since then, and I didn't step out of my room even once during this period.

I vented my anger at the paperwork, slamming the chop on the pieces of paper and putting them aside for tomorrow. Tarou soon announced his presence outside my room, as he came in with a tray of food and set it on the table.

"Tarou."

"Yes, what are your orders?"

"...I am sorry. For shouting at you guys earlier."

I was expecting him to rage but he didn't. "I understand, so please don't blame yourself. I know that it's hard on you too. Please have a good rest, I shall take my leave." He said as he bowed slightly and left my room.

I am really a jerk.

Maybe he was angry in his heart and hated me.  All sorts of wild imaginations and scenarios played in my mind, panicking myself even more.

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And now he is with me.

I finally stopped my cries, as I took yet another piece of tissue and blew my nose into it. I never knew I could be a crybaby.

"Feeling better?"

"Mmm."

He wiped a tear off my cheek and looked at me endearingly, with his hand on the side of my neck.

"Vent everything out if you have something in your heart. It's not good to keep it in. It's harmful."

He said, as he closed the gap in between us. I felt his lips softly touching into mine; a soft and gentle kiss. Soon it became a rough one, but before he could gain access I broke the contact, furrowing his brows and touching his lips.

"Let's do it another day. I am tired. Let's sleep."

"As you wish."

I loved it when he wraps his arms arond my waist and snuggling his head above mine.

And it has never changed since then.