Awake, I raise myself in this lonely world.  My eyes slowly awake and the covers start to unfold as I yawn in a finally awake. I begin to feel around for the white tablet controller to this world around me. 

I hand moves slowly and steadily. Trees form from shaped lines on the tablet and the world around me starts to transform. Colors on the tablet's trees start to rise from nothing. Leaves on my trees turn shades of my colors from the tablet, crystallized.    

Like a chandelier sparkling with different colors, Pink, golden blue, white, dark blue, and clear. Trees rise, taller and taller. So, bright, yet soft. Glimmering colors, shiny like never before. I see my trees from the drawings come to life, from my bedroom window. A preview of the world waiting for me.

I walk from the bedroom and wood floor onto the soft ground, into the new crystal world that I built . Glass leaves upon the tree, shining like little suns . Glass leaves, delicate, yet hard. Walking in a glass land of trees.

I wonder how I would describe this feeling, this looks all around me. Is it happy or is it just beautiful? 

The best distraction from being isolated from anyone. Deserted by everything but these glasses trees, full of light that keeps me lifted in spirts. It doesn't make me forget my sadness but instead leaves it in the back of my head, like a cold whisper.  

So calm, till one of the leaves, breaks. Then that cold whisper starts yelling in my head and keeps me asking and wondering. The truth starts to sep in the light while I fall into the darkness asking the questions I've asked myself for years. Only to be left more chipped the before.  

Glass leaves dance in the light, shining everywhere I go, but not blinding, just light. This has to be one of my favorite days, even though I am alone. In an away, this keeps me from seeing how truly alone I am. It keeps me distracted from the loneliness. It's all that I have, in this world.