15 years later.

    I opened my pale eyes slowly to the bare blank walls. They reminded me of the hospital for some strange reason. Bare, clean....white. I looked over to see my old fashion clock. It was only five minutes before it would go off. Maybe I can save myself from a beating this morning. I sit and stop the clock from going off. I listen to see if she would get up. She just turned over. The walls were thin. So you could hear everything. I stood up and snuck silently to the closet. I only had two shirts and one pair of pants. My shoes were only a pair of simple Mary Jane's my aunt gave me before she died. I put on the white shirt which wasn't white anymore. Due to me wearing it so much. And the black striped over shirt. More like grey but hey! I put on my black jeans. My mom thinks I don't need these clothes. But hey I can go to school naked. I put on my shoes. They were old and scuffed up. I didn't mind though. It's not like I had anything better.

    I snuck out into the hall. I peeked around the corners. She was still asleep. I stepped down into the kitchen were my backpack sat. I didn't have a coat but it was finally spring so I didn't need one. I snuck out my brush from my bag. I quickly slid into the bathroom brushing my long silver hair. For some reason people think it's stupid to have silver hair. I don't understand though. I packed my brush back into my bag. I listened again. I know mother was drinking again last night so she won't be happy this morning. Its best I leave early and let her sleep. Or I might as well cry. She always beats me. I don't really feel it anymore. I mean after 16 years of it you no longer feel pain. Physically. I don't dare tell anyone of my problem. I don't trust anyone. People lie, they make you trust them, they lead you to believe there good but on the inside they're evil. Only two people I ever trusted two people. My aunt and my best friend. My aunt died. I plan to meet my friend I see everyday. She's the one who taught me music. She listens to a thing called metal. I don't understand why they call it something that's actually a material. But its my favorite thing. She showed me all kinds of styles by far metal was my favorite. It was dark and heavy. Banged at my heart. That's my favorite thing in the world!

   I grabbed my bag. And swung it over my shoulder. I wrote on the little white board by the door.

At school.
See when I get home.
                      Luv u
                             ~akira

      Mom hates it when she doesn't know where I am. I don't normally use the word hate. But when someone extremely dislikes something I call it hate. And well my mom hates a lot of things. One of those things included me. I don't mind though I like being hated. Living in peace with no distractions. I mean to me that's pure bliss! I opened the front door.

"And were do you think your going...you little shit..." I bowed my head. Damn still not fast enough.

"Uh school...." I said quietly.

"Did I say you could go to school?!" She mumbled still half drunk.

"No ma'am" I said standing strait up.

"That's what I thought! You little fuck!" She murmured.

"May I go to school ma'am?" I said hunched over.

"Fine get the hell out of here you fucker." She said sitting down at the small kitchen table pouring a glass of alcohol. I closed the door behind me.
I slipped down. Exhaling. I can not believe I slipped past that so easily! I inhaled deeply and grabbed my head phones and mp3 my friend got me.
My mom would kill me if she saw I had this. But I'll do anything for music!
I plugged my headphones in. They were big and bulky but expensive. They really brought out the bass in music. I turned on my music and headed down the hall and stairs. I decided I was in a Marylin Manson mood.
I don't think i spelled that any were right. But I'm not good a spelling.
All I know is he is one of my favs!

I slightly rocked my head to the beat. The wife that lived down stairs was saying good bye to her son before he headed to school. I waved and smiled. The mother motioned to me to come here. I obeyed and walked over to her. I pulled off my headphones pausing them.
"What's up Mrs. Kila." I said sweetly.

"Just worried about you dear is all. I know how harsh your mother is on you. You do know you can move away. Right dear? I mean it has to be better then living a life with that hag." She said laughing slightly.

"Yeah I know. But tommorow I'll be 18 so I might move away but hey I can handle her." I smiled.

"I almost forgot about your birthday! Well I'll have to get you something.
Hey I'm curiose child you still have alina?"

I smiled I do. I pulled out my bag and pulled her out. The wife smiled.

"You treasure that doll for the rest of your life. I see she still has her wrapping on her hand." I smiled

"Yeah. Well I better be off. Ready Zack?" I asked looking over to the wife's son.

"Are you ready akira?" I smiled and nodded.

"See you two after school!" The wife called. We both waved and nodded heading to Zack's car. I hopped into the passengers side as he got in on the driver's side.

"Hey are you really okay Lucy?" I shrugged.

"I herd you getting in trouble again. All because you didn't wash the counter after you made dinner?" I nodded. Feeling my face. I got 6 smacks on the face and a boot to my butt. That hurts more then you think.

"I also herd your crys for two hours afterwards." I shrugged.
He gave me his famous puppy dog eyes.
"Yeah I have a bone to pick with you! I smelled those cookies your mother was bakeing last night? Why you no give me some?" I said tilting my head.
He smirked handing my a baggy full.

"Your lucky this time my dad almost finished them all before I got some for you!" He said laughing starting the car. I snatched the bag out of his hand and shoved two cookies in my mouth.

"Now don't choke and die on me now!!" I smiled mouth full of cookie.

"Sorry mother didn't let me eat dinner. And there was no time to eat breakfast with out getting beaten for something." He gave me alook.
I just nodded. This is very common for me.

"Man how long have I known you and somehow your still kicking at life. I don't know how you do it!" He said chuckling. I shrugged playfully.
" I saw those headphones you were wearing. How on earth did you get those?!"

"Lilly..." He nodded.

"The only girl in the world you can trust. Other then my mother. Oh by the way she's having another baby. My mom I mean." My eyes got big.

"Really!" I said happily. He nodded. Huh!

He pulled up into the parking lot of the school. Lilly's car wasn't here yet. Late again I see lilly! I said thinking of what the teacher will say to her. He parked and turned off the car. I hopped out.

"Oh hey babe!" Yelled Taylor. Oh great. The queen of the B. Squad. I rolled my eyes.

"See you later Zack!" I said walking away.

"Babe why do you drive that hag to school? And not your girlfriend?!" She whined. I flinched at the word hag. Only thinking of my mother. Zack saw this and knew how I disliked people calling me hag. It's like calling me by my mother. No I'm not her!

"I'm not a hag." I Spoke up. She just nodded sarcastically.

"Sure you arnt honey! But you wear the same things everyday and you smell like a pig!" She said laughing. As the rest of her B. Squad laughed with her. I rolled my eyes.

"Be nice Taylor!"Zack said strongly.

" why are you on her side babe!" She whined. He rolled his eyes.

"Because I don't like hanging out with total bitches!" He said loudly. Taylor's eyes grew with so much hert it made my heart swell.

"See you later Zack!" I said walking away from the situation. Hearing Taylor's whines as she tried getting Zack on her side. She wouldn't win. I've know him sence he wasn't even born!

   I sighed entering the jail cell. Known as school. I was in 12th grade finally. I always knew everything the teachers taught so this was the most boringest place in the world. I place my stuff in my locker making sure not to harm alina. I grabbed my first three hours and headed to that class placing my stuff at my seat. Leaving to go wait for lilly. I leaned against her locker. Waiting...waiting....waiting...she never came. The warning  bell rang out. I ran to my class sitting in my chair. The Bell rang as Taylor walked in late. The morning announcements rang out. This was canceled this was going on. Tell he said something so shocking it made me freeze in my chair.

"Sadly this morning lilly MacLean has died in a horrible car accident. We hope those who knew her would please keep calm and relax.
That is all and now the pledge of elegance." As the announcements ended. My legs were to frozen to move. I sat starring at the wall in disbelief of what had happened. No not my lilly!  My BFF. Everyone did the pledge. I sat in my chair still, frozen in the horrible time loop. Those same horrible words rang through my head like a broken record.
Lilly MacLean has died
Lilly has died
Died
DIED
DEAD!
GONE FOREVER!!

No no no no. The teacher went on about the test coming up. And such. But my mind was gone. My whole being gone. She was my life. The reason I stayed in school. The reason I dealt with my mother. Now she gone! No! No! No! NO! A tear fell down my cheek. She was my everything. Now she gone. No this can't be real! My head felt heavy as my limbs fell asleep. Soon my vision lost its clearness and everything went black.
Children screaming and calling my name. But slight laughter could be herd in the distance. Taylor. It was Taylor's laughter. Soon I could no longer. My body fell to the blackness.