The funeral was the hardest part.
Ash didn't even show up, she was stuck in her house.
Kyna did... but she didn't talk. Just wanted to say goodbye one last time, but she went right back to her house afterward.
But it hurt.

~~{Sunrise}~~

We didn't bury a body.
Solar did.
And by bury, I mean he had someone burn the body for all to see.
Guess Sam couldn't stop him.

So what was the point? What was the point of it all? What was the point of leaving if she couldn't stop him from killing my cousin?
My cousin.
He lost the right to say she was ever his cousin when he...
When he killed her.
When he killed Phoenix.

What was going to happen to Aunt Chelsy?
What is he going to do now?
Is anyone safe?

I have a million questions running in my head with NO ANSWER! WHAT WAS THE POINT? WHY DID HE KILL HER? WHY DOES HE HAVE SO MUCH HATRED? WHY DO I HAVE TO HATE OUR MOM SO HE DOESN'T DO THIS CRAP? WHY CAN'T I BE THE HAPPY FULFILLED ONE? WHY DOES HE GET WHAT HE WANTS WHILE I PICK UP FROM HIS MESS?

"WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER BECAUSE HE CAN'T ACT LIKE A DECENT HUMAN BEING?"

I don't want to cry. I don't want him to be the reason why I cry. I don't want him to take another thing from me. But, that doesn't work. I cry anyway.

~~{Solar}~~

I killed Phoenix.
I...
killed her.

And I'm okay with that.
I feel... indifferent.

But Sam hasn't stopped screaming.

"YOU'RE A MONSTER! LET ME OUT! HOW COULD YOU? LET ME OUT! LET ME OUT, SOLAR!"

Of course I'm not going to, that would be stupid. But it's growing more and more annoying. It's been a day since it happened, she found out like a few hours ago. She's just wasting energy.

Sol boy. You don't really think that, do you?

My faces pales and I turn around.

"Who's there? Show yourself!"

Sol boy! You don't recognize me? I was here yesterday~

"You can't be real... I killed you."

So you do know who I am! You should really let Sam out. Oh and by Sam, I mean Samara or whatever you're gonna call her. Because you don't care about us or whatever. You know that's not true.

"I'm still calling her Sam!"

Are you gonna call Aunt Chelsy Queen Cascade? Cause that's like her element name or whatever. I don't like Cascade much, Chelsy is much better.

"Get out! Show yourself, I killed you!"

When you come back Uncle Dani's gonna have a lot of therapy sessions to go through. That man does not get paid enough... for anything.

"I'm not going back!"

Does therapy scare you that much? I mean we all have that weird quirk about us, but come on!

"Show yourself! Show yourself, Phoenix!"

How can I show myself if I was never here in the first place?

And just like that, she stopped talking.
She was gone.
Like a ghost.

~~{Sunrise}~~

Gurl, come on. This is a sad ass funeral. I want pizzazz!

"Who...?"

Like streamers and banners and glitter! I want music! A national treasure was lost, we need some glamour.

"Phoenix... of course. Even in death you have to bother us about the little things."

Well at least you caught on way faster than your brother. I'm so amazing I can be a ghost.

"I wish I had half of your confidence."

Girl, come on. You're the daughter of a goddess, you're amazing in your own way, although not as fabulous as me.

"Of course. It's been a few hours and I already missed you... so damn much."

I'm lovable, you know this. Besides, you should be weeping right now, I'm offended.

"Can... can anyone else hear you?"

I don't know. You can't even see me though, which is disappointing. Dying makes your skin look so much better.

"I don't doubt that... I'm just glad I can hear you again."

Same, but I can do this.

A knife whizzes past my head and goes into the wall behind me.

So, eh.

"That's terrifying."

Maybe I can write! Ooh, I'll write to my moms. And Sophie.

"Who?"

Sophie. She's my-

"Forget I even asked. Let's see if Vapor can hear you."

I published a new book called "Assassins." I already have 4 chapters posted, hopefully you'll find it interesting.
Bye!