[ Writers block is a bîtch, so if this Chapter is crappy, it's writers block's fault not mine ! ]

Cara's POV

His words kicked the sense back to my mind. My eyes snapped open, the blood rushed faster in my veins as I directly placed my hand over his chest and angrily pushed him away from me.

My sudden action startled him, i took that as my chance to get out of the bed and away from him.

In a swift motion, he stood up as well, his hand immediately circled around my wrist and pushed me to the near wall, his hold so tight, tighter than it should, his eyebrow raised, "I advice you to never do that again." He said, his tone threatening, his hold tightened even more.

"Leave my hand." I said, my voice came weak as i struggled to let free of his hold. But that didn't stop him, his fingers wrapped tighter as he leant closer again, trapping me again.

My eyes widened at the closeness of our faces, the look in his eyes cut through me, "You don't tell me what to do." He said, his tone the same, not raising nor lowering. Rigid, threatening, a promise of pain lays behind it.

My heart thumped harder as my gaze dropped down, to the tight hold of his fingers over my now-red marked wrist.

I tightened my jaw, my other hand went and tried to remove his hand away, "I said leave my hand." I said again stressing on each word.

I heard him let out a sigh before his other hand caught mine and took hold of both of my hands.

"They said you'll be a trouble." He said.

I lifted my eyes and met his, i gritted my teeth, who he think he is, "And you know what love, i hate trouble."

Great, because i have a feeling i hate you too.

"Who you think you are ?" I said with gritted teeth. I tried to pull my hands away but failed again.

The corner of his lips lifted in a smirk, "I think i've already answered that question."

"No, you're not my-" i started to say, but his words from before rang again, my heart dropped in my stomach and I couldn't form the next word. Things can't go that far. I won't let it go that far, "You can't be-"

"It's not your choice to take." He simply said.

"Oh hell it is !" I shot back, "Of course it's my choice."

He didn't say anything but i noticed how his lips curled up in annoyance. He took my chin in his other hand, holding it firmly that I couldn't look away from his eyes.

"When you talk with me-" he started, his fingers tightened more over my chin, it hurts, "-watch your tone." He added ever so calmly.

"Do you understand?" He added with a raised eyebrow. I swallowed hard but said nothing.

My hands trapped in his, my face trapped between his calloused fingers, even my eyes, he held them in the palms of his intense piercing gaze.

I wonder what other parts of me he is going to trap as well.

His fingers squeezed my sensitive skin pulling me back to reality, "Do you understand ?" He added again, stressing on each word.

I pressed my back further against the wall hoping that would increase the gap between our faces. My eyes finally decided to respond to me and break the gaze, they traveled to his face, a muscle twitched in his jaw making me nod for some reason.

My nod gave him the answer he wants, so he let go of my face and hand and took one step away from me.

I bit the inside of my cheek as i rubbed my wrists feeling the pain throbbing from underneath my flushed skin.

I looked back at him to see his eyes connected with my wrist, but in that same moment he averted his gaze back to my face as his hand went to his hair, to the area beside his ear and lightly scratched it.

I felt the anger starting to build inside of me, how dare he enter my room when i am asleep, how dare he touch me like this and tell me some stupid things.

"What are you doing in my room ?" I asked, unable to hide the anger behind my words.

The way his eyebrow slightly raised told me that he didn't like my tone, "Well, this is my house-" he started making my eyes widen, "So technically, this is my room."

What the-

This isn't my dad's house.

Oh my god, what are these people doing to me, why everyday i have to discover something new.

"Who are you ?" I asked bewildered as i threw my hands in the air. Someone just make me understand what's happening.

"I gave you multiple answers for that question." He answered with a bored tone, "But you seem so stupid, so i will repeat it again-"

"I-" he took a step closer, "-am", another step closer, "-your", his palm pressed on the wall beside my face, "-future." His other hand pressed against the wall on the other side, his lips formed a smile, "-husband."

I swallowed hard and shook my head, "You are not."

What's that burning feeling in my chest.

Oh god.

"I won't do it." I added again. For some weird reason, my voice didn't shake, it came stable and confident. My hand curled into a fist, my thumb lingered over the ring on my finger.

I can't do this.

He titled his head, "You really think you have a choice." He said, his eye glittered with amusement.

I confidently nodded.

It's the only choice i still have. It's the only thing they can't take away from me.

A low chuckle vibrated from his chest, the sound of it made me tighten my fist, due to fear or anger, I didn't know at the moment.

"Whether you like it or not-", he said as he brought his hand from the wall and fingered the loosened strand of my hair, his eyes bored into mine, his tone lowered as he talked further, "-you're mine."

No.

He cleared his throat and backed away, "I have papers to prove that." He said as he walked to the full-length mirror and fixed the collar of his black dress shirt, "Your daddy sold you out." He said casually then looked back at me, "Didn't he tell you ?"

My fisted hand loosened as his words clearly registered in my mind, my eyes widened and i felt as if it slapped me right on the face.

"What ?" This time, I couldn't hide the shakiness in my voice, I couldn't help the tears that started to form in my eyes.

I understood nothing, but his words hit a place inside me. His words squeezed my heart, the hold of his words hurts even more than his fingers over my wrist.

I brought my hand and lightly rubbed my burning throat, "What do-", I said, my voice lowered, "What do you mean?"

He ignored my question and took the suit jacket from over the bed- that i just noticed was there- he shrugged the jacket on, "I mean you're going to marry me and there is nothing you can do about that."

"Why ?" I asked, my voice low, a single tear escaped my eye, i wiped it with the back of my hand, "What do you want from me ?"

He shrugged, "Nothing." He simply said.

"Why you want to marry me then ?" I asked, my hand involuntary went to my baby bump as i lowly let out, "I am- i am pregnant."

His eyes traveled to my baby bump for a while then back to my face, "I know." He smiled, he shoved one of his hands in his pants front pocket, "I wonder what we gonna do with this little one." He said.

No. Oh my god, no.

His fingers lightly rubbed his jaw, as if thinking it through, the sick smile still over his face, "You know kids these days are-"

"No !" I snapped, his words made me lose the left sanity in me, i lunched forward, my hands clutched on his suit jacket, "I won't let you lay a finger on my baby."

I pulled him closer, my eyes reflecting all the anger his words caused, "No one will touch my child, you understand that."

My jaw clenched tight at the thought of anyone hurting my girl, "Look here, i don't care who you are or what you're capable of doing, but if anything would happen to my child, you will regret the moment-"

The words caught in my throat when he suddenly threw his head back and chuckled- no not chuckled, but laughed loud.

He looked back at me, his laugher slowly dying, "You really think you can threaten me." He said, his eyebrow raised as he held my hands and pushed them away from him making me stumble back a bit.

"I think I figured out your weakness, love." He said, cocking his head a little and pulling his lower lip between his teeth, a mischievous look in his eyes.

I swallowed hard, my heart thumped harder, the fear of what's coming next coursed in my veins.

"But don't worry." He said as he removed his hand from his pocket and slowly raked his fingers through his hair, "I won't do anything to your daughter."

I didn't get relieved. Because there is more, i know there is more.

"Not if you did everything i ask you to do." He added with a shrug, "As long as you're a good girl, you do whatever i say, you change that tone when you talk with me, then i won't hurt your baby.

It's the opposite actually, i may even give her a last name."

"And who knows, maybe i can be a father to her too."

My eyes widened at his words, "Knowing that she doesn't have a father anymore." He added nonchalantly pushing the last button in my brain.

"STOP !" I snapped, I couldn't handle more. "My daughter has a father !",I said through gritted teeth.

"Too bad he thinks she is dead." He added with furrowed eyebrows, giving me a fake pity look.

"Well i can change that." I added with a challenging tone.

He chuckled again, "Well too bad, because then - he will die." He said emphasizing on the last sentence.

This time I didn't know how to reply back, i felt my chest getting heavier with all the buried pain. What i am supposed to do now ?

I saw what happened before, i saw they're capable of doing that and much more, that was the reason i came here -- so i can protect him.

But to be honest, am i actually protecting him ?

I don't know. I know nothing. I am sick of all of this. Enough, please, enough.

I felt tired so i sat on the bed's edge, my palms pressed against the white sheets as i struggled to calm myself.

I lifted my eyes and saw him still looking at me. He let out a breath, "Think about it." He said, "And remember, you will handle the consequences of your choice, not me."

With that he turned around and walked toward the door, i said nothing as i saw him opening it before walking out. Liam was standing there, he said something to him before walking away.

Liam's eyes flicked to me, he was about to close the door when i talked, "When he is coming back?"

He stopped, his eyebrows furrowed before he realized about whom i am talking, "Your dad ?"

I blankly nodded, "Tomorrow." He said.

I nodded again, he closed the door after. I placed my head in my hands and couldn't help the few tears that escaped.

Why dad, why ?

You've got a lot of explanation to do.

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Katherine's POV

"And you must be my mother." He said. At his words my eyes widened, i opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out.

"What ?"

All of our heads snapped to Alex. His voice came loud. His eyebrows pulled together as he looked from this guy to Cara's father.

He inched closer, "Cara doesn't have a brother."

Didn't have a brother, Alex, didn't.

"Cara didn't know she have a brother." Her father answered. And I understood nothing. Where was this brother, how no one knew about him ? And Cara, oh my god, she didn't have the chance to even see him.

I really don't understand.

Her mother stood silently just looking at what I suppose is her son. But how ? Like, what's happening ?

"But how ?" Alex asked, his forehead creased, "It doesn't make sense."

"I don't think this is the perfect time to discuss family matters, right ?", her father said as he looked at the many people around.

But Amanda didn't seem to be hearing anything, she took a step backward, "Oh my god !" She said, her voice so low as if she is not believing her eyes.

That Roman shook his head, his fingers raked through his hair, exasperated, "I'll be waiting in the car." He said to his father before he turned around and started to walk away.

But his father's hand on his arm stopped him, "Stay." He said, that one word was enough to stop him. He closed his eyes, let out a breath and stayed still in his place.

Cara's step dad walked toward us, Amanda directly clutched on his arm, he looked around then at her, "Are you okay ?." He asked with a worried tone, "You're shaking."

She shook her head, her eyes not leaving Roman, who in his turn was trying his best to look away, "Take me away from here." She said, her voice low and tired.

Steve nodded and placed his arm around her and pulled her away with him. With one last look at her son, she turned her head and walked away.

"Get out." Alex was the first to talk, his voice hard as he glared at Cara's father.

"Excuse me ?" Cara's father replied with a raised eyebrow.

"I said get out !" Alex said stressing on each word, "She wouldn't want you to be here, go away."

"Look son-"

"I said get the f*ck out of here !" Alex snapped angrily as he inched closer toward Cara's dad looking ready to attack.

Roman directly came and stood between them, he placed his hand on Alex's chest stopping him and gave him a warning look.

He turned his head toward his father, "I think we should leave." He calmly said.

Alex removed Roman's hand away, "You heard the kid, leave now." Alex said, his anger is not a thing i am used to see. But it's probably his way to let the pain out.

"You seem to forget that she is my daughter." Cara's father said and i resisted the urge to laugh at his words.

Alex raised an eyebrow, "Wow for a moment there, I thought you really care." He said mockingly, "You're too late to play the good father's role."

"And don't forget she is my wife." He added stressing on the last part. My heart clenched tighter as I couldn't miss the shakiness behind his words.

"She was your wife." Cara's father said back. Oh god, What's wrong with him ?

It looked like Alex lost his mind this time, he pushed Roman away and lunched forward, he clutched on Cara's father collar and pulled him closer.

Ashton directly went to him, he placed his hand on Alex's shoulder, "Alex."

Ashton gave his shoulder a slight squeeze to pull him out of his daze, his jaw tightened and he let go of him. "Get out before i do something i may regret later."

Roman looked at his father, "Dad." He said stressing at the word, "Let's go."

His dad nodded, he fixed his collar while his gaze fixated on Alex.

With one last look, he turned around and walked away with Roman.

The ringing of a phone made me turn toward Alex, he angrily pulled his phone from his pocket, without answering it, he turned the phone off. And then, he too walked away.

I placed my hand over my cheek and that's when i noticed that my tears were falling all this time long.

It's like for a moment i forget what's actually going on but then something happens and all of it comes crashing back.

Ashton inched closer toward me, he cupped my face in his hands and with his thumb tried to wipe my tears away. I sniffled and my gaze dropped down, my heart felt heavy as i choked back my tears.

When this is going to stop.

Life gave us a break for a while but then came back with a new plan to ruin us again. I should've known better. I should've known-

"Katherine."

When i heard his voice from behind, my eyes widened a bit, i lifted my eyes and saw Ashton looking at someone behind me.

I turned my face and when my eyes met his, I didn't know why the pain just intensified, without thinking it through, i turned my body and ran toward him. All the memories from before came rushing back, all the time the three of us spent together stroked back deepening the whole in my heart.

His hand directly wrapped around me as i clutched into him, "She's gone, Caleb - Cara is gone." I cried out.

I felt his hands tighten around me, "When i heard, I - I didn't believe it." He said, his voice low, the shakiness almost detectable. Years ago, we were all inseparable, we were friends, and i am slowly losing them all. One by one.

I sniffled and pulled away, "Why her ?" I asked, more tears fell. More pieces of my heart broke.

"Why?" I asked again, I wasn't waiting for an answer, "Why my life feels like a non-ending funeral ? "

His eyebrows furrowed as he brought his hand and brushed my tears away, "I am tired." I said and shook my head, "I can't take more of this."

"I know." He said with a tired sigh, "Believe me i know."

"Who else is gonna go ?" I added, my words not even making sense to me, but seeing Caleb just reminded me of everything, proved to me that this is real. This is my life.

I shook my head, my teeth digging into my bottom lip to stop my sobs from escaping. I brought my hand and covered my mouth, my shoulders slowly shook, I couldn't get a grip over myself.

"Shush, come here." He said as he hugged me again. His hand soothingly rubbed my back, but i still felt the shakiness in it as he let out, "I didn't have a chance to even say goodbye."

                          *******

I couldn't be more relieved when this day reached an end. Ashton and I immediately drove to Alex's house to make sure if he is there or not, because he suddenly disappeared and no one saw him after.

When we arrived, his car was parked outside proving us right.

"You go inside and check on him." Ashton said, "And i'll go get Chase."

I nodded, i was about to get out when something crossed my mind, i turned my head toward Ashton and placed my hand over his, "Are you mad at me that i hugged Caleb ?"

His eyebrows furrowed and he directly shook his head, "No, of course not."

His hand traveled to my cheek and lightly stroked it, "I know you three were so close before." He said, a small smile curved his lips, "You needed him."

I smiled, a small one too, then inched closer and lightly pecked his lips, "Thank you.", for understanding.

I placed my hand over his again, i sniffled ,"Don't you dare leave me." I said.

He shook his head, "Never." His hand went to my neck as he pulled me closer and gave a little sweet gentle kiss.

"I have to go get Chase, I hadn't seen all day, i miss him." He said. I nodded, "Me too."

With that i went down and Ashton drove away. Using the spare key i have, i opened the door and walked inside.

Searching in all the rooms in the first floor, I didn't find him anywhere. I went to the second floor and walked toward the bedroom, the door was slightly opened and the lights were on.

I slowly opened the door further and sneaked a look inside. Alex was laying on the bed, i noticed he still had his clothes from before on.

I walked a bit closer to see his eyes opened, his hand placed over the pillow beside him, his fingers lightly lingering over the fabric.

I took a deep breath as i walked closer to him, he probably noticed my presence but he said nothing, neither did he look at my side.

I sat on the bed's edge beside him, his back facing me, I hesitantly placed my hand over his arm, "Hey." I lowly said.

He said nothing, but his hand beside him fisted, he closed his eyes for a brief second then he opened them again.

"You didn't change your clothes." I said trying to start a conversation. Trying to get him to talk.

"I am tired." He said blankly.

"Alex, you should eat something." I said.

"I am not hungry."

"But you hadn't eaten anything for the last two days." I added with a worried tone. His face is drained of any color. And he looks like he is still sick from before.

My hand traveled to his forehead and as I thought, his skin was burning, "Oh my god, you still have a fever."

"Alex please you should eat so you can take your medicine." I pleaded but he said nothing. His gaze still fixated on the pillow beside him.

"I want to sleep." He just said, "Go."

I shook my head, "I am not going."

"Go Katherine." He added, his tone kind of harsh this time, he still didn't look at my side.

I shook my head again. No i am not going. I know he needs someone. I am not leaving him alone.

"I said go." His voice raised, this time he turned his head and looked at me.

He looked angry, but i was able to see what's behind the angry act he is trying to pull. I saw the weak, broken him, i saw the unshed tears in those brown eyes of his. I saw the pain he is trying to not feel.

I sat still, I didn't go.

He sat down and removed my hand away , his eyes glaring at me, "Leave me alone." He said, his tone cold, "Is it so hard to ask for it, can't all of you just f*cking leave me alone !"

I flinched at his tone, i felt my bottom lip tremble, so i pulled it between my teeth trying to take control over myself.

But the tears came back again, they never leave. They came back because i can see the amount of pain in his eyes, they came back because he reminded me of myself. How i snapped at all of them and pushed them away, but how at the same time, I desperately wanted someone to stay.

So i stayed.

Instead of leaving, i inched closer toward him. Instead of going, i wrapped my arms around him.

Instead of fighting me back, he stayed still, his hands beside him. Instead of screaming at me, he brought his hands and hugged me back, he tightened his arms around me as if trying to hold onto something, so he won't go down.

"Let it out Alex." I said, my eyes closed, "Don't keep it inside."

"I can't." He said, his breathing getting heavier. "The mere thought of it, kills me."

I opened my eyes and pulled away, my hand traveled to his shoulder, he shook his head, "What i am supposed to do now?" He asked, "How i am supposed to move on-"

"If that's even possible to do." He added, his hand tiredly rubbed his eyes.

"It is." I said with a nod, "It just needs time."

"I don't think i can handle it." He shook his head again, "Not having her in my life, I can't get used to that."

"I can't wake up and not find her beside me, heck, I can't f*cking go to sleep with her not in my arms." His jaw tightened, "I told her not to go, i had a bad feeling about it, i f*cking told her !"

"But now - it's too late !" He added, the last part a mere whisper.

His gaze dropped down and he placed his hand over his forehead, he closed his eyes and i saw the single tear the went down and fell into his lap.

I immediately inched closer and sat beside him, my arm went around him as i laid my head on his shoulder. I sniffled and took his free hand in mine, i held it tight and he tightened his hold as well.

I just didn't want him to feel alone, I want him to know that we are here, we are all here for him, i want to somehow be able to sooth his pain, even if just a little. Because i deeply care about him, and i care about Cara too, and now she is gone, i just have him to take care of.

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Alex's POV

After letting it all out, after letting it consume few parts of me, i wiped my cheek with the back of my hand. Looks like tears going to take a part of my daily routine from now on.

I turned my head and saw Katherine's eyes closed, her head slightly laying over my shoulder. She is probably so tired that she slept immediately.

A faint smile crossed my lips but in that same moment it went away. It even hurts to smile.

I shook my head and carefully tried to place her head over the pillow, my hand went around her back, as i was about to make her lay in a more comfortable position, i felt her hand tightly holding my shirt. I stopped, my body tensed as her head pressed against my chest.

I swallowed hard, her actions just took me back, she reminded me of how Cara would hold into me when i used to hold her in my arms.

For a moment there, my eyes played tricks on me, for a moment there I thought i am holding - her in my arms, i saw her face, her very beautiful face.

My hand went at its own accord and tucked the loosened strand of her hair behind her ear.

A weird feeling rushed in my chest and i was snapped out of my daze. I blinked and realized it's all just an illusion.

My hand immediately removed Katherine's hand away from my shirt, it was almost harsh, but that thickness over my heart, it hurts, it's ripping my inside slowly that it does make me care less about whatever is going around.

I pulled the blanket over her and went off the bed. I ran my hand in my hair, frustrated. What is happening to me ?

It's like i wanted to push Katherine away, just because she reminds me so much of her.

So what, I don't want to remember her anymore ? Is this how moving on happens ?

The low knock on the door snapped me out of my thoughts, i turned around and saw Ashton standing by the door.

He walked inside, his eyes traveled from me to Katherine then back to me.

"She can stay here, you don't have to wake her up." I said, he nodded.

"Ale-"

"Don't." I directly interrupted him, i let out a tired breath, "Please Ashton just don't say anything."

I just need a break.

He nodded and stayed silent, but before i could leave the room, he walked forward and startled me as he wrapped an arm around my shoulder and pulled me closer, his other hand over my neck.

I pressed my eyes shut. My jaw tightened, i felt so weak, inside out, i pressed my forehead against his shoulder as i hugged him back.

"I just want you to know that you are not alone." He said, his hand tightened a bit over my neck, "We are all here for you."

He lightly slapped my back and pulled away. I ran my hand in my hair , "I know." I said with a nod.

I cleared my throat, "I will just go-" I awkwardly said before leaving the room. I went down then walked out of the house then to the backyard.

I placed my hands in my front pocket as i walked toward the swimming pool, the cold breeze hit me and i welcomed the cold in.

I stood at the edge, eyeing the water, crouching down, i ran my hand in the water messing the image of my face.

I closed my eyes, the feeling of water over my fingertip brought a memory, my brain tortured my inside as he replayed the scene in front of my eyes.

**Flashback**

"Your house is pretty good." She said as we walked outside the house to the backyard.

I turned around, with a smirk over my face, "But there is one room you hadn't seen yet."

Her eyebrows furrowed, i stood in front of her, "My bedroom." I said with a wink.

She raised an eyebrow, "Smooth Alex, smooth." She said with a nod.

I chuckled and stepped closer toward her, "We'll save it to the end of the night when everyone leaves, watcha ya think ?" I said.

She shook her head annoyed, her eyes traveled behind me then back to me, "Just admit it already, you want me as much as i want you-", i raised my eyebrow, "-right cupcakes ?"

She licked her lips and tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear.

Oh damn, i've never wanted a girl in my life this much.

She looked at me, a small smile curved her lips as she gave me a small nod. My eyes widened, what ?

I thought she is just gonna snap at me again but damn, did she fall for it this time.

She inched even closer, her hand slowly went to my shirt, "I was actually thinking about it for a while." She said, her voice so low and damn, it took all my power to not take her right there and right then.

She bit her lower lip as he unbuttoned the first button of my shirt. She kept moving closer making me take few steps back.

"Thinking about what ?" I asked, she lifted her eyes and met mine, a flirty smile over her lips making my dîck twitch harder in my pants. Calm down, you'll get it tonight big boy. Tonight.

"About-" she started, she pressed her palm against my chest, her smile suddenly dropped, "How big of a douchbag you are." She said with a glare before she pushed me away.

I didn't register what happened or how, i first felt the water hit my back before it took me all the way down. I directly swam my way up, once my lungs exhaled the oxygen again, my hand rubbed my face to remove the water droplets as i tried to even my breath.

I looked at her to see her laughing her aśs off.

That little-

She pushed me into the pool.

She f*cking pushed me-

I shot her a glare which just made her laugher increase, "Oh my god !" She said clutching into her stomach, "That was worth watching !"

"You're so cute, you really fell for it." She added, still laughing.

I shot her another glare, "Shut up!" I said as i rubbed my eyes to remove the water so i can see more clearly, "You're so mean."

She raised an eyebrow, a smirk over those fuckable lips of her, " That's so you can learn how to talk properly with a girl."

Ugh. She f*cking pushed me.

This girl is something else.

A thought crossed my mind and I resisted the smile to form over my lips. I kept the upset look over my face as i swam back to the edge.

"Ah fuck !" I said as i clutched on my shoulder, i shot her a glare, "You fücking broke my shoulder." I hissed.

Her smile dropped, her eyes widened a bit, "Oh my god, really ?"

Let's see who's gonna laugh now, little cupcakes.

I gritted my teeth faking pain, my hand squeezed my shoulder as I pretended to fail getting out of the pool.

She gasped, "I didn't mean to." She said, her eyebrows furrowed together, she looked so guilty, little she knows, little she knows. "Let me help you."

I shook my head, my eyes still glaring at her, "I don't want your help, i hate you." I said.

"Don't be such a child Alex." She said with a raised eyebrow, crouching down , she extended her hand, "Give me your hand."

With one last glare, i gave in, i placed my hand in hers. But instead of her pulling me up, i pulled her down.

She let out a scream as she fell into the water too, I couldn't help but laugh as she popped her head out of the water and tried to breath. I directly wrapped my arms around her and pulled her toward me.

She directly started hitting my chest, "YOU ASSHOLE -" she snapped as she hit me again which earned another chuckle from me, "UGH ! I HATE YOU !"

"Two can play this game, cupcakes." I said, the smirk not leaving my face.

She gritted her teeth and hit me again, "Don't do that again." She snapped, glaring at me with her big brown eyes, "I don't know how to swim."

"Don't worry." I said with a smile as i tightened my arms around her, "I got you."

She looked around, something like fear clouding her eyes, "Get me out of here !" She said. I shook my head.

Her eyes widened, i wiggled my eyebrows, "I SAID GET ME OUT !" She snapped, i shook my head again, "No, i like the view from here." I said as my eyes traveled to her body under the water, "It helps you're wearing a white shirt, i can clearly see what's underneath."

"Including that black bra-" my eyes traveled to her face again, "How did you know i like black-"

I swear to god, if looks can kill i would've been ten feet under the ground by now. She started hitting my arm, "You stupid-" she said, "Douchbag- asshole- ughh."

I chuckled more, i love annoying her, I don't know why, "If you keep hitting my arm, i will let go of you and then-"

Her eyes widened, she directly held my shirt, "NO- DON'T." She said as she pressed herself closer to me.

I felt something. Something weird, but i directly shook it way.

One of my hands traveled over her back, under her shirt, it lingered over her soft skin till it reached her bra, my smirk came back as in a swift move i unhooked it.

She gasped, her hand left my shirt and she immediately wrapped them around her body, she lifted her head, her eyes wide, water lined her dark lashes, "WHAT DID YOU DO ? HOW ? I DIDN'T EVEN FEEL-"

"I am pretty expert with bras." I simply said with a shrug.

"YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I WILL DO TO YOU WHEN WE GO OUT-"

Her words caught in her mouth as i inched my face closer, our forehead pressed against each other, her wide eyes looking into mine, one little movement and our lips would touch.

"Don't you dare." She said, her voice came low, "Or i will slap you."

I couldn't hold my chuckle, "If you'll slap me then i will be able to see what you're hiding with your arms, and if you didn't then i will get the chance to kiss you."

The corner of my lip twitched in a smirk, "Both ways, i am winning."

She said nothing, i saw her swallow hard, I didn't give her time as i closed the gap and pressed my lips over hers. She didn't react at first but it didn't take her long to kiss me back.

The kiss was nothing like I thought it would be, it was much more.

It was more than lust.

Something much more.

"Alex, everyone is out of liquor, where- WOAH man sorry for-"

I directly broke the kiss when i heard someone else's voice, i felt myself pulling Cara closer to me almost in a protective way.

"I didn't know you're busy bro." Drake said with a cheesy smile. Cara pressed her forehead over my shoulder as she tried to hide herself in my embrace, "I will kill you." She mumbled.

I ignored her threat, "Go inside Drake, i am coming." I said, he nodded, turned around and went back inside.

"Did he go ?" Cara mumbled.

I nodded, "Yes."

At that she lifted her head, looked at me then around to see if there is anyone. She looked back at me, something other than anger evident in her eyes, something like hurt.

Did what happen hurt her. Fuck me.

"Look away." She said. My eyebrows furrowed, she rolled her eyes, "I have to fix the mess you did."

I turned my head away from her, "Don't you dare look !" She warned and i nodded. "And don't you dare leave me." She added.

I nodded as i kept my hands around her.

"I am soaking wet. Ugh." She said after few seconds, making me turn toward her.

"I have that effect on girls." I said with a wink.

She looked totally unimpressed with my comment, "Just get me out this pool now." She said. She looked so upset and angry.

She held into me as i swam us to the edge, "Don't leave me." She added as her hold tightened over my arm, her voice a mere whisper. My gaze traveled to her, she was looking around at the water, the fear in her eyes made my heart ache a bit.

I nodded as i pulled her closer, my smile long gone, the things I felt, I didn't like them, "I won't."

We went out of the pool. Cara directly wrapped her arms around herself, i saw her lower lips tremble a bit, "Come let's go dry you before you get sick." I said as i placed my hand over her lower back and gently pushed her.

She almost slipped, but my arm directly tightened around her waist saving her from falling.

I raised an eyebrow, "You don't have to always fall for me."

But Little did i know, i was the one falling for her.

**End of Flashback**

"But i didn't leave Cara." I lowly said as i removed my hand, seeing how the water slowly slipped in between my fingers, "You left."

I shook my head and stood up. I looked around and everything, every f*cking thing just reminded me of her.

I sat on the chair and placed my head in my hands, my body going weak, unable to handle the thought- that everything became a memory. All of our time together, it's just a memory now, her, she is my past now. That doesn't make sense , for god's sake, nothing makes sense.

I lifted my head from my hand when i heard glass clinking voice from beside me. I turned my head to see Ashton seating himself on the chair beside me, a bottle of alcohol in his hand.

He didn't even glance at my side as he poured the drink in two glasses. He pointed one of them toward me, i gave him a questioning look in return.

He looked unfazed as he talked, "Even if you kick me out this time-" he started, "I am not going."

A small smile came to my face as i took the glass from him, placing it to my lips i drank the whole thing in one gulp.

My throat burned, and i liked it.

I pointed the empty glass toward him, he took the bottle from beside him and with a smile he poured me again.

I know i am not alone, i know i still have a brother, and a sister.

But the emptiness she left, no one can fill.

No one was ever able to.

******

Cara's POV

I woke up early, not that i slept that much anyway.

I took a shower, changed my clothes, and fixed my hair.

He is coming today. He probably arrived a while ago.

I have to see him. He have to tell me what's happening. It's now or never.

I was walking toward the door when someone knocked on it. With furrowed eyebrows I immediately opened the door.

"Roman." I said when i saw him standing in front of my door. This mean they came. Good.

"Hey." He said, his usual smile wasn't there.

"Where is dad ?" I immediately asked, "I need to see him."

"He's out." He said, he looked upset and kind of angry , "But come with me, we need to talk."

I nodded and walked out of the room, Liam was also standing there, his gaze traveled from me to Roman, "He said, not to let her out of the room." Liam said.

Roman's jaw tightened, "Liam-" he said with a warning tone, "- you take orders from me not from Nikolas, you understand !" He added, his tone harsh. For a moment there, he looked scary.

Liam nodded, "I am saying that, just so you be careful." He said.

"I know what i am doing." Roman said, then he took hold of my arm and pulled me away with him.

We went to the same place as last time. The moment we sat down, Roman didn't give me a break as he immediately shot his question, "He came to your room, what did he say? What did he do?"

I don't have to be a genius to know he is referring to that Nikolas.

"Did he hurt you ?" He added, his tone softened a bit.

I shook my head, "He just said many things I didn't understand."

"He said that i am going to-" i paused as i tried to get a grip over myself, "That i am going to marry him, is that true?"

Please say it's not.

Roman let out a sigh, he nodded then looked away avoiding my gaze.

"Why?" I asked, i felt the stupid tears again. Why they're doing this to me ?

"Before we were even born, dad and Nikolas's dad, they had an agreement-" he looked back at me, "- that their children in the future will get married."

"So they can stop the blood shed between the two families."

My eyebrows furrowed, i still understood nothing.

"When mom knew about this, is when she asked dad to leave, to leave you alone, she didn't want to put you through this."

"At first, dad didn't accept to leave, because if he didn't keep his promise, he would handle the consequences for ruining the deal with Nikolas's father.

But when he knew mom was pregnant with me, he said he will leave on one condition."

My head started hurting as i tried to register the information he is telling me, "The condition was, taking you with him." I said.

He nodded as he kept talking further, "Yeah, he took me with him , but what mom didn't know, that dad was hiding something.

It is that Nikolas just had a sister."

My eyebrows pulled together as i tried to understand, and it didn't take me long, my eyes widened as realization dawned on me, "So dad took you so you can marry her."

He nodded, "You weren't there to keep the deal, so someone else had to do it." He said.

"So- did you ?" I asked, "Did you marry her ?"

If that happened, then why i am here now?

"I was supposed to." He said.

"What happened?" I asked, curious but at the same time, scared.

His jaw tightened, his gaze dropped down, "She died."

My eyes widened, my hand flew to my mouth, "What ? How ?"

He lifted his head and looked back at me, his eyes swimming in pain, real pain,

"I killed her."

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I should never take a break from writing, because gosh, it's so hard to get back into the writing mood.

Like i know what i should write but I don't know how 🤷🏼‍♀️ FML

Anyways, i hope the chapter was at least okay. Sorry for the long wait as well.

As you can see, Secrets are starting to reveal, wait wait, there is more f*cked up shits to come !

Anyways, Love ya all❤