"How dare you Gretchen!" Bellamy shouted once we were through the front door. I hated it when he called me by my whole name instead of my nickname, it meant he was either concerned or pissed off.

"How dare I what?" I argued.

"Your seventeen years old and I shouldn't be getting a call from your school asking for you to be collected!"

"I know right, I should of just got the bus." I rolled my eyes.

"It isn't funny Gretchen!"

"Fine fine," I dumped my bag on the floor and walked over to the breakfast bar and plonked myself down on a seat.

"I don't want you hanging round with Nathan anymore." Bellamy said in a dead panned tone.

"Yeah like that's going to happen." I rolled my eyes.

"I will make it happen."

"You can't do that Bellamy." I scowled at him.

"I think you'll find I can."

"Why do you have to be a total arsehole all the time!" I shouted at him "Your being unfair!" I shouted standing up and grabbing my bag, Bellamy was clenching his jaw trying to hold back. "You say to me that I have to avoid Nathan because you keep reminding me what happened last time with Daniel and your worried it will happen again, when really today Nathan stood up for me! Max was grabbing me in front of all his mates and Nathan stepped in! So instead of slating Nathan you want to thank him if you really love me!" I yelled as tears poured down my cheeks, I quickly hurried up the stairs and slammed my door.

Even mentioning Daniel's name my knees began to wobble and I collapsed onto the floor in the middle of the room. I decided that I needed this moment, just to let everything out while I had the chance to.

Daniel.

That name made my heart ache. I thought back to what he did to me and the humiliation I went through, the fact I trusted him and he broke me. What other boy would want a broken girl like me? Pulling myself off the floor I mentally slapped myself for allowing Daniel to enter my thoughts. I sighed and took all my makeup off and started to run a shower for myself. I got in and took what felt like for hours, I just let the warm water wash everything away. I stepped out and put on a tank top and fluffy purple bottoms and put my hair into a French plait. I didn't feel like eating so I slipped into bed and started to re-read Harry potter and the deathly hallows when there was a knock at my door.

"Gretch?" Bellamy poked his head round the door.

"Yeah?" I replied putting my book down. Bellamy came into my room and placed a bowl onto my night stand.

"I made your favourite, chicken and mushroom soup," he smiled warmly whilst sitting on the side of my bed.

"Thanks," I smiled, I just wanted to put all what happened behind me today.

"I heard you crying earlier... But I thought it was best to give you some space." Bellamy said softly.

"I just had to let it all out..." I sniffled a little.

"I'm sorry I didn't give you a chance to explain yourself Gretch. Its just I have mum and dads words ringing in my ears constantly about checking up on you, I don't want you to be sent away, I wouldn't be able to handle that..." He explained.

"I know...."

"and this Nathan.....I just think he's having a bit of influence on you, and I'm not quite sure how to feel about that, do you understand where I'm coming from Gretch?"

"I do. I just..." I sighed heavily.

"You don't have to explain yourself if your not ready yet." Bellamy smiled.

"No. I need to.... You know what happened to me and you know its changed me." Bellamy nodded at me to what I was saying "When I'm around boys I don't give two shits and if they take an interest in me I usually ignore it. When Taylor tried to set me up with someone I just didn't feel comfortable..." I explained. "But with Nathan...I do feel comfortable, he makes me laugh and I don't know how I feel....I'm scared to feel." I whispered. Bellamy pulled me into a hug and held me there.

"Your allowed to be scared, Gretch." He soothed stroking my hair as a tear trickled down my cheek. "I'd give it time, see how you feel. I'm not saying I like him because at the moment I still think he's dodgy." He warned.

"You hardly know him," I laughed a little.

"I know, I just don't like the idea of my little sis loving an older guy other than me." He squeezed me tightly as my heart melted at his words.

"Love you." I said kissing his cheek.

"Love you too." He smiled "Just try to refrain from punching people." He laughed.

"I'll try my best." I smiled.

"Come on," he smiled "I've got frozen on blu-ray downstairs,"

"You know me too well," I laughed letting go of him and grabbing my blanket and bowl of soup.