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My world have already came crashing down when I heard the bad news, but now I feel like the whole Universe is trying to push me down to the deepest abyss of pain.

"Mrs. Kashyap, how will you explain this legally drafted divorce papers with your husband's sign on it...?"

How can I even act to this statement...? Nod off to what she said...? Give her a smile...? Behave as if I have no idea of this divorce and look like an idiot...? Or should I try to deny it even when it has a legal stamp...? What should I do when the situation is doing nothing but making me more vulnerable...?

I am at the home now, re-thinking of every decision or every step I ever took in my entire life till now.

Now you ask what I did when she said that to me...? I just walked away. And they let me. I guess they know by now that I had no idea about the whole divorce thing, as apart from my behaviour, the absence of my sign there, spoke volumes.

'Where did our marriage went wrong that he needed to file a divorce without telling me...?'

I couldn't help but to remember every single thing I did to recall what wrong did I do for him to act in such a way.

It's been just 3 days since he died. I should be mourning right now about his death. But here I am thinking about the divorce which I had no idea of.

When I say, our marriage was the happy one, I am not lying. Our marriage was really a happy one. Our baby is the biggest proof for it. Though it hurts to say 'was' with any content related to Rudra, but that's a fact now.

I was never going to marry anyone. I was not up for this whole marriage thing but that's all up only till when he wasn't in my life. It might sound a little bit cheesy, but the moment he came in my life, I knew that this guy is going to chance my marriage ideologies. And guess what, yes, that's what happened.

I changed my ideologies and thoughts, just for this day to witness. How can destiny be soo cruel...?

It's soo funny, because even though the divorce paper was in front of me, I didn't blamed him for that. Even now, I am not blaming it on him. Instead I am thinking someone created this situation and pushed it down on me.

Everyone might think that I have went crazy for not blaming him even when his signature is there, but let's think it rationally, what if the signature is forged...?

Come on!! he was the leader of the company, obviously someone could forged his signature so that they could benefit from it.

'They are definitely the forged one.'

I declared in my mind even when it seemed all stupid. Even though this reasoning wouldn't sound wise at all, my hunch was saying that it was a forged one and great!! I am losing my mind now.

Holding my head tightly to grasp my thoughts and calm down my heavy breathing, I thought of our baby and how bad my mental condition could be for the baby.

It is good to determined to find why my husband did that without telling me or if he didn't, then who did that, but not the cost of the well-being of our baby.

After calming down, I spent the whole day nothing things which would be productive for me and our baby, and would also throw away terrifying thoughts which accumulated in my mind.

It was night time already, when I finished the last thing for today and went to cook dinner for me.

'I am feeling lonely.'

Without not someone hugging you from behind, playfully criticising my cooking skills and yet having one more serving deliciously, the home no longer felt like home anymore.

It felt all just the combination of bricks, wood and all other stuff with what a 'house' is made off, without the special person to fill it with love and make it convert to a 'home'.

After having the dinner, now when I layed my body on the mattress of the bed, that's when the thoughts which I was holding back all longer, came lashing towards me.

I thought I could handle it later when I decided to push them back in my mind. But oh well!! I was soo wrong to think about it like that.

When I finally had it enough, I started thinking of how to get rid of this thoughts, and that's when in reply, my mind finally spoke in my favour.

'Get to know about that person who said that you're marriage was not a good one.'

Thinking more about it, it wasn't a bad idea though. It's not like I will be going to fight against that person or kill that person. I just want to know why that person said that because who knows I would get an answer to the divorce situation too.

Walking away from the bedroom to the living room, I picked up my phone and called the officer who was in charge of the case.

It did not room long for Kairav Ghosh to pick up the phone and ask me how could he help me.

After being polite and exchanging greetings, I came to the point and ask him about that person.

"I just wanted to ask whether I could have the details about the person who stated of us having a bad marriage...?"

All I could hear was silence. I knew this is going to happen because how can he let me know the person's name when my situation yesterday was hysterical.

And I don't blame him at all for acting in such a manner even though, it hurts a little to think that people are assuming that I have went full to crazy.

I sighed and decided to push little more, giving him the assurance that nothing wrong would happen.

"Mr. Ghosh, let me be clear. I don't want to know that person's name to harm them in certain way. I am still very fixed to my statement of being satisfied with the marriage.

I just want to know it so that I could learn about the actual truth behind the divorce thing as the police will only focus on the murder part. About the divorce, I am the only one who could put the paddle forward whether it's now or in the future.

Soo, can you please let me know who that person is...?"

I requested earnestly to him as I made my intentions very clear. I could sense that which each sentence, he was getting closer to agree with me.

Finally, when I heard him sigh after a prolonged silence, I pressed the phone tightly to my ears soo that I would not miss anything he says.

"If you do anything wrong to that person, you would be in trouble. Got it...?"

His voice sounding like a teacher, he asked me, to which just like a student, in matter of the second, said yes.

"His name is Nayan Singh. I don't know whether you know it or not, but he is your husband's secretary for 4 years. So he is an eligible source to get information about him from.

He was the one to claim about your bad marriage, stating that he was....."

His words slipped at the end and lost their momentum making me confused of what he was saying.

"Stating that he was.....?"

I urged him to repeat that sentence thinking that there would have been disturbance in the network connection as the disturbance is very frequent in this region of the City.

"Ummm..."

At my urging, the kind of reply he gave, made me realise that it wasn't the disturbance in the connection which led to the break of the sentence, but it was his hesitance which came in the middle.

"I am getting a little bit impatient. Soo can you please say it immediately without a pausing once again so that I could hear it...? I request you."

I requested as I pressed the phone more to my ears as I felt his words gaining acceleration once again as I heard him taking a deep breath to release whatever he is holding back from saying.

Before continuing the sentence, he suggested me to sit down somewhere and in the eagerness of hearing what he was going say, I immediately sat down without thinking of why he was making me sit down. I didn't thought to much as all I could think was what he is going to say.

"Miss. Narsule, Nayan Singh, along with claiming that you and your husband were having a problematic marriage, he also claimed that he was your husband's boyfriend with evidence proving it.

So yeah, your husband was having an extramarital affair with a guy."

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