"Tae...I REALLY need to talk to Taehyung."

"I can answer any questions you have for him...I mean we share this gorgeous noggin." He said pointing at his head.

"Uuughhh" I groaned leaning my head back. It has been over and hour and all Tae wanted to do was flirt and say inappropriate things. At one point I had to throw a pillow at him to get him to stop telling me about a dream he had involving me tied to his bed.

"Tae...this is exhausting...you claim to want whats best for Taehyung...you claim to want to protect him...but you're doing the opposite of that right now. Taehyung is in a safe house, in a safe room, with a doctor who is trying to help him. What do you have to protect him from right here, right now?"

He crossed his arms and looked away from me momentarily before turning back towards me.

"You."

"Tae! I'm not going to do anything to Taehyung...I have a criminal background check to prove it."

"No, I mean...he's attracted to you...so he doesn't like talking to you."

"What about when he pulled me into the pool with him last night? I was wearing way less clothes and I was all wet, he was totally fine."

He looked at me with an annoyed glare and exhailed deeply before uncrossing his arms. "I guess that's true...fine."

"Wait! Before you go you have to promise me something."

"Babygirl, I already told you, whenever you want me just gotta let me know." He said winking at me.

"No." I said in an annoyed tone. "However uncomfortable Taehyung gets for the next hour you have to SWEAR you will let him work it out on his own. No surfacing."

He didn't say anything at first, just continued to look at me. "What do I get in return?"

"A cookie."

He scoffed at first then a very mischievous smile came across his face and he looked at me with hooded eyes. "Your cookie?"

"TAE!!"

"Okay, okay, fine. I promise I will not come back for the remainder of the session."

"No matter how uncomfortable Taehyung gets...or scared."

"I promise." He said. He took a deep breath and rolled his head back closing his eyes. It took longer than normal but once he lifted his head to look at me I saw those same soft eyes and boxy smile I knew belonged to Taehyung.

"There you are." I said smiling.

He giggled slightly and shifted in his chair. "It's nice to see you again Quinn...and dry."

I laughed with him. "Yes, I was taken quite by surprise by your action. But it was all in good fun." He smiled at me and relaxed a bit in his chair. "You know Taehyung, I don't think you and I have every had a real conversation. I've always been dodging Tae's innapropriate comments." I laughed again.

He laughed too. "Yeah...sorry about that...he's not shy."

"Well neither are you I don't think."

"Mmmmm, no not really actually."

"So before I start is there anything you want to talk about first?"

"I'm here for the ride Doctor...I will start wherever you'd like to start."

"Well I'd like to talk about Tae if that's alright."

"Do you want me to bring him back out?" When he asked this he seemed a bit disappointed...as if he didn't want Tae to come back out.

"No...god no...I want to talk ABOUT him WITH you."

"What do you want to know?"

"Can you communicate with him?"

"Yes."

"How?"

"Ummm he's kind of like a voice...subconscious voice but a voice. When I get nervous or scared he kind of bubbles up and eventually he's out and about. I've learned a lot from him"

"Learned?"

He nodded.

"Like what?"

"He has so much more confidence than I do...and he knows what he wants and how to get it. Sometimes though I think he can be too much...like when...when he noticed you didn't lock your bedroom door that one day."

"Oh...yes...."

"I'm sorry about that..."

"You've already apologized and there isn't anything to be sorry about. I'm actually glad it happened; it gave me a bit of an insight to both you and Tae. But I have a very serious question."

He looked at me expectantly.

"How long did you have that babysitter for?"

He seemed to panic a bit, and I saw him visibly shake. He swallowed hard as he calmed down and looked me in the eyes.

"Two years."

I nodded. "And when did the abuse start?"

"When I was 6...a year after she started babysitting for me."

"How old was she?"

"23."

"Taehyung, did she ever rape you?"

His eyes went big and he swallowed hard again as he started to breath heavy. But he shook his head no as he started to shift in his chair a little more.

"This is...this is really weird..."

"What is?"

"The fact that he hasn't come out yet...normally if I talk about this stuff he comes out immediately."

"Hmmm....well I asked him not to."

He smiled and relaxed a little. "I know. He's just jealous that you like me better." He said with a smirk.

"Taehyung are you flirting?" I said smiling.

He laughed a bit. "Maybe."

"Good...it's good to see you comfortable in your own skin and not Tae's"

He nodded again and then his expression became serious. "She never actually raped me...she just touched me...and made me touch her...a lot." He closed his eyes and furrowed his eye brows as he continued. "She said that I was showing her how much of a man I was. She would tell me how much girls liked it when boys showed their manly sides." He opened his eyes back up and let out a short breath. "I didn't know what she was doing was wrong until my mother told me."

"How did they find out?"

"They caught her...we were in the living room and they came home early...you can fill in the blanks."

"How did your parents react?"

"Like normal parents I think. They kicked her out...called the police...pressed charges. You know the worst part about all of it?"

"What's that?"

"It didn't really...traumatize me when it was happening. It wasn't until the trial and I had to testify and talk over and over again about it to so many people and they told me how wrong it was, did I actually start to get affected by it."

I am so happy he is opening up about this. What surprised me even more is that he is talking as if its something...not traumatizing; that this is just a conversation that needed to be had. I couldn't help to be proud of him for being so strong about this whole thing. He took a deep breath before he continued.

"That's when I started getting scared of the feelings I was having. I hit puberty and all these hormones were raging through my body...plus I was around so many girls all the time...pretty girls...and pretty guys...I couldn't fight it anymore. One day Tae showed up...he was smooth, and everyone liked him, especially girls." He said smiling.

I giggled at him a bit. "Taehyung do you like girls?"

"Oh yes...I do. Tae likes both girls and boys...but I don't think I could ever be in a relationship with a guy. I could do a threesome though, I know that." He said with a smirk.

"How do you know?"

"Tae has done one...I liked it."

"Why haven't you done one?"

He shifted in his seat again and he looked as if he didn't want to answer the question. "I technically have never had sex before." He answered. "I know I physically have but...mentally its always been Tae."

"But you and Tae communicate don't you?"

"Yeah."

"So if you think about it...even though Tae's personality was dominate in that situation...you were still there."

He looked at me as if he was thinking that through hard before he opened his mouth to respond only to close it again. He looked a little confused...as if he wasn't sure what to say...so I spoke up again.

"Do YOU remember that night? Or any of the nights that he's been intimate with someone?" I mean he did just admit he liked it.

"All of them."

"Do you remember feeling what he was feeling?"

He nodded again shifting his eyes away from me. I couldn't help but let a smile break across my face. I think I may be right about Taehyung...I think Tae IS Taehyung...I believe both personalities to be just part of who he is but he suppresses that part of him because he had been told sex and feeling good was bad because of what happened to him.

"Taehyung, when you think of sex, whether it be heartfelt or simply for physical release...what do you think about it?"

He tilted his head a bit in thought, and when he looked at me he couldn't help but get a big smile across his face. "I think it's a good thing...but I feel like I should think it's a bad thing."

"Why?"

"Because that's all I had ever been told. My mom told me that what she did was wrong...and though I know what she did WAS wrong..."

"You associated it with sex and not the innocence of the situation you were in as a child."

"I...I think so."

"Can I tell you something?"

He nodded lightly.

"Sex is a lot of fun."

He let out a short hard laugh surprised by my comment.

"What?" He said in a bit of shock.

"Sex feels reeeeally good actually...when done right... and it's a natural stress reliever. There is nothing wrong with being sexually active as long as you are safe."

He seemed to be more comfortable than he was when we first started this conversation. He smiled a big flirty smile as he turned towards me. His eyes were a bit...hungry? Is that the right word? It threw me off entirely because one; Tae said he wouldn't come back until after the session was over and two; I didn't see him roll his head back so this couldn't be Tae...this look...HAD to be from Taehyung.

"Well Doctor you certainly stirred up some feelings in my stomach..."

"Taehyung..." I said in a warning tone.

"Hey this isn't my fault...you're the one that started talking about how much fun sex is...and its been a while." He said licking his lips.

I laughed. "Taehyug...I am your Doctor."

"Did you tell that to Jimin?" he said with his eyebrows raised.

I wasn't expecting that. My face fell and I swallowed hard trying not to give him a reaction.

"We aren't talking about Jimin, Taehyung."

"Well we could be...he likes you ya know. A lot."

"And how do you know that?"

"He told me...or...he told Tae."

"This isn't part of therapy Taehyung...besides...how comfortable are you right now?"

He looked at me funny looking at the chair for any abnormalities. "Quite...why?"

"Because you're acting an awfully lot like Tae...makes me think that maybe you two aren't so different after all..." I said biting my lip.

I did it deliberately. I watch him as his eyes went from mine to my lips. Got him. I dragged my tongue across my bottom lip to moisten them and I saw his Adam's apple bob hard. He shifted again in the chair, and I couldn't help but notice his slight arousal through his tight jeans. He noticed me notice it and blushed a bright red. Clearing his throat he spoke again.

"Stop biting your lip."

His look was intense. "Why?"

"Because it turns me on." He said bluntly still staring at my lips.

"You didn't deny it."

"Deny what?" he asked looking confused.

"That you and Tae aren't that different from each other." He didn't say anything, just pressed his lips harder together. "What do you think?"

He looked down and nodded slightly. "Probably."

"I think this is a good place to end...don't you?"

"Yeah it may be a good idea for me to leave now."

"Why's that?"

"Because I've been able to see up your dress almost the entire time I've been here and I can't get rid of the raging hard on I have right now." He placed his hands on his lap to, I assume, hide his erection. I immediately uncrossed my legs and held them together tightly.

"The entire time?"

"The entire time." He said laughing. "Pink's a good color for you."

I flushed a shade of red. He got up and as he walked to the door he thanked me for my time. "I feel better already."

"Hey Taehyung...one more thing." He stopped and turned towards me giving me his full attention. "I want you to start fighting Tae." His eyes opened even wider.

"What?" he said a little louder than usual.

"When Tae starts to surface...I want you to try to stop him and handle the situation yourself...while BEING yourself...don't hide who you are Taehyung. You're a beautiful person. Horny and a tease...but beautiful nonetheless."

He smiled and nodded again as he walked out the door. I may make progress with him yet. I finished the night with my notes. Taehyung wanted his sessions to be after dinner so he had the day to "mentally prepare." I was about done when there was a knock at my door.

"Come in." I said without looking up from my laptop.

"Hey there beautiful...wanna go for a night time walk?"