Where am I?

In the past? In a dream?

I tried to read his eyes, but cannot! It's as complex as what I'm feeling right now.

And I'm lost in these emotions.

Suddenly, I just want to be in that moment... of the past.

What am I feeling?

Indeed, I am lost...but I came back to my senses when the door swung open and a loud cheering came in.

We're both startled. I looked over his shoulder and he turned to look as well.

"Saengilchukha hamnida! Saengilchukha hamnida!" It's the members! They all came in singing happily.

"Yah!" Sungkyu reacted. He acted like he didn't like what's happening. "What's this!"

"Surprise!" Woohyun came and popped the party popper near his face. He put his arms around his shoulder. "You got surprised right?" he asked teasingly. All the members joined in.

Sungyeol started patting his back really hard.

"Look at his face!" Dongwoo exclaimed pointing at him. "He's so surprised!"

"Anniyo!" he denied. But he was restraining himself from smiling.

"You thought we forgot right?" Sungjong joined in. L was just grinning at the side.

"I know you never had any idea of this but we made sure you'll be surprised! And wait..."

Another person came in and I know its Bora, who hugged him. She's a member of a girl group and she's really popular and beautiful. I didn't understand what was happening next because their cheers became inaudible and everything just went blur.

I felt a knot in my heart.

I just stood there watching them all.

But before they could remember me standing there with the cake, I immediately gave it to Sungjong without speaking.

"Oh Eonni!" he was startled. "Wait! Where are you- " he said while getting the cake.

Just after giving the cake to him, I ran away.

I found myself in the rooftop of the building.

And I'm crying.

Oh crap!...No!

I've been crying. I don't know when it started. When Sungkyu came in? When he called my name? When everyone came in? I don't know.

I let out a loud cry as I bit my thumb.

I can't help but remember that day...

The sunset brought orange and pinkish color in the sky. Everything feels so beautiful. Even the park seems so bright even though I've seen it for like a thousand times. And the water in the river looks sparkling.

I've worn my best white summer knee length dress which I don't usually wear.

What can I say, its a special day! I chuckled at myself. I can't believe I'm doing this.

I sneaked at the tree. I saw him sitting at the bench near the riverside, waiting for me.

I smiled and lit up the candles in the small round chocolate cake I'm holding. How I wished I bought a bigger one, but I don't have a huge budget for this!

I sneaked at his back and then gave him a quick kiss in the cheek.

He turned his head and he seemed surprise.

"Happy Anniversary!" I greeted while presenting him the cake. I sat beside him.

He was in awe.

"It's our anniversary?" he asked, his face showing a picture of surprise.

My jaw dropped.

"How could you not remember it's our anniversary?" I pouted and put down the cake in the bench. I crossed my arms. I'm so upset with him. How could he not remember such important event!

"I'm sorry! It's... I...I'm sorry. I... I ahm..."

I can't believe him! He can't even say a single reason! I threatened to leave. I stood up and marched away.

But of course, I'm waiting for him to call me and stop me. But I heard nothing so I looked back.

I'm frustrated with him.

"Why aren't you stopping me?"

I heard him chuckle. Which made me more furious.

"You are really cute, honey." I immediately blushed. It's rare to hear him use endearments!

"Y-yah!" I just pouted.

"Come here," he commanded. But I just stood there.

"Hurry." He gestured his hands calling me. I slowly went back to him. It's not my intention to go away anyway.

"What?" I asked him as I reach him.

"How could I forget about our anniversary? I was just acting awhile back."

"Pshh!" I snorted. Then suddenly he took something out of his pocket. It's a red small box.

"Here's my gift for you," he said.

"Wow! You have a gift for me?" I exclaimed.

He nodded, grinning and was about to open it.

"Aren't you going to atleast kneel before you open that?" I joked.

"I would love to, but my knees hurts you know," he reasoned and acted sick.

"Chincha!" I chuckled. As expected from Kim Sunggyu.

"But! If that's what you want, then I will," he gave a mischievous smile.

And later, he did something unexpected.

Before me, he knelt on his knees.

"Hey- you don't have to do that. I was just kidding awhile back!" I protested. Because really! We're both timid! We get easily shy! I looked around and there are some onlookers curious of what he's doing.

"Stand up," I pleaded.

"-Just keep quiet and listen." He said chuckling at me getting tensed.

"And you better answer me," he added.

He breathe out. He seemed nervous as I was. He opened the box while looking at me.

A silver necklace flashed infront of my eyes and the pendant shows the initials SS.

I'm so surprised! I never thought he'd prepare a gift like this!

"Do you, Lee Sujeong, promise to stay with me forever?"

I giggled. "What are you saying? Sungkyu? Is that really you? What did you eat this morning?"

"Just answer me if you don't want me to force you answer me," he said forcefully but it seems he's shy. He's blushing!

"Really? What will you do?" I teased. I'm smiling from ear to ear.

"I'm gonna kiss you in front of all the people here in the park and I won't stop until you promise," he threatened.

"Yah!" I looked around as I felt my cheeks burning. There are quite some people there and some are looking at us.

"Fine. I promise." I even raised my right hand.

He stared at me measuring my response. It did seem I'm not serious with this but he didn't argue.

"Do you, Lee Sujeong promise to love Kim Sungkyu for the rest of your life?" He looked really serious.

I covered my mouth.

"Wait! You're serious?"

"I've never been this serious," he answered.

I'm in disbelief. I feel like I wanna cry. I feel so loved.

"Sungkyu, I promise , even in my next life!" I exclaimed.

He gave me a huge smile followed by a big sigh.

"I know we argued about this for a lot of times but i'm going to ask you again."

I tried to figure out what he's about to say but I cant.

"Sujeong, my babysoul... W-will you... c-come with me to Seoul and chase our dreams together?"

I got speechless. I never thought he's as serious as this. We did talked about this for a lot of times but I never agreed. Because I thought he was only joking! I mean, who would be, in such a young age, would go to such measures?

This is going to be a life changing decision! If I say no, we'd be in a long distance relationship. I might even lose him.

If I say yes, I'll have to leave everything here in the province and start a new life.

"Of course it'll be after graduation. Not today," he added with a nervous chuckle.

An uncertain future.

"Answer me please," he begged. I can see in his eyes frustration and nervousness.

I remained silent. One word, and my life will change forever.

"Babysoul?"

But I love him so much I could be wherever he is.

Come what may. As long as I'm with him...

I nod.

He just looked at me, with surprise.

Again, I nod.

He asked me to be with him in his journey! It means he includes me in his future, in his plans!

In his life!

Sungkyu punch the air. "Yes!!!" he exclaimed.

He stood up and then he put the necklace around my neck and hugged me tightly.

"I know someone who'll employ us at a restobar in Seoul. He said we'll sing there as a duo or solo. Everything we want. I could have other jobs too. We could start with that and we could both go to college, study music, own a studio..."

And I started crying. My heart is swelling with so much happiness.

"Hey...why are you crying?" he asked.

I laughed while in tears. "Just... I'm just happy." I again laughed. I don't know why tears kept falling. I'm so overwhelmed. He had it all settled before telling his plans to me. He made sure everything's on track so we won't start with completely nothing when we get to Seoul.

Sungkyu raised his right hand and run his thumb in left cheek trying to wipe my tears.

"Don't cry. I feel like you don't like it."

I shake my head. "No. I do."

I looked at him and he was teary eyed.

We both chuckled.

He run his fingers to my chin and lift it. Then he lowered his head and kissed my lips. I kissed him back. I forgot where we are, and I've stopped caring about the people around.

"What if your parent refuses to let you go, will you still come with me?" he asked.

"Yes. I promise."

"Thank you for trusting me. I thought you'd decline. This is a really big decision," he said keeping our foreheads touching.

"I will be wherever you are."

"I'm glad. Really am," he said and hugged me again. I feel like we can stay like this forever.

"Wait- the cake!" I exclaimed when I suddenly remembered it. "Oh! We haven't blown the candles yet! But now the flames are gone!" We both sat at the bench across each other.

He chuckled. "Let's just lit it up again!" he suggested.

I excitedly lit it up.

"Let's wish first!" I said while clasping my hands together.

"Is that necessary?" he asked. It seems he wanted to take a bite of the cake already.

He was about to get a piece but I slapped his arm to stop him. "Of course!"

"Fine!" He retreated.

I said my wish.

And after that. We blew the candles together.

"So what did you wish for?" I asked.

"Well, I wished for a new guitar," he coolly said.

"What!? It's not your birthday!"

"Just kidding!" He place his hand on top of my head and ruined my hair. "I wished for your wish to come true." He gave me a smile and pinch is the cheek. He started eating the cake.

But I just stared at him.

My heart is flowing with warmth. I just so, so inlove with this man infront of me.

I can express what I'm thinking, what I'm feeling when I'm with him. I become more talkative and playful, and less reserved.

I'm me when I'm with him.

I wipe my tears using the end of the sleeves of my coat.

It's the cake. The candle. It reminded me of that wish I made that day.

"How about you? What did you wish for?"

I stayed silent. I gave him a smile and fed him the cake in my spoon.

What did I wish that day?

I wished that all the promises I've made will never be broken.

But I guess my wish never came true. Because those promises were all broken.

I curled myself at the wall. Good thing there's no one in the rooftop.

I just wanna be alone and think.

I closed my eyes.

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~Author's note~

I wanna read your comments! XD