The feast was normal as always but this time we weren't being sorted but new students were. It was boring and now I know how tom and my brother felt during the constant waiting process. Eventually the feast began and not too long after we returned to our dorms in the dungeons where the common room was located. Once in my room I was happy to still be in a separate room alone because now I could have more privacy when nightmares woke me. Oddly enough my dorm was closer to the boys dorms then the girls and it just so happens that Reggie, Theo and Matteo share a dorm closest to me. Draco, Blaise and Lorenzo share another while Daphne and pansy share one on the girls side. Tom is with some random  students that he constantly talks about disliking them. I would be happy to share with pansy and Daphne but it seems it won't happen due to having my own room already.

There wasn't enough space to add more beds unless I move things around but I'd never want to share now especially. So after showering and getting ready for bed the nerves started kicking up and I just sat there laying in my bed tears streaming down my face. That was until someone knocked on my door and from the scent it was Matteo.

"Yes?" I asked after having whipped my face from any tears

"We were wondering if you'd join us for a little game just the group" he asked softly

"I don't know" I said softly

"Drinking involved" he said with a smirk

"Hmm, I suppose it wouldn't hurt" I smirked back

"Good" he chuckled softly

"So who's room?" I asked

I paused

"Let me guess mine since your all standing outside mine being the biggest" I asked and opened the door more

"Haha caught us" Theo said as he made his way into the room

I shook my head softly and chuckled as I let the rest into my room.

"Not only is yours bigger but it's the perfect meeting point between the dorms" pansy said

"I see your point" I smiled

I shut the door behind tom and then silenced the room so we didn't get into any trouble if we're too loud. The game began and we were playing around drinking, laughing, smoking and just being together. I guess it was a way for them to cheer me up after my summer and what they found out. I was grateful for it not going to lie because it helped well for a while until I fell asleep that night.

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I woke up screaming and someone shaking me causing me to fight until arms warped tightly around me.

"Shh it's ok" Reggie said softly

"I'm sorry" I cried

"Shhh it's not your fault" he soothed me

The others were surprisingly still asleep as Reggie and I snuggled together in my bed I feared if he let go I'd have more nightmares.

"You get them too don't you?" I asked softly

"Yes" he said sadly while looking at the ceiling

"Reggie" I said

"Yes love?" He asked

"Do they....do they hurt you" I asked

"I....uh yea" he said without looking at me

I wanted to see his eyes, I wanted to see him look at me so I straddled him and then he had no choice but to look at me. His hands gripped my hips as I placed my hands on his chest.

"What are you doing darling?" He asked

"You wouldn't look at me, I just wanted to see your eyes" I said softly while looking down

"Then why aren't you looking at me?" He asked gripping my chin gently

I was at a loss and couldn't think so I leaned down and kissed him to which he kissed back before flipping us so he was now on top.

"My eyes aren't my lips" he whispered in my ear

Shit he was hard, and I was wet but it was too soon I was only soon to be fourteen. I had to wait and it sucked but it wasn't the right time plus I shouldn't get attached if I'm to be married off.

"I don't want to marry a stranger" I said sadly

"Neither do I, my parents are doing the same thing, I hope she's decent but idk they've always had a plan for me wether I like it or not" he said and kissed my neck gently

"Reggie" I whined softly

"Hmm" he said against my neck

"Not yet" I said softly

"Ok" he said and pulled me so my head was on his chest