KHUSHI GUPTA

I kept on staring at the ceiling wondering what was wrong with me, I mean despite all the negative signs why was I still willing to be with Arnav.

Aditi warned me against him, Jiya warned me and also Arnav himself warned me against it, but yet here I was, not wanting to do what they were asking me to do.

I was like a kid, I wanted the thing I was told I can't have.

All this while I just kept on thinking that all that was between me and Arnav was just lust, but if it really was that I wouldn't be battling myself this hard, despite knowing that Aditi hates him and if anything ever happens between Arnav and I, she would hate me for the rest of her life.

If it was lust, I wouldn't take this risk, this was more than that, and I hated that I felt that way about him because now I dint know what more to do.

I stepped out of the bed and headed in my bathroom to take a shower so I could leave for the university, I hadn't yet figured out how I was going to deal with this entire situation, to make it worse Arnav and I were in the same class.

We tried it twice, pretending to ignore each other but it dint work, I don't know what made Arnav think it would work now, now that he had told me what he felt for me.

Once I was ready I headed downstairs, where quite surprisingly I found Jai waiting for me, he was seated on the sofa just looking around.

"Jai, what are you doing here?" I asked.

"I was passing by so I thought we could go together." He smiled.

"Oh... okay." I nodded, he stood up so we headed outside got into my car and drove off.

"You dint come with your car?" I asked.

"Nope, taxi."

"Oh okay."

"You seem stressed, like not the usual you kind, is everything okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. This film making is hectic, I'm already tired I don't even know when I'll finish it." I smiled. I loved film making, I just dint know what other excuse to come up with.

Once we arrived, we headed to sit at our usual spot, we had been early so we just sat on the staircase talking about stuff.

Jai kept me telling some story but I was completely zoned out, I dint hear a word of it.

I just couldn't stop thinking about Arnav, or what it was that was making him take this kind of decisions, also if what Aditi said about him was true or just a misunderstanding.

I had so many questions!

"So, what are you doing tonight?" Jai asked.

"I don't know, just usual at home reading and stuff." I shrugged.

"How about we go out, somewhere, a movie or something."

"I have another class tomorrow Jai, I can go to a movie."

"Okay then dinner?"

"Wait... what's going on here? We just went to dinner recently, and now you're suggestion movie or anything. What is it?" I looked at him curiously.

"Nothing... I just like hanging out with you."

"Why?"

"Because I like you. I know you don't like me that way but I am okay being your friend, I just find excuses to spend time with you and just feel better about it. I am not asking for any commitment or anything, I know I'm not your type." He said.

"Exactly, you aren't Jai, we discussed this. You know when feelings come in between friendships get ruined, I don't want that." I stood up angrily.

"Well it's not like I forced myself to feel things for you Khushi. Haven't you ever felt something towards anyone? Did you force yourself to feel it?" He asked.

I looked at him having nothing to say, he was right, I never thought I could feel things for Arnav, the main part being, I never wanted to, it just happened and now I dint know how to move ahead.

"I need to go to class, I'll see you tomorrow maybe, I just need to be alone for today." I said as I started walking away and he followed me.

"Okay, I am sorry Khushi, I dint want to tell you but you asked and I thought you would understand." He looked at me sadly.

"Trust me Jai, I understand. I just don't feel the same way." I said, he nodded as he stepped backwards and I headed straight to my class.

Where the hell was Aditi?

Why hadn't I seen her yet? I wish I could talk to her, if I told her about what Jai said, she was going to laugh and make fun of him.

*****

As usual the class was full and the only empty seat was beside me and for some reason Arnav was always late which meant if he was attending the class today, he had to sit beside me, I was excited for it, despite knowing he dint want this.

A while later, as expected he walked in and looked around, when he realized there was an empty space beside me only, he walked towards some girl in our class, gave her a look and said something to her, I saw the girl immediately grab her stuff as she rushed to sit with me while Arnav sat where she was sitting.

Okay, so he was avoiding me, as if I cared.

Of course you cared Khushi!

I hated the fact that I cared.

I kept on looking at him hoping for once he would also try to look at me or anything but he dint, he was serious when he said he dint want it.

As much as I dint want to sound desperate or look desperate, for some reason I just couldn't stay away from him either, so I decided to play him game on him. The lecturer hadn't arrived yet so I was lucky.

"Hey, do you mind sitting up there?" I asked the guy that was seated beside Arnav.

"Of course not." He said as he grabbed his thing immediately and rushed away, it seemed he was too scared of Arnav and sitting beside him was making him nervous.

Arnav gave me an angry look but then pretended not to bother, acting like I dint exist. Idiot!

I put my books and pen on the desk and the pushed it towards his side and then pretended to get hold of it, he had his hands resting on the desk so I brushed mine against his and he looked at me angrily but that wasn't going to scare me.

I just smirked and he seemed really irritated, I knew if he could, he would leave the class immediately, but missing a class meant losing out on a lot and I was sure he dint want that.

He took his hands off, having no other idea, I just tried to move closer to him, and brushed my arms against his, it was so much fun doing this to him.

He was trying really hard not to look at me or react but I knew I just had to push him a little more and he would start talking.

I moved my leg towards it and started running it up and down his leg teasing him, I could see what it was doing to him and he was just trying to pretend like it dint affect him.

Who knew teasing Arnav Raizada was going to be this fun.

"What?" He looked at me angrily.

Yup, there he broke his silence, it was so easy to get to him.

"What?" I pouted pretending to have no idea what he was talking about.

"I thought we were trying to behave like adults, why are you doing such childish things." He looked at me angrily.

"I dint know children knew about romance, jeez, that's very bad." I was really trying to control my laughter at this moment, the expressions on his face were priceless.

"I asked you for one thing Khushi, just one. Leave me the hell alone."

"Oh come on Arnav, you know you want this. I mean look at me, I'm a piece of cake, you don't want to miss out on this do you?

Just looked how pretty my hazel eyes are, and my juicy lips, don't you want to kiss them? Don't you want to know how they taste?" I said in a really seductive voice while he just stared at me in shock and surprise.

Teasing Arnav Raizada was really fun.