Lee Hoseok: Y/N, are you ok, I've been waiting at the resort lobby for twenty minutes now

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Lee Hoseok: Hello?

Lee Hoseok: Ya I brought snacks :)

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Lee Hoseok: Are you dead?

Lee Hoseok: Y/N why are you ignoring me, I feel sad 😔

Lee Hoseok: did I do something wrong?

Lee Hoseok: :(

I hate myself so much, I don't want to see him anymore. All my hopes and feelings were drained in the gutter.

Y/N: Oh sorry I was sleeping, I'll be right down

Lee Hoseok: okie, you scared me for a bit 😂

Y/N: No you're the scary one
~not sent

I find my self on the elevator going down all the way to the first floor. The elevator seemed to be going more faster than before. My nerves get the best of me and I press button eighteen.

Y/N: Sorry I actually changed my mind, I don't wanna see you rn

Lee Hoseok: What? Why?

Y/N: I just can't

Lee Hoseok: Then I'll come up to your room, what's your room number

Y/N: I just said I don't want to see you idiot

Y/N: I'm pretty sure you already know my room number you hoe

Lee Hoseok: Y/N

Lee Hoseok: I can explain

Y/N: Yeah sure whatever hoe

Y/N: don't even bother to come up and see me idfc

Y/N: I'm so disgusted that I don't want see your face or I'll throw up

Lee Hoseok: I'm still coming up

Lee Hoseok: Y/N I'm sorry please let me explain when I arrive

Lee Hoseok: I'm on the fifth floor

Y/N: Yeah and I'm on the eighteenth

Y/N: I fcking hate everything

Lee Hoseok: Please Y/N I can't lose you
~read

I throw my phone on my bed and clutch my hair. How could he lie to me this whole time that he is Wonho. This whole time I was texting my ultimate bias Wonho.

How is he even my ultimate bias if I don't even know his real name.

"Y/N? That awkward shitty girl? Oh yeah she's so annoying it's really annoying that she's annoying. The only thing good about her is her looks, that's all."

He even has the nerve to say that!? I take a deep breath and stare at the ground until he knocks on the door. I look at the door, my feet feel like they were glued to the ground.

"Y/N, it's me Hoseok, please let me explain."

Finding myself moving to the door, I open it and immediately smack him across this face. A red handprint is plastered on his milky white skin.

"Yes please explain: 'Y/N? That awkward shitty girl? Oh yeah she's so annoying it's really annoying that she's annoying. The only thing good about her is her looks, that's all.' " I furiously said, holding back my stutters and tears.

Hoseok looks into my eyes, ignoring the fact I just smacked him. "I never said any of that Y/N, I promise. Katie and Jihoon made that up." Hoseok's voice was calm but I could tell he was trying not to stutter. "I would never say or even think that about you, you know that. They lied to you and so did I, I'm sorry."

I bite my lips and turn my head to the side. Wonho keeps talking.

"I'm sorry for hiding my identity against you. I really am. The reason why is that if you knew I was Wonho, then you would probably react and treat me differently like a crazy fan girl would. I wanted to connect to you personally and really understand you. I wanted you to  understand me too." He paused and moved my chin to where I was facing him.

"I'm not just an idol. I'm a human being, and all I want is to be like normal human beings, do whatever in public, meet new people, and meet you."

"And before you say anything I just wanted to let you know that I texted you on purpose that day." (Part 2) he removes my hand from my chin. Tears form on his face and then start to become heavier. Seeing this brought me to my limit.

"You hoe."

I close the door in his face and slide down against the door and pull my knees up to my chest. I start to let all my feelings out and cry.

"Stupid. I hate both of us so much. Why did this have to happen? You hoe, why did I fall for you?" I say to myself, more tears streaming down my face.

"I was a fool."

~

soft_bby: and now I'm currently eating ice cream I bought earlier and just staring into space

plushie_bby: aww Y/N, it's going to be ok...we're here for you

cuddle_bby: What a jerk, keeping this a secret from you all this time

soft_bby: Mhm

cuddle_bby: be honest here, do you still like him

cuddle_bby: bc if you do then there's a problem

cuddle_bby: Ditch the son of a bitch

plushie_bby: I think there's nothing wrong with her if she still has feelings for him

cuddle_bby: what why (￣^￣)

plushie_bby: bc he's my cousin

soft_bby: What!?

cuddle_bby: did I read that right

plushie_bby: our mom's are sisters

plushie_bby: we grew up together basically and I know he would never say anything mean about or to you

plushie_bby: and when he keeps something to himself, he knows why he's doing it. He never intends to hurt anyone

cuddle_bby: Wait that means he's my cousin too

cuddle_bby: and you never told me!?

plushie_bby: he's from mom's side that's why

cuddle_bby: makes sense, I never see mom anymore

cuddle_bby: But he just hurt Y/N Maera

plushie_bby: I know, and if his action cause problems, he apologizes from his heart

plushie_bby: Just please give him a chance Y/N, I promise you won't regret it

cuddle_bby: I mean she does have a point

plushie_bby: ☺️

soft_bby: I ....uh....

soft_bby: I'm still mad at him

soft_bby: But I still have feelings for him

plushie_bby: aighta girl

cuddle_bby: Just take your time, ok?

soft_bby: ok...

soft_bby: Thanks a lot you guys, I love you 💕

cuddle_bby: I love you too!!!😘

plushie_bby: awwww 🥰

soft_bby: my phone is about to die, I gtg charge it, ttyl :)

hoseokie

What do I do now? She hates me but I love her still.

~almost posted but didn't bc he didn't want to worry Monebebes