There's this trend in my town

It's literally just hay day

We're all playing hay day 😂

Anywho, I had a science presentation last week and we got our grade back for that today ^^

(We go by 1 - 6 over here with grades, 1 being the worst and 6 being the best)

I did prettying well! I got a 5- !!

And most of the smartest kids just got a 5 or 5+, so I'm not far behind them! I even beat a few of the smart ones! :D

The teacher told me that I was one of the best at talking without a script (don't know what you guys call it in English >_< It's just what you're reading up), and she could tell that I knew what I was talking about! And then she told me that I'm smart and really good at science! >w<

The only problem for me was that I took too many topics to talk about lmao, she would've rather have me talk about less topics but go more in depth in them ^^; And then there was my stuttering, I hope she understands I was just struggling because I was super nervous XD

Anywho, I'm really happy with my grade! I always sucked at science, but I've been doing really good since 9th grade XD

I'm getting my grades for this semester tomorrow, I'll let you guys know how bad the damage is lmao

I am so close to a mental breakdown, it started earlier today but I stopped it before it got too out of hand XD

So... I need to apply to a school in less than two months :')

So I should know already now what the hell I want to do with my life

And I'm panicking because I have no fucking clue

I really want to help people, and honestly, I want to be some kind of nurse, maybe one that works with children, but no one believes that I can do it

Family, friends, none of them think I can do it

Except for this one friend I sit next to, she kept encouraging me so that made me really happy TwT

I know it's hard, but it's something I really want to do... I can take it T_T It really kills my motivation and hope when everyone just kind of laughs at me...

I told my parents that I might have to go to that Health and Upbringing school, and my mom asked me if it was because Mal was going there and took me everything I had not to snap and start a huge argument

There is nothing that makes me more upset than when people just assume that I'm dependent on Mal and follow her around and can't do anything on my own

So yeah, this is kind of tearing me apart but I'll be fine :') Summer vacation is the only thing keeping me going lmao