Chapter 5
Obi-Wan lets out a sigh, rubbing his eyes. It's useless. Though it's quiet, he can't concentration. All he can think about is what happened in that training room and the power Luke had. After their fight, Obi-Wan retired to his room to meditate on what he should do. He needs guidance from the masters of the past, specifically Qui-Gon. They would know how to train Luke.
He looks down at his hands, slightly shaking his head. He can still feel the anger coursing through Luke. They're connected in the Force, especially at this moment. Today, Luke made him relive his greatest nightmare. His stomach dropped and an unnatural amount of fear entered his body as he looked into the young boy's eyes.
Was that Anakin or only his imagination?
Over the years, Obi-Wan has been able to spot Anakin in both of the twins. Typically, the similarities are nothing more than Anakin's mannerisms. Leia furrows her eyebrows like he would when he was concentrating. She also has a terrible habit of biting her nails when she's anxious. Luke inherited Anakin's tendency to daydream and unconsciously mess with his hair when he's talking.
But Luke is so much like Anakin that Obi-Wan has to stop himself from accidentally calling him his father's name almost daily.
Not only does he look like a carbon copy of the padawan Obi-Wan loved, but he feels emotions deeply just like him too. Most people brush Luke off, saying he's a sensitive kid and not to worry about it, but Obi-Wan knows much better. It's the Force working through him, just like his father.
Thankfully in Luke's case, Obi-Wan was able to work with him through these feelings from when he was a toddler. He knows the signs of when he's angry or sad and how to help Luke handle them. If only Anakin could have been found that early. But it would have made a difference? Would the outcome have changed if he knew how to control his emotions?
Accepting that he can't change the past, Obi-Wan decided to learn from his mistake. He wouldn't let his failure with Anakin happen to Luke or Leia. He's sworn to dedicate his entire life to making sure of it. These two precious children will not fall into a life of pain and suffering like their father if he has anything to do with it.
He doesn't care if he has to travel across the galaxy to make it happen. He will do whatever it takes to keep them safe, to keep Anakin's children safe.
Obi-Wan rises to his feet, his knees aching. He has to remind himself that he's not the man he once was. He tries to stay in shape, but it only prolongs the inevitable. He's starting to grow old and needs to accept it. He feels more pain in his joints than before. His hair has almost lost all of its color and is now a light gray. He doesn't even want to think about all of the wrinkles he now has on his forehead.
He exits his room, seeing all of the rebel members wandering the halls. Padmé's meeting must be over. He wants to go and see her and ask how it went. He wants to be there to make sure that she's okay. But first, he has to deal with Luke.
He goes to the boy's room and knocks on the door. There's no reply, but he knows Luke is in there. After the fight they've had, there's nowhere else he would be. His room is a safe zone where he feels okay to express his emotions.
Obi-Wan knocks again. He is not going to leave until he talks to Luke. He doesn't want to go too long without communicating with him. They need to talk this out before things get worse. He can't let Luke slip away from him. Thankfully, he doesn't have to knock a third time because Luke calls for him to enter.
When he opens the door, he's startled at first. It's common for the twins to be together, but he can sense their unease through the Force. They're up to something or were up to something. "Leia, I wasn't expecting to find you in here." He says.
"Oh. Yeah, I just came here to talk to Luke about our test this morning." She answers, her voice slightly shaking. Obi-Wan arches his eyebrow, walking into the room. Now that he's closer, he can see the puffiness around her brown eyes. He's alarmed by how pale her face is.
"Leia, are you okay?" He asks, his voice soft and slow. She feels his eyes studying her. One half of her wants to scream at him and demand to know why he kept this secret from her and Luke. But the other half of her wants to walk into his arms and cry into his shoulder. She's has mixed emotions about him right now, but she knows for a fact that he truly does care about her well-being.
But he can't know that she knows the truth about her father. "Yeah, I'm fine." She says with a forced smile.
"What happened?" He asks as he reaches out to her.
She takes a step back, her eyes darting around the room then landing on Luke. "I came in here to talk to Luke and he got scared and sprayed cologne into my eyes. My eyes just burn, that's all. I'm okay, really, Uncle Obi." She insists. But she honestly doesn't feel okay. The burning is happening in her heart, not her eyes. She feels angry and betrayed by Obi-Wan and by her mother.
He nods his head, going along with it. The room does have a strong scent of fresh cologne. Luke must have sprayed the whole bottle on her because Obi-Wan's own eyes are starting to water.
As he looks at her and thinks about why he came in here his stomach flips. Curse his fading memory. "Where were you this afternoon?" He asks. She didn't come with Luke to train. After their fight, Obi-Wan completely forgot that Leia was supposed to be there with them. If she wasn't there, then where was she?
"I was with Bail Organa. We were discussing my mission to Lothal next week." She answers, her shoulders tensing up. Obi-Wan knows that look. Anakin would do the same thing when he was lying to him.
Besides her obvious signs of lying, Obi-Wan knows that Bail Organa was with Padmé during that meeting. He wouldn't step out from a call with the Empire to tell Leia about Lothal. She's been there before and knows how to work supply missions.
He wants to know the truth, but that's the least of his worries right now. He gives her a soft smile, hoping that he doesn't show that he knows she's lying. "Alright. Well, if you don't mind, I would like to discuss something with Luke alone, please."
"Of course. No problem." Leia chuckles as she slips past him and out the door. Once she shuts it, Obi-Wan walks over to Luke. He feels guilty for how the day played out. He should be a better role model for him.
He sits down on Luke's bed. Slightly dropping his shoulders, Luke joins him. "I'm sorry for the way I handled our situation today. I let my emotions get the better of me." Obi-Wan begins, folding his hands in his lap.
"No, I'm sorry," Luke argues as he shakes his head. "I did a lot of wrong things today. I used my feelings of anger to fight even though you've warned me not to. I pushed you to talk about my father and what happened to him. Today's fight was all my fault."
Obi-Wan studies him, softly nodding his head with a smile. "We both made some mistakes today. And it's good that we both recognize it because that means we can take the right step to move forward together."
"So, you're not mad?" Luke asks, giving him a shy smile.
"No, I'm not mad. Well, I was, but I've gotten over it. It helps that you've shown great maturity by admitting your faults. It makes me hopeful that I'm actually teaching you something." He chuckles as he pats Luke's shoulder. He feels like a weight has been lifted from his shoulders. He thought that this would go so much worse. He had nothing to worry about.
"Well, I'm still mad. And I'm confused." Luke confesses, clasping his hands together. He doesn't want to lie to Obi-Wan. He has always been someone Luke could be completely honest with. He's been his father figure all of his life. He goes to him for guidance, comfort, and safety. Plus, Luke wants to know what happened between him and his mother this afternoon. All of it was so freaky.
"That's normal. Everyone gets angry and confused. We are humans, not protocol droids. Our emotions won't suddenly change just because we made up." Obi-Wan answers. He wants Luke to understand that emotions are not something you can just ignore. You have to know how to work with them.
Luke furrows his eyebrows and lets out a sigh. "I want to know about my father. I want to know about the secrets you and my mother are keeping from me." He says. He takes a deep breath, feeling a tightness in his chest. "And I want to know what happened today after our fight."
Obi-Wan tilts his head. "What are you talking about?"
Luke touches above his heart. "Today, I felt this intense sadness. I have an idea who was feeling this, but it really felt like I was the one who was getting my heart broken. Tears ran down my face and everything." He rambles, clutching his shirt. He looks into Obi-Wan's wise eyes. "What does that mean? What happened to me?"
Obi-Wan takes a deep breath, his hand going to his chin. He tugs at his beard, lost for words. "Your father was emotionally attached to the Force the same way you are. He mentioned once or twice how he could feel the pain in others, but he never said if he had a physical reaction to it."
"So there's something wrong with me?"
Obi-Wan shakes his head. "No. As Jedi, we were trained to push our feelings aside. That was always a struggle for your father."
"You didn't train me to push them aside. You told me that I needed to work with my emotions, not against them." Luke says, slightly cutting Obi-Wan off. It doesn't make any sense to push emotions away. They would only get stronger if you didn't acknowledge them.
"I didn't train you as a Jedi," Obi-Wan slowly says. "Your mother made that very clear to me. So, instead, I trained you the way I thought emotions should be handled."
Luke hums in thought. Though his mother constantly told them they were not to become Jedi, Luke always thought that he was. After all, he made a lightsaber and has been training to use it. Obi-Wan taught them how to use the Force and when and how it's okay to use it. Isn't that practically all you need to know in order to be a Jedi?
"I think tonight after supper we should meditate on this. You can meditate on how to resolve your anger. You need to find a proper way to cope with it. I'll meditate on this new discovery." Obi-Wan says as he rises from the bed. He smiles at Luke, glad that things are healing. He was afraid that the bond between them was starting to crack.
"Sounds good." Luke smiles.
"Good," Obi-Wan replies. He goes to leave but pauses at the door. "I would like you and Leia to join me for supper. It's been a while since we've caught up."
"Yeah. I'll make sure to tell her." Luke says. Once Obi-Wan leaves the room, Luke lets out a sigh. He thought for sure that Obi-Wan would come in here and scold him for how he behaved during their training. He also thought that he and Leia were caught. So far, they both seem to be in the clear.
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About five minutes to supper, Luke exits his room to go to Leia's. It's not too far from his. When they were younger, they used to share a room. When they would ask why, both Obi-Wan and their mother would tell them that sharing a room would help them to stay good friends when they were older.
Luke doesn't know if there's any scientific proof behind that, but he and Leia are very close, much closer than other siblings they've met on the base. And he knows that it isn't because they're twins. Just because you share a birthday with someone doesn't mean you magically get along.
He knocks on her door and she carefully opens it. She peeks her head out then pulls Luke inside. She has her hands intertwined, her knuckles turning white. Luke can feel the fear leaking off of her. It makes his own heart begin to race.
"Luke, there's something I need to tell you." She says, her brown eyes meeting his blue ones. She gnaws at her bottom lip, anxious for how he's going to react. She only hopes that it goes better for him than it did for her.
"What's wrong?" He asks, slightly shuffling his feet.
"It's about what I heard when I was listening to Mom." She says. She takes a deep breath. There's no easy way to say it. She should just let it out. "Mom was in a meeting with Darth Vader."
"What was Mom doing talking to Vader?" Luke asks, narrowing his eyebrows. "She's told us plenty of times how dangerous he is."
"Luke, that's not what scares me." Leia breaths, flinching. She almost gags on the words as they come out of her mouth. "She called him Anakin Skywalker."
Luke freezes as it feels like time stopped moving. Did he hear her correctly? Their mother called Darth Vader by their father's name? "No. You must have misheard her."
"I didn't mishear her," Leia argues. She knows that this is a shock, but why would she ever lie about something like that? Their father and Death Vader are two topics that should never be joked about. "I heard her call him Anakin as clear as day."
He shakes his head, laughing. "No. That's not true. That's impossible."
"You know it's true, Luke. You can feel it deep in your gut, just as I do." She insists, stepping toward him. She clenches his arm, startling him. "Darth Vader is our father." She slowly says, emphasizing every word.
"You're crazy." He says, pushing her away. "Like, I actually think you've lost it."
"I'm not crazy! I know what I heard!"
"Do you even hear yourself?" Luke scoffs, towering over her now. "Why would he be our father? Obi-Wan and Mom both told us that he died. Darth Vader can't possibly be our father."
"You're in denial. You just don't want to believe me!" She exclaims. She expected a lot of reactions from Luke. Anger. Sadness. Shock. But she didn't expect him to be in denial. Why doesn't he believe her?
He rolls his eyes. "I'm not in denial, Leia. I'm being realistic." He says. He shakes his head, running his hands through his hair. "Look, I just came here to tell you to join me and Obi-Wan to supper."
She hugs her arms across her stomach. She doesn't want to be anywhere near Luke or Obi-Wan. "I'm not hungry."
"He's going to know something is up if you don't come," Luke says as he walks to the door. Though the idea of eating anything makes her nauseous, she follows him out of her room. What other choice does she have? She has to keep the facade up that everything is okay.
The two of them enter the mess hall, quickly spotting Obi-Wan. He gives them a welcoming smile, which eases Luke, but upsets Leia. How can he sit there and be so happy when he's been hiding the galaxy's biggest secret from them?
They sit across from him. Luke throws his tray onto the table, making his jello wiggle hysterically. Leia has to pry her fingers from her tray before setting it down. She's so angry at him. What else has he lied about? It could be anything at this point. Maybe their mother isn't even their mother.
Obi-Wan braces himself, feeling the anger in Leia. Something or someone has upset her greatly. Though it's common for her to be mad, this is something else. He feels betrayal and rage growing in the young woman before him. He wants to know what has caused this. "Anything interesting happen today?" He asks, grabbing his fork.
The twins share a quick glance and Obi-Wan catches it. He knows that there's something up and this has only confirmed it. Leia lied about where she was and was clearly distraught when he found them in Luke's room. The two of them are quieter now than they have ever been. Even as babies, they were constantly making noise.
Luke notices that Obi-Wan is now suspicious. Around most people, they can pull off almost anything. Not around him. It's almost like he can read their minds. He knows when there's something off. When Luke was younger, he used to think it was the Force giving them away. Now, he gives most of the credit to Obi-Wan's insane ability to read people. The Force only gets some acknowledgment in it.
Luke gulps. "Nothing too interesting today. We had lunch with Mom."
"That must have been nice." Obi-Wan smiles. It doesn't seem like a lie, but he feels it in the Force. They know something. If he can pry at them for just a few more minutes, he might be able to uncover their dirty secret. "Leia, what was something interesting you did today?"
She swallows her impulse to snap at him. She has to maintain some manners with him otherwise she might as well throw all of her cards on the table now. "Oh, nothing much. Just a typical day on the base for me."
He nods, but then he feels it. His stomach drops as he practically hears their thoughts out loud. Both of the twins know. Leia believes it more than Luke, but it's clear that he is questioning it as well.
How did this happen? Who told them?
Leia's eyes widen as she senses Obi-Wan's realization. It's like a prick on the side of her head. She doesn't know how, but she knows that they've been discovered. Somehow, he has uncovered what they've been up to today though she has hardly spoken.
She grabs her tray. "I'm not hungry." She declares as she rises from her chair. Her eyes meet Obi-Wan's and she sees her anger mirrored in them. He furrows his eyebrows and she holds her breath. She needs to get away before he asks her any more questions.
She bolts away to drop off her tray, leaving Luke alone with him. "Leia, wait!" He calls out. He grabs his tray and follows her. Why is she running off? What has happened?
They thought they were subtle by leaving, but it has only confirmed Obi-Wan's suspicious. They have uncovered the one lie he's spent the past decade trying to bury.
Leia and Luke rush to his room. She's shaking with both rage and fear. She's mad that they've been lied to, but she's also afraid of what Obi-Wan will do now that he knows. Is he going to punish them? Kill them? It seems impossible, but they now know that they are the offspring of a mass murderer. Wouldn't they be better off dead?
"Way to keep low, Leia." Luke spits as he closes his door. "Obi-Wan won't suspect a thing now." He sarcastically adds.
"He already knows. I don't how, but he does." She rambles. Before she can say anymore, Obi-Wan bursts into the room. They snap their heads to look at the raging storm that has entered. He slams the door behind him and towers over the two of them.
"Do you two have any idea what you've done?" He asks, his nose scrunched. His tightly clenched hands are shaking at his side. His face is a shade of pink that grows darker as each second passes. His hair has somehow become a mess, only adding to his crazed look. He is surprised that he hasn't completely blown his fuse yet. He is so upset with them.
Luke has never seen Obi-Wan so angry. Not when he had stolen Obi-Wan's lightsaber as a young child. Not earlier today when Obi-Wan scolded him for using his anger. Not even when Luke had accidentally used their real names on Tatooine about a year ago. That day, he thought that Obi-Wan was going to burst into flames. He yelled at Luke the whole way home about how dangerous it was for both of them for him to use their real names when in public.
That used to be the scariest day of his life.
That has been replaced with this very moment. The Obi-Wan standing in front of him is nothing like the gentle man he loves with his whole heart. This man is like a ticking time bomb. One wrong word and he'll blow.
Leia tightens her fists, trying to keep herself from losing her mind. She needs to stay calm. Maybe they can play the innocent card. "How did you find out?" She replies, her voice trembling.
"Your thoughts at the table betrayed you." He growls his deadly, wild gaze now on her. She pulls her arms to her chest. He reminds her of a mad animal. He might as well show his razor-sharp teeth. It would have the same effect on them.
"So it's true then?" Luke slowly asks. He is no longer afraid of Obi-Wan punishing them. Instead, his mind dwells on the fact that Obi-Wan never denied the elephant in the room. In fact, his silence answered his question better than an actual spoken response. "Darth Vader is our father."
Obi-Wan flinches, almost like someone slapped him. It's been over a decade since he last saw their father. Still, the thought of him and what has become of him feels like someone has taken a knife and is slowly twisting it through his already cracked heart. "Darth Vader is not your father, Luke. Anakin Skywalker is." He replies, his voice softer than before.
Leia lets out a dry laugh, gaining her confidence back. If he thinks he has the right to be mad at them, then she has the right to be mad at him. She is the one who has been lied to her entire life. He's the one who shielded them from this gutwrenching fact. The fire grows inside her as she looks at the man who has been lying to them for fifteen years. "What's the difference? They're the same person, aren't they?"
"Don't you dare say that." Obi-Wan suddenly fires at, his finger trembling. "They are not the same person. Darth Vader is not the man I trained. Darth Vader is not the man I thought of like my brother. Darth Vader is not your father. Anakin Skywalker is and he is dead. He died fifteen years ago. Darth Vader is the soulless being who replaced him."
"I can't believe this." Luke scoffs, shaking his head. He feels like he's living in one of the nightmares he had a child. All of it seems so insane. Darth Vader is their father and no one ever told them. They had to find it out by sneaking around. "This entire time, you knew." He quietly says.
Obi-Wan ignores him. He doesn't want to go there. He doesn't feel good about lying to them, but it was for their safety. They couldn't know. And now, all of the precautions they took to ensure that they would be safe has been destroyed. They no longer have their innocence to protect them from the monster behind the mask. "Who told you? How did you two find out?"
"It doesn't matter," Leia says, brushing past Luke who looks like he's trapped on another planet. She needs to talk for both of them now. She stands to face Obi-Wan alone, furrowing her eyebrows. She can take him. In fact, she feels like she can take on a whole army right now. "We deserved to know."
"You did deserve to know." Obi-Wan nods, his eyes locked with her. Leia almost cracks a smile, happy to be winning the fight against him. She didn't think he would give in to her so easily. But as she looks into his eyes, she sees fear. She sees internal suffering. How long has he been hiding this from them? "You weren't ready to be told though. You aren't ready for what is to come."
"We're fifteen. We can handle whatever is to come." Leia replies, her confidence wavering. They aren't children that need to cower behind him and their mother anymore. They are ready for the challenges that are ahead for them. They can fight for themselves now.
But his eyes. He suddenly looks aged, weighed down by the agonizing years of the Clone Wars, this rebellion, and everything between. He looks so afraid. He looks like he's in so much pain. Why did he hold this information from them in the first place?
Obi-Wan dryly laughs, startling her. "You two don't have any understanding of what can of worms you've just opened for yourselves. This wasn't supposed to happen, not yet. You aren't ready for the battle you've just started."
"Yes, we are." Leia fires back, narrowing her eyes at him. "You just don't believe in us. You still think that we're the children you've had to protect for the past fifteen years."
"You still are the children that I have to protect!" Obi-Wan shouts. He holds back his cries, trying not to scare them more than he has. All of the safety that he and Padmé worked for to keep them out of the eyes of the Empire has now been swiped away. He doesn't know how to process the idea that after all of these years their last shreds of hope could now be taken by the Empire.
Tears are present in his blue eyes, sending shivers down the twins' backs. They have never seen him cry. They rarely see him in any emotion besides peace and content. Now, his anger has faded away and has been replaced with unimaginable pain and fear. "I am going to protect you for as long as I can, but what you've just done can't be undone. I'm not the same man I was all those years ago. I don't know if I can save you from him again!" Obi-Wan confesses.
Moved by his emotions, Luke pushes Leia away. "Obi-Wan, what are you talking about?" He can sense the pure terror in the man. If he wasn't so numb by the fact that Darth Vader is his father, he would probably be crying with him. What has Obi-Wan this afraid?
"Darth Vader will come for you." Obi-Wan slowly answers, the tears now running down his face. He makes no attempt to hide them anymore. "He will know that you two are alive. He will sense you just the same way that I did. He is going to come and try to turn you to the Darkside. If you don't agree, he will kill you. And I can't stop him. I can't be there to save you."
"We can take him. We can all do it together, Obi-Wan." Luke insists. He reaches out, grabbing his hand. When their hands met, Luke shivers. He softly gasps, able to feel some of the pain and fear Obi-Wan is feeling. How has he been carrying this with such poise for the past fifteen years? How has he kept all of these emotions to himself?
Never has Luke felt this afraid for his life. And he knows that this isn't even all of the burden that Obi-Wan is carrying.
Luke tightens his grip on Obi-Wan's hand, wanting nothing more than to relieve him from his pain.
"Luke, it's not that simple. I fought him once, many years ago. Back then, we were evenly matched. It is not the same anymore. He has been consumed by the Darkside and his powers have grown greatly. And I have grown old, my body hurting much more than it has in years." Obi-Wan softly says. The room is silent aside for the footsteps just out in the hallway."You two don't know what you've done. You don't know what battle you've accepted."
He pulls his hand away from Luke and quickly wipes the tears away from his face. Without another word, the man leaves the room, taking his pain and years of suffering with him.
But he left part of his fear inside the room with them. It feels cold, goosebumps present on their arms.
What have they done?
The twins share a look, clearly shaken. Looks like they got their wish. They finally know the truth, a truth they were so desperate to know.
Was it worth it though?
What is to come now that they know about their father and the twisted monster that he is?
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So I was originally planning on ending the book here. But, after planning out the next few chapters, I have decided to continue this! It is going to be three parts, each having five chapters. I am planning on updating every Friday still, so be on the lookout! Thanks for all of the amazing support so far!
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