M I L L E R

Natigilan si Axel, malamang dahil ito sa narinig niya mula sa akin. Sinubukan ko na makita ang mukha. Pero sa palagay ko ay nahihiya siya. Sa akin man o sa buong sitwasyon ay hindi ako sigurado. Sa sobrang hiya niya ay umiwas ulit siya ng tingin at humingi ng tawad gamit ang mahinang boses.

"I-I'm sorry."

When I heard his shy voice, my body automatically responded. Napa-kapit ako ng mahigpit sa kamay ni Axel. Hindi ito ang sagot na inaasahan ko. Sa dami ng iniisip ko sa sandaling ito, mula sa biglaan na pag-amin ni Axel, hanggang sa pagpigil ko sa kanya, ay hindi na rin gumagana ng maayos ang isipan ko. I just want all the thoughts and feelings to be freed. Gusto ko na rin na umamin.

"I should've shut my mouth." Tumingala ako nang marinig ang boses ni Axel. It was a very quiet voice. He was whispering already. Nakalimutan niya ata na isa na akong bampira. I can hear even the tiniest sound in the room. Pero huli na ang lahat para sa kanya, nasabi na niya ang nararamdaman niya. I just wish I can also do the same now.

"What are you talking about?" tanong ko.

I am still confused by Axel's unexpected response.

I can no longer hold it in. If confessing in silent haste was the answer, I would want to do that. Pero nagawa na ito ni Axel and it only made things more awkward.

So, I decided to take it a little slower than he did.

"Hindi mo ba naiintindihan, Axel?" Lumingon si Axel sa akin. I wasn't expecting that my voice would come out too serious than I intended them to be.

But I guess I am more serious to Axel than I thought I would be.

Lumingon si Axel, at sa sandaling nagtagpo ang mga mata namin ay tila ba may tumawid na kuryente sa aming kamay. Ngunit, imbes na bumitaw ay mas hinigpitan ko pa ang paghawak kay Axel at hinatak ito palapit sa akin.

"Mill– hmph!" I grabbed his slender yet firm waist towards me and kissed him.

If he can't get what driving me crazy means, I hope he can understand what a kiss could imply.

After a long time, I finally felt his lips. Soft and warm.

I can feel his body stiffen. Siguro nagulat siya sa ginawa ko. Well, hindi na rin ito nakapagtataka. It is him who always kisses me first.

I gently moved my lips and gasped, pulling his lips closer to mine. Narinig ko rin siya na suminghap, but that was a brief one as I started to move my tongue. It slither to slip between Axel's lips.

"Hmngh!" Axel is trying to push me. But I just pulled his waist closer to me, and grabbed his neck to deepen our kiss.

The only sound that echoes in the dark room is the smacking of our wet lips and the occasional gasping of desire. The room, despite the air conditioner, feels hot and warm... and a little dewy. As if our warm breaths changed from vapor to liquid, enveloping our bodies.

Ilang sandali lang ang nahinto na sa pagpupumiglas si Axel. Now, I can feel his tongue is starting to mingle with mine. It's soft and wet. This is not our first-time kissing, but it feels so fresh. Especially if both of us share the same yearning.

I honestly don't know how to do it with a man. Siya ang kauna-unahan na lalaki na nagustuhan ko... and the first person I felt this extreme fire to own.

This is crazy!

He is driving me crazy.

"MMM-Miller," he moaned in between our kisses.

Bumitaw na ako, but we are still an inch close to each other.

"Miller, y-you don't hav— hmn." I kissed him again. It was just for a short while. It is definitely shallower than the first one.

I paused, then told him, "I'm sorry... I kissed you at the speed of light."

Lumayo siya ng konti. Nakayuko pa rin siya at tinatago ang sariling mukha. I wanted to see his expression so I touched chin and lift his face up.

I was already expecting a gentle face, but to witness his god-like beauty is a huge backfire for me. Axel has an extremely flushed face, his cheeks are red. His lips are swollen from our kiss, and his eyes are sparkling like the beautiful marbles I collected as a kid. Napansin ko rin ang mala-rosas na kulay sa likod gilid ng leeg niya.

I unconsciously caressed it, and he jumped as he quickly covered his rosy neck.

Axel's entire figure is of pure whit porcelain with a light shade of crimson. Seductive yet innocent.

"This is so not like you," komento ko.

Sa isip ko lang sana iyon pero huli na dahil naibuka ko na ang bibig ko.

Axel's black pearl iris moved in my direction. "So, what is like me?"

"H-Hindi ako sigurado pero ... you're usually assertive," ani ko sabay abot ng kamay niya at hinalikan ang likod nito.

His hand smells like his shampoo. Rosy and fresh. Like the smell of the rose field in the morning sun. Madilim ang paligid but with his fragrance, the place started to illuminate brightly.

Humarap na ng tuluyan sa akin si Axel. His shy and reluctant gaze changed. His eyes brightened and looked more certain. But despite the confident stare, his body still hesitates.

He reached for me. Kumapit siya sa balikat ko habang unti-unti na lumalapit sa akin.

I don't know what face I am having at this moment, pero bigla na lang niyang inalis ang kamay niya sa balikat ko. His brows curved upward. He seems to be worried by something.

"Uh... Uhm," umiwas ulit siya ng tingin at niyakap ang kamay niya, "You... You must feel uncomfortable with this."

Saglit ko siyang tinitigan, at mabilis ko ri na napagtanto ang ibig niyang ipahiwatig.

Axel knew that I like women, this must be the reason why he did not assume that I am interested in him. He surely also knows that it is my first time with a man, and it will make me feel uncomfortable. And I might not even be ready to go all the way.

Gusto kong tumawa o ngumisi man lang. But that will make Axel more uneasy.

He has no idea what is going on in my mind.

Inabot ko ang pisngi niya at inalis mula sa kanyang dibdib ang isa niyang kamay.

"Stop hesitating. I also desire you," I uttered.

Lumaki ang mga mata ni Axel. Hindi ba siya naniniwala sa akin? Na-sorpresa ba siya sa sinabi ko?

Because I have known for a long time that I can no longer see him the normal way anymore. Noong gabi pa lang na muntik ko na siyang galawin. It was so hypnotizing. I cannot wait to make it happen now.

"Kaso, wala akong experience," banggit ko, "Could you please me how?" I requested.

Hinawakan ni Axel ang kamay ko na nasa pisngi niya.

With his teary eyes, he looked at me as if I were his most precious gem, and said, "I-I will," and I heard his sniffle.

He was finally crying. After holding it in, Axel finally let go of his emotion. Such a rare sight of Axel showing his vulnerability. At ako lang ang nakakaalam nito.

We surely took our time. I am raging in desire pero ayaw kong masaktan si Axel just because I am a total rookie in s*ex between two guys. I might have witnessed Bernard and the other guy doing it burning with thirst and pleasure. Yet I am still aware that during s*x, it takes two to tango. Hindi pwede na ako lang ang nag-eenjoy, I wanted to let Axel know that I am sincere through our bodies.

"Uhm, I have to prepare." May kinuha siyang bote sa loob pinaka-ibabang bahagi ng drawer ng bedside table.

He is fast, sigurado siya sa ginagawa niya. Pinapanood ko lang siya na kunin at ito pero nabigla ako sa sunod niyang ginawa.

Well, hindi naman ito 'yung uri ng pagkabigla na masama. I-I was just flustered as Axel suddenly took his pajama off revealing his firm and slender legs. Sunod niyang inalis ang boxers niya. It's color black, kaya mas napapaputi nito ang mala nyebe na niyang kutis.

"D-Don't stare too much," he warned as he shyly smiled.

Axel started to spread his legs, revealing his member. He poured the liquid on his hand from the bottle he just took. Transparent ito at halatang madulas.

The next thing he did is no longer new to me. Alam ko na gagawin niya ito. He have to, but still, I am a little surprised to see it first hand. Lalo na at habang ginagawa niya ito ay nakatitig siya sa akin.

"Uh, I'm starting to get conscious," aniya tapos ay tumigil ng bahagya ang kanyang daliri.

Nagsimula nang sumikip ang underwear ko. That's when I know that Axel's seduction has started to affect me.

"Gusto mong tulungan na kita?" I offered.

Umusog ako palapit sa kanya, which he immediately responded by sliding a few inches away from me.

"Hey."

"No! I-I can manage," he denied.

But I still insisted. "Alam ko, but I want to help you. I told you to teach me, right?"

Without any delay ay lumapit ako sa kanya. I grabbed his hand so that I could pull him and embrace him in my arms.

Inalis ko ang kamay niya sa ibaba. I hold his hand to transfer whatever is the liquid he is using. At kagaya ng inaasahan ko, the lube was slippery and cold.

"Do I i-insert this here?" I asked him gently as I crawled my hand on his supple bottom.

Tumango lang siya habang nakatitig sa akin.

Ginaya ko lang ang ginagawa niya kanina. I pressed my finger and as soon as it slipped in, Axel whimpered and jolted in surprised.

"Haa..." he breathed out. "It's weird to have the finger of someone else in me."

Well, I couldn't agree more with him.

Nagsimula siyang manginig at kumapit sa kamay ko. He was such an expert earlier. Mabilis at halatang alam niya ang ginagawa niya kanina. He was even trying to seduce me with that shy gaze of him. I did not expect him to act docile as soon as I entered his hole.

"P-Pwede ko na bang dagdagan?" tanong ko. Hindi na ako naghintay pa ng sagot niya at agad nang dinagdagan ang daliri ko.

"Mmn..."

"Masakit ba?"

Umiling-iling siya. "No. It's been decades since I did this so..."

"So?"

"It's kind of tight."

Bigla akong naramdam ng init sa mukha ko nang marinig ko ang mga katagang ito kay Axel. Napa-angat naman siya mula sa pagkakasandal sa akin. Pero agad din naman siyang sumandal ulit.

"Y-You're hard... I'm glad." He sure sounds delighted. Relief was written all over his face. I guess he was still scared that I couldn't do it with a man.

Ang hindi ko inaasahan ay ang biglang paggapang ng kamay niya sa pagitan ng mga binti ko.

"Axel."

"You're prepping me. I want to prepare yours too."

Oh. Sh*t! Oh, sh*t! How can this guy utter such a thing! I mean, I am not a virgin but I guess doing it with someone you have a feeling for is entirely different from the hook ups I had and the extra service I gave.

I let him do what he wanted to do. As soon as he pulled out my member, I felt the cold air of the room.

"I-It's stiff..." komento niya. Kitang-kita sa mga mata niya ang mangha.

I know that my weapon has exceptional size and thickness, and I was always proud to show it to the girls. Yet, shy in front of Axel.

"Don't stare at it," I demanded as I moved my fingers faster and deeper.

"Ahn! Hey, it's my payback. You were staring at me earlier," he replied then started to caress my thing with his lips.

Ramdam ko ang mainit niyang paghinga at ang malambot niyang labi.

Tumingala siya bigla gamit lang ang kanyang mata, and the sight is to die for. With my member close to his lips and him between my legs, all rosy and gorgeous, my d*ck can't help to get stimulated more.

"Thanks for the meal... Ohmp..." and just that, he swallowed the hilt and slowly went deeper to his throat.

I am always aware of Axel's hidden promiscuity, and to experience it now is such heaven's blessings.

He started to move his head, letting my member go inside-out from his mouth. I can feel the walls of his throat as he thrust it inside. Syempre, hindi pwede na ako lang ang nag-eenjoy. As he began to pleasure me, I also started to move my finger.

I admit that I am a little confused.

I felt a hard area inside him, out of curiosity I tried to push it in.

"Hmngh!" he stammered while my member is still inside his mouth.

Napansin ko rin ang biglaang pag-angat ng balakang niya.

Ooh. Seems like I discovered a sweet spot.

Inulit ko lang ginawa ko. I moved my fingers deep and slow, para lang masigurado na maabot ko ang matigas na parte na iyon. Each time I thrust my fingers Axel's hips trembled. His moans were getting sweeter and his throat was tightening.

"Do you like this? Masarap ba dito?"

My member began to feel ticklish when his throat vibrated as he moaned. Mukhang malapit na ako, and Axel's thrust was getting weaker. Imbes na labas-pasok, sumisikip na lang ang lalamunan niya kasabay ng tempo ng tulak ko ng kamay ko.

"A-Axel..." I uttered. Ramdam ko nang malapit na akong labasan.

Ayaw ko pang matapos ito. This might be my only chance to make love to him.

Hindi ko alam, siguro ay gawa na rin ng mainit na sitwasyon ay mas nanggigil ako sa butas ni Axel. Hindi ko namalayan na masyado ko na pa lang pinanggigilana ng sweet spot niya.

And before I could even cum, Axel let go of my member and exclaimed, "Aahn! Mi...ller!"

He was shaking his hips as he tightly gripped my arms. "Hnngh..." He whimpered.

Hindi pa rin siya tapos, his hips were still shaking and he moaned while biting his lips. He is suppressing his voice.

"A-Ayos ka lang ba, Axel?" taranta kong tanong nang may napagtanto ako.

He is shaking his hips while moaning. At kani-kanina lang ay walang tigil kong pinupuntirya ang sensitive spot niya.

Oh! Man! I can't believe na masasaksihan ko ito ng napaka-aga.

"Axel, don't tell me you just had a dry orgas—hmm!"

Hindi ko na natapos ang sasabihin ko nang biglang hinigit ni Axel ang damit ko at hinalikan ako.

Pinulupot niya ang braso niya sa leeg ko. He kissed me torridly and I kissed him back as hard and deep. While we were at it, I could feel his hips moving on its own. He was rubbing my little soldier on his butt's cheeks.

The area around his but was slippery due to the lube, and it produced a slicky sound as he rubbed it on my member.

How erotic. This is turning me on so much.

I am dying to relieve my hard on when Axel let go of the kiss and he begged, "Pwah... That was great, give me more."

Witnessing his drowsy eyes that seem to have the shape of hearts, I smirked and playfully responded to him with the following words.

"Masusunod, master."