October - After

Tell me what possibly,
is so good about them,
that you had to leave me here,
fending for myself.

I thought we were friends,
and we'd keep each other safe.
Though I guess that in the end,
people tend to leave.
You just happened to be brave,
and be the first to go.

But if leaving you is bravery,
then I'd rather be a coward.
You made the choice to leave,
but I'll keep my promise and stay.
I just wished you'd kept it too.

If you had, I wouldn't be here,
tears falling down my face.
Regretting ever meeting you,
in the first place.
Erasing every memory,
that reminds me of your face.

Heartbroken, I'd been before.
And humiliated, I've been worse.
But the thought of losing you,
is a fear I refuse to bare.
At least it used be,
before I realized now that it's too late.

Now you're just a memory,
living inside my head.
Your smile follows me everywhere,
the warmth of your hug I wish to have.
But the only thing I own,
is the thought of you leaning down,
speaking to me with a smile.

And I wish we could repeat that,
but the clock struck twelve.
The magic has died,
in its place lies our hope.
Broken to pieces like it's glass,
a pumpkin smashed all over grass.
The princess and prince charming,
that's what we ought to be.

But fairy godmothers don't exist,
and the magic was never there.
It was all just a lie,
created by my mind.

But the cruelest one of all is,
love is just a fantasy,
it hides inside our dreams.
It haunts us during day time,
controlling thoughts that roam our mind.
But when the sun goes down,
its the safest of them all.
It becomes the perfect prison,
easy for anyone to fall.