All i hear now is silence. I start to think that he asks a question that shocks me.

"Did you love me? Did you care about me like you care about her? I didn't even know you were gay-"

"I'm not." she says quickly.

"If you haven't notice you're with a girl and you love her," there was a pause.

"Don't you?" he asks. After a short pause she answers.

"Of course i do i just- i don't want her to feel like she has to stay here. Today i gave her a promise ring and, at first, i think she thought it was a wedding ring and she looked," another medium pause.

"Scared." she finished.

"That's the thing ally, she's a kid and she has no idea what love is. What 16 year old wouldn't be scared? What girl would want to get married at such a young age?"

"I get it derek, she's young but we haven't had sex so i couldn't get arrested."

"How long do you think that's gonna last? You and her would both have to wait two more years before anything could actually happen. Do you really think you can wait that long? Do you really think she can?"

"So, what are you saying? That i can't control myself?"

"All i'm saying is that it won't be much longer until you need-"

"I don't need to have sex i'm not a sex addict!" she cuts him off.

"I didn't mean it like that."

"Whatever." she grumbled. Another really long pause.

"You could do better." he says. There's another pause for about 6 seconds.

"Wouldn't it be nice to go on dates? Like to the movies or out to eat? Don't you want that? Don't you want to be able to make out without having to stop because you're afraid you'll take it too far? Or be able to have sex without being afraid and paranoid someone will find out?" as he speaks my mind races, tears sting my eyes then run down my face. He's brainwashing her and he's doing a hell of a good job. What if she leaves me because the paranoia gets to her. What if i lose her because of this dumb ass.

"Wouldn't it be nice to feel someone right now?" He whispers. I hear shuffling and the springs of the bed squeak quickly followed by,

"I'm not doing this. You should really leave."

"Come on. She doesn't have to know. You said she was gone, right?"

"Get. out." she says slowly.

"You wanna fuck any other time. Like last week at like three in the morning." more tears fall at his words"

"I was drunk and you knew that-"

"And that's the only reason i said no!" i hear the bed squeak again so i'm guessing they are both standing.

"I would never want to take advantage of you like that. You're my ally bear, remember?" he says so soft and sweet. It makes me want to barf. I think she forgot that i'm actually in the closet just a few feet away from her until i hear,

"Why do you keep glancing at the closet?" he askes.

"I don't know," she says quickly.

"But i'm really tired can i just talk to you tomorrow?" she asks.

"Sure but keep in mind what I said. Everything i've said." he says then i hear footsteps and the door shutting downstairs. I wipe the tears off of my face then she opens the door. I look down and move my way to the bed.

"I was really drunk you know i lie when I'm drunk like that. And you were gone-" she pauses because i start laughing. Have you ever really thought about a situation and just laugh at how fucked up it is. I put my head in my hants then look back up just looking at the space behind her.

"God, this is so fucked up." i laugh harder as the sadness continues to push the tears out of my eyes. Shes comes over and sits next to me on the bed.

"I know there's no real excuse for what i did and i'm not going to lie to you or try to make up one but i was feeling sad and i wouldn't have had sex with him. I've done that before that's why he never comes anymore. You know i would never and absolutely can't in any way shape or form ever lie to you, right?" she asks. She has a point but i'm afraid i'll cry if i look at her so i continue playing with the ring on my finger. Maybe i am just a kid. I mean i cry a lot and i get jealous. She doesn't deserve this. She deserves better.

"Look at me Cam." i ignore her and continue to frantically play with the ring on my finger. She lifts my chin up with her finger making me look at her and when our eyes meet, instead of crying i laugh again. Maybe i am insane. I look back down at the ring. My laughing falters and the tears continue.

"He was right you know." i state sniffing and silently begging the tears to stop.

"I'm just a kid. I'm a dumbass kid who fell in love with my teacher and who can't be mature enough and who gets scared all the time because i don't want to lose you and derek knows that obviously and he's asking you why you're being so fucking stupid being with a fucking kid. What the hell are we doing allison!? " i yell at her bawling my eyes out. She pulls me into her and holds me until my crying eases. I take a few sniffs but i don't want her to let go of me. So i wrap my arms around her and she buries her face into the crook of my neck. I soon start to feel my shirt dampening. Shes crying too.

"I never viewed you as a kid Camille. Maybe that's where i messed up. I never see you as stupid or immature because you're the love of my life." she cries harder into my shoulder.

"If you want to have sex you can. If you want to be with someone else you can. If you want to leave me you can i just don't want you to feel like i'm holding you here and you do want to be." she mumbles, her voice breaking.

"I wouldn't trade you for the world allison. I don't want anyone else. I never want to leave you i love you too much to lose you."

"I love you too."

"I just wish i didn't have to make things so hard on you." i say while playing in her hair.

"I just wish things weren't so complicated." she mumbles into my neck.

"Do you want to lay down with me?" i asked quietly. She nodded against my neck in response and we lay on her bed. It was quiet for a while and I played with her hair.

"Do you ever think about leaving?" i asked breaking the silence.

"Sometimes."

"This doesn't have to be so hard. We can go somewhere else and you could get a new teaching job and i could go back to school or get a job somewhere-"

"It's not that easy babe. I wish it was but it's not."

"Why not?"

"It's just not." i guess she had a point but i don't understand why we can't just leave.

Heya It's her friend faiththekiller13 feel free to follow me but don't read my stories they are bad. Anywho I'm putting her story in here for her cause I'm her best-est friend ever and I'm gonna be correcting some things too but please don't hate on errors and things. 

Peace Out -Faith