Okay so you know how on Thursday I got asked out by a girl and don't know what sexuality I am yet and yada yada yada blah blah blah well, I have another story for that day.

So I came home after school and face planted into the couch and groaned and my sister asked what was wrong and I said a girl asked me out and she's just like 'okay' and left the room for her volleyball game and I groaned again cuz I have no idea what the fuck love is

And then on the way to her volleyball game I told my dad and he was low key being homophobic.  Like I've had two boyfriends and one was an asshole and from a family he hated but was cool with it and NOW I bring up that a GIRL asked me out and he gets all defensive.

He was freaking out but was trying to hide it and was like 'do you even know what gay is?' And I said yeah and he was so weird by the fact that a girl, a female, a person who has the same parts as me asked me out. He then asked me if I was gay and I said 'I'm pan' and he was even more confused and I explained it to him but ended with 'but I don't know I'm still figuring it out' and he was even more confused.

He was like 'shouldn't you already know?' And I wanted to slap him because for some people they HAVE to figure it out while others already know and I hate/love my family.

Hate it because of my homophobic family members which are like half of them
Love it because of my non caring family who just don't care as long as I'm happy

But NOW I think my answer changed for her because, well you guys know the 11:11 thing right? Make a wish at 11:11 at night. Well she posted something really cute about me saying yes and now I'm so upset now because I had an entire script of what I was going to say so it wouldn't hurt her feelings and now I think I have to change it based on that and UGH

Fml guys, fml

The script basically was this;

So I've thought about your confession on Thursday and uhm it's not a yes, but it's also to a no. I don't really know what sexuality I am yet so I don't really think being in a relationship while I'm figuring this out would be best for me.  So it's not a no, definitely not a no, but it's also not a yes. If that makes any sense.