It's been a week since Jake forced me to break up with Ali.

I'm currently with him sa cafeteria ng campus, kasama ko rin si Keily who's looking like she had seen a ghost nung mineet kami ni Jake.

I told her not to talk to Ali about it, hindi ko ginustong madamay siya pero I thought I need someone na makakaalam ng lahat pag dumating yung araw that I need to come clean.

"Hi Hannah, uhm hello Keily.." bati ni Jake.

I just smiled weakly bago tiningnan si Keily.

She looked at me almost uncertain if she wants to slap me or to just walk out.

"Anong kagagahan to?" she whispered habang kinukurot yung tagiliran ko.

I removed her hand and shushed her.

"So? pinapakilala mo na ba ako sa friends mo?" Jake asked.

Ugh his pride is so thick.

"Uhm yes" I faked my smile.

"What?!" gulat na tanong ni Keily bago ibinaba sa lamesa yung kinakain niyang turon at tumingin sakin with wide eyes.

Tinapakan ko yung paa niya under the table.

"Aray!"

Napaatras siya before looking at me showing that she's angry.

"I'll explain later.." I whispered.

Pinagpag niya yung kamay niya bago iniabot kay Jake.

"Ah e hello I'm Keily" she fake smiled widely.

She's such a brat, a brat actress.

"Hi, I'm Jake, boyfriend ni Hannah" inabot ni Jake yung kamay ni Keily.

Halos mabilaukan si Keily sa kinakain niya kaya uminom siya agad ng tubig.

She coughed lightly.

"Ah haha ahh e, okay hi?"

I mentally facepalmed sa nangyayari kay Keily.

"May problema ba?" tanong ni Jake.

"Ha?! ano ka ba wala! shempre wala! ahaha, ano lang next class ko na kase mauna na kaya ako Soph?"

I pulled her shirt as she tried to stand up making her fall right back to her seat.

"Sabay na tayo" I firmly said.

"Ah okay, sunduin nalang kita mamaya babe" singit ni Jake bago kami umalis ng cafeteria at naglakad papunta sa last class namin.

Hindi pa kami nakakalayo nang hilain ako ni Keily paputang cr.

"Shuta ka Sophia! bakit mo naman ako dinamay sa kalokohan mo?! si Ali?! wala na kayo?! bakit hindi niyo sinasabi?!! saka bakit may Jake ka na agad ano ba-" tuloy tuloy niyang sabi.

"Hey shh! shhh! ano ba?! Keil stop!"

She stopped before looking at me with suspicious eyes.

"Spill Soph" she said before crossing her arms.

"Kami padin ni Ali.."

"WHAT?! then this is a bigger disaster! you're basically cheating on her!! what the hell?!"

I closed her mouth.

"Sabi ko mageexplain ako diba"

"Alright fine, anong nangyari?" tanong niya and looked at me seriously.

"Last week.."

"Oh anong nangyari last week?!"

"Keil teka nga nageexplain na oh"

"Okay fine fine, bilisan mo" pagiinarte niya.

I sighed before rolling my eyes.

"I was forced by him to break up with Ali kasi he'll target my family if I don't but I can't lose Ali so I just hid this from her and lied to him na wala na kami"

She looked confused as hell.

"What? tanga ba siya? e kay Ali ka pa nga nakatira e, diba sinusundo ka pa niya araw araw?!"

I felt really bad now that I realized.

"No Keil.. si Jake yung sumusundo sakin, I've been lying to Ali para hindi na muna niya ako sunduin and yes sa condo parin ako nakatira nirarason ko lang kay Jake na nagaayos pa ako ng mga gamit."

"Dumb shit.." nagulat ako sa reaksyon ni Keily.

"What?"

"He's a dumb shit, bakit naman siya maniniwala sa ganung rason? magiimpake for a week?!"

She rolled her eyes.

"Well yeah, he is kinda dumb pero yun nga Keil, it's been a week magsususpetya na rin siya any time now"

Sobrang nahihirapan na ako sa past events since last week, hiding things from Ali, pakisamahan si Jake and his wild friends.

Almost everyday sa bar, drinking. Next week na yung midterms exams, I can't afford to take another problem.

I regularly hear from mama since sinagot ko si Jake.

I can't help that everytime na gusto ko nang tapusin lahat, dadating yung calls nila pushing me to feel fine about what I've done.

"You know what Sophia, hindi ko alam sasabihin ko ah kasi wala akong experience.." she winked.

Yeah right Keily, such a sassy bitch.

"But you have to tell Ali!! she's hella rich gurl she can help you! swear" niyugyog niya ako before pouting.

"Keily ayoko na sana idamay pa siya sa gulo na dala ko e"

"Bitch damay na damay na siya can't you see? you're ruining your relationship with her, alam mo kung gaano ka kahalaga sakanya diba?"

I sighed, it dawned on me.

I have to choose what's right.

Yes my family needs me, pero hindi sa gantong paraan. Hindi maitatama ng pagkakamali at isa pang pagkakamali.

Papatapusin ko lang tong midterms exam namin para hindi makaabala sa isip ni Ali.

This time I'll choose her, I want to prove sa sarili ko that I deserve her somehow even after everything.

Another day came again, I'll have to lie to Ali once more.

This feels like hell. She's not dumb to not notice how I try to ignore her questions kung bakit late na ako umuuwi at hindi pa ako nagpapasundo.

Nauuwi pa sa away minsan, but I just can't seem to know what to do or to say to her.

I'm cheating I know, I'm hurting her. And it's starting to ruin us.

It even came to a point when she asked if there's someone else.

Hindi ko alam kung anong isasagot ko or irereact ko but I just tried my acting game.

That night she slept sa couch without talking to me.

I know how much less of everyting I'm giving her, attention, time, affection.

I hate it. I tried to move away from her so it won't make me feel guilty and hurt at the same time every fucking time.

But it only proved just how much I love her, I fall back everytime.

Though it seemed impossible, I actually started to like Jake. Bilang kaibigan lang but sometimes he just gives me the actual rest I need.

But I know for myself na mali to lahat, I love Ali, and I'll prove my self that.

I'm taking my final exam today, I already texted Ali na magusap kami mamaya. She was confused, asking me why and what about but I told her nalang that I have something to sat about us.

I was already done but still waiting for the professor to permit us to leave.

I stared at the window thinking, smiling.

Naalala ko yung mga sinabi ni Keily last week. It did hit me.

Today makikipaghiwalay na ako kay Jake, I'll tell Ali everything. She may leave, damn she should. But I decided to trust whatever we have.

I can't help but kabahan sa mga susunod na mangyayari.

"Okay! time's up, congrats, enjoy the weekend"

Ah finally.

I felt relieved again, like I can breathe. Dahil ba tapos na yung exams or dahil I'll finally come clean to Ali.

I was about to call her while I'm walking sa hallway when someone pulled my wrist.

"Hi babe.."

He pulled me to his chest before kissing my cheek.

"Jake.." hinila ko yung kamay ko.

"Wow may hindi excited" he smirked.

"What? what for?" I asked him irritated.

"I thought I told you, nah baka nakalimutan mo lang, we're having a party tonight dahil tapos na exams" he laughed excitedly.

Ah yun ba. Nakalimutan ko nga.

"Oh that? well, I don't think I can go Jake-"

"Shh"

He stopped me from talking.

"Babe, call me babe" he showed his annoying smirk again.

I rolled my eyes and played with my tongue.

I'm breaking up with him today, no matter the consequence. Might as well give him this one.

"Sorry babe ah, pero kasi tatapusin ko na yung packing ko today.." my Alas reason. Always saved me.

"Sus, yan nanaman rason mo."

I tried to act sweetly.

"Wag ka na galit babe" I clinged to him.

"Hindi na ako magagalit pag sasama ka"

I sighed bago lumayo sakanya.

"Fine.. pero uuwi ako agad"

"Yun o!" tuwang tuwa niyang sabi bago ako inakbayan

Now I didn't forget to text Ali na antayin nalang ako sa condo bago kami lalabas ng gabi.

She asked where I'm going kaya nirason ko nalang na may extra aptitude test kami ng 6 pm.

Again she said na susunduin niya ako but I refused, naisip ko na mas lalo lang siyang magtataka but then aamin narin naman ako mamaya so be it.

"Babe? here drink!" sabay abot sakin ni Jake ng tequila shot.

"Okay na ako!" malakas kasi yung music kaya nagsisigawan kami.

I feel a little tipsy na rin kasi, my body is hot already sa dami ng alak na nainom ko. Knowing myself alam kong marami na yun kasi hindi naman ako agad nalalasing.

Ilalabas ko na muna ngayon to before I talk with Ali, para hindi nako pangunahan ng takot mamaya.

Huminga ako ng malalim bago umupo at nagisip isip.

I saw Jake coming before sitting beside me and grabbing my leg.

"Why did you stop drinking?" he asked.

"I'm done Jake.."

He laughed bitterly.

"What?" almost instantly I felt his grip tightened.

"I said I'm done! I'm breaking up with you, mahal ko si Ali"

He looked at me with eyes burning of anger and lust.

"You're not doing that" he gripped my arms which made me wince in pain.

"Aray Jake nasasaktan ako! let me go!" nagpumiglas ako sa hawak niya but he just held me tighter bago ako dinala sa VIP room.

Kami lang dalawa ang andito, nasa baba yung mga kasama namin nagsasayaw, and thinking about it frightened me.

Tinulak niya ako pahiga sa couch.

"You're not going anywhere" he's almost strangling me.

He's on top of me, I can't even breathe cause he's putting his weight on me.

"Jake please! stop!"

He kissed me hard.

Nagpumiglas pa ako lalo but he hit me which made me dizzy.

"Akin ka lang Hannah, wala kang karapatan mapasa iba"

Pinunit niya yung top ko before kissing me hardly sa leeg.

"Fuck! ah! Jake please stop!!" nagmakaawa ako pero he's not stopping.

He unbuttoned and unzipped my jeans.

He was about to kiss me again when he was suddenly thrown across the room.

Someone in a black jacket hovered over him continously punching.

I was shocked. I couldn't move kaya sumigaw lang ako.

Then the person looked at me.

"A-ali?.."

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