Kavya's POV

I loved this below quote of Nizar Qabbani so wanted to share it with you guys-

Give me a daughter with your stubborn heart, or even your temper.
Give our children your dark-bright eyes, or your enchanted smile.
So that even when we are gone, the world will find within them all of the reasons why I loved you.

-Nibbar Qabbani.

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After finishing the episode, reluctantly, I went downstairs. I don't want to see them together. I don't know why my mood gets ruined after seeing them together.

I adjusted my hair, took my purse and mobile and walked downstairs. I saw them discussing about some news.

'Hey,' Tanisha greeted me as soon as she saw me.

'Hi. Sorry, my head was paining and that's why I didn't come downstairs,' I said and looked at Kabir to see that he was smiling at me.

'Are you okay now?' she asked.

'Yes. I took the medicine,' I lied.

'You are leaving in this?' Kabir asked and that made me realize that this will be the first time I will go out in top and jeans.

'Handsome, what is wrong with that?' she asked.

I don't know why but that 'Handsome' nickname irks me.

'No. Nothing is wrong with that. Please call me if something is wrong and take care of yourself, please,' he pleaded and his worried face made me happy.

'You are talking as if she had never gone alone anywhere. She is educated, and she can handle everything on her own,' Tanisha said and that made me angry.

Who is she to come between us?

'At what time bus will come?' Kabir changed the topic.

'You should leave now. The bus is in ten minutes,' she said.

'Bye.' I left the house and took a deep breathe. I don't know why, but the air in the house suffocated me.

Earlier, when I told Kabir that I will go alone, he had messaged me the address I have to tell to the conductor, and all the good restaurants. He was even going to give me direction from the farmhouse to the bus stop but I told him that I had seen the bus stop yesterday.

His caring attitude always brings a smile to my face.

'Kavya,' I heard Kabir calling me and turned around.

'Take these,' he said and gave me an envelope.

'What is this?' I asked and opened it to see a bundle of cash.

'What? No, I can't take these, Kabir,' I said and tried to give it back to him but he didn't take it.

'Kavya, your money got stolen. You don't have money,' he said.

'I know that, but I had some cash in my purse,' I told him.

'But, you can need more, Look, if you want, you can give it back to me when your salary will come, but, for now, take it,' he said.

'But---- Once again I saw the envelope. 'But, it's too much, Kabir.

'Use as much as you want and give it back after you come home. That way, you can buy anything you like without any hesitation,' he said and I agreed reluctantly and I nodded my head, making him smile.

'But, promise me, you will take the money back from me,' I said and he nodded his head but I noticed a scowl on his face.

I know he will not like me giving him the money back, but he promised me.

'Call me if you are in any problem. And I will send Anand's number to you. In case my mobile is unreachable, you can call him,' he said making me smile.

'Go inside the house now, otherwise, your princess will get worried,' I said with a fake smile and his eyes widened. Maybe he was not expecting me to say that and I also didn't know why I said that.

'Okay. I will leave now otherwise I will miss my bus.' I walked away hurriedly.

I almost ran towards the bus stop and thankfully, few people were standing there, that means bus had not arrived yet.

I looked at everybody and felt free. Nobody knows me here and nobody will ask me anything here. This is the first time I am going  to explore some place like this otherwise before my marriage, I had gone everywhere with my family and after marriage, I have gone only with Sohum. After Sohum died, I had only gone to school or market or to buy groceries and other things.

I am scared and even excited to go alone. The bus arrived and I got into the bus. There were only few people in the bus and I took the window seat and the air blowing on my face made me felt arrive. I have never felt so alive.

The conductor came and I gave him the money and told him the stop and asked him to tell me when the stop will come.

I was angry that he gave me money, but a part of me was happy by his protective attitude towards me but I don't know why, from the time his princess came, I felt upset and I don't even know why I was feeling upset. From the time she came in the house, I wanted to leave the house. I came out of my thoughts and started looking out. Even though I was going out alone, for the first time, I was not scared, maybe, because my heart knew that Kabir was one call away.

This place was very calm, with mountains and houses all around the place not like the busy place we have in Mumbai.

After few minutes, he informed me that my stop has come and stopped the car. I thanked him and got out of the bus and looked around. This area was full of crowd with all types of vendors standing on the road and asking people to buy things.

I walked a bit and I saw a flower boutique and I remembered the time I plucked a leaf and gave it to Kabir and then plucked a small pink flower and gave it to him and he kept it in the pocket.

I went around and looked at different types of bouquet. He accepted my leaf and small pink flower which I picked from the roadside so I wanted to give him a bouquet of pink roses. I bought a bouquet of pink roses with my money and walked out and looked around.

I looked around to find a small coffee shop. I walked inside and fresh aroma of pastries engulfed me and a young guy greeted me. I looked around and there was no one in the coffee shop, I looked at the menu and ordered a parcel of three chocolate muffins and ordered another parcel for Anand uncle, Anita aunty and Kabir's princess. Yesterday, their family treated me like their own family member.

When I was about to give the money, I realized that after this, all my money will be finished and I have to spend his money but nevertheless, I took it for us. I hope Kabir and Raj will love it. As he gave me the bag of muffins, I thanked him and walked out.

I walked a bit more and found a park and it reminded me of the day, when Sohum came early from office and we decided to go somewhere. We had not planned where to go, but then Sohum asked me if I wanted to visit a park and I instantly agreed, so he took me to the park which was only fifteen minutes away from our house. That day, we had sat their for hours. After he died, I never went there or any other park but today I want to go into the park and try to enjoy it by myself.

I went inside and saw many children playing and almost all the bench were occupied by either couples or families. Few people were jogging and few were doing exercise. I went and sat on one of the empty bench and remembered the time when Sohum was beside me but now I is all alone.

I tried not to think of that day, and to distract myself I started walking around and while walking around I felt better. My mind drifted towards Kabir and I wondered if both of them had stopped watching news. I took out my mobile and there was not even a call from him to ask me whether I have safely arrived or not.

I looked at few people watching me and realized that the bag of bouquet was causing the attention so I took a carry bag from my purse and put the bouquet in it and then I sat on the nearby bench.

I put the mobile in my bag and started thinking about my life and how it has changed in the past few months. I had cried and screamed with Kabir so much in the past few days which I have never remembered doing in the past eight months with Sohum but then again Kabir had also made me happy and made me felt like I was the most important person in his world, even though now I doubt it. He has done so many things for me that it will take days to thank him for that and I will be thankful to him for the rest of her life.

I sat there for some time and then I walked outside and my stomach started growling. I looked around and there was a restaurant nearby, I had never ate alone in a restaurant. The last time I ate at the hotel, was Baingan ka bharta with Kabir. That day instantly bought a smile on my face. The day I got my periods, and he gave me his coat to cover myself without thinking of anything.

I walked towards the restaurant and when I got inside, couples and families greeted me. There was not even a table where someone was sitting alone. If I went inside and sit at the table, I will be the only one eating alone but still, I went inside and sat at a table. I  looked at the menu and decided to have Masala Dosa. I have to spend his money this time. I looked around and tried calling the waiter but it felt like words stuck in my mouth. I don't know why but I was not able to call the waiter. 

All thoughts started coming in my head like- how the waiter will laugh at me as I eating alone, or how he will pity at me for not having anyone to eat. Or, maybe he will make fun of me in front of other waiters as I don't have company. I took the bags and ran from the hotel and took a deep breathe.

I thought of having something after I reach home. It took me ten minutes to walk towards the bus stop and with me few people were standing there. I think the bus will come in few minutes. 

There was no bench on the bus stand so I had to stand there. After another more ten to fifteen minutes, I asked a lady and she told me that a news had come, that the previous bus had met with an accident so the next buses got cancelled.

'Nobody died. right?' I asked and prayed to god for everybody.

'Few are injured but thankfully, no one died,' she replied. 

Thank god.

'Is there any other transport?' I asked.

'Where do you want to go?' she asked and I told her the address.

'I also stay there. Autos don't go that far and that's the only problem here. If something happen there is no option. Don't worry, in few hours, they will start the bus again. Thankfully, my son will come to pick me up,' she said.

'Do yo want to come with me? I will drop you nearby,' she asked.

'No. I will call my friend and  he will come to pick me up and then--- Before I could say anything a car came up and a man asked her to sit in the car hurriedly and she bid me goodbye and sat in the car and left.

I took out my mobile to call Kabir but his mobile was unreachable. And, then I called Anand Uncle but he his mobile was also unreachable. Once again I called them and still their mobile was unreachable. I think, I have to stand here for some time. I looked around but there was nobody on the bus stop. Maybe they had got the news and called their family and friends. My stomach growled again, and I though of eating the muffin, but I wanted to eat it with Kabir and Raj. One last time, I thought of tried calling Raj and Anand uncle but got no success.

I saw a car came and stopped in front of me and my eyes widened as I saw Kabir. He came running towards me and before I could process, what has happened, he hugged me tightly.

'Thank god, nothing happened to you. Thank god that you were not in the bus which met with an accident. What would I have done if something happened to you?' he mumbled in my hug and I didn't know what to do other than just closing my eyes and feeling his arms around me.

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I hope you liked the chapter.

This was the first time Kavya enjoyed by herself. She was living but not enjoying herself, but still she got scared in the restaurant. Poor her :(

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