Kim SeokJin

"Everyone thank you for working hard!" Shouted NamJoon as all seven of us took a bow in front of the entire staff that worked hard to bring us where we are.

All of our managers, stylists, make-up artists, dancers and producers cheered and clicked their glasses with ours to celebrate the successful completion of the Wings tour. Today was one of the best things that happened to us in a while. We were able to meet so many of our fans and perform in so many arenas and cities that it is still a bit unbelievable for us.

From Fire and Blood, Sweat and Tears release to winning a Daesang last year to the smooth flowing concerts with the release of Spring Day, Not today, Love yourself: Her and the opportunity of performing at the  Billboards, everything flashed by in front of us like a slow motion movie as we all took one day out of our life and enjoyed ourselves.

Today was a self-appreciation day before all of us dive into yet another year of full schedules and hard-work. Today is the last day of the year and we attended a award show where we were honored to receive yet another Daesang. 

I sit on one side of the room drinking from my glass as I look upon the festive-like atmosphere in the small hall we had rented for the night. NamJoon and TaeHyung were animatedly talking to our producers, Yoongi was sipping his wine dramatically as some of the dancers are complimenting his improving dance skills, Hobi and Jimin are engaged in a conversation with another mix of dancers and stylists while Taehyung was egging on an ambitious JungKook who had managed to coax Sejin Hyung into yet another arm-wrestle match despite loosing so many times.

Before debut when I was first introduced to all the boys, I had imagined myself only leading them and supporting them when they need it but on the other hand, I ended up learning so much from them. 

I joined this industry when I was just twenty but still older than the rest of them. Being the eldest to all of them is not easy but they are best younger brothers I could ask for. They follow me well, they know me well and they let me lead them well and I will be forever grateful to them.

My phone pinged and I quickly got it out of my pocket. I see the message and a huge smile takes over my face.

'I hate you.'

I laugh and quickly text back and spring up from my chair. I keep the glass on the table and go over to Namjoon and place my arm around his shoulder and smoothly join the conversation he was in.

The night fades away quickly and by midnight almost all he members are drunk. Thankfully the managers expected this and were careful with their liquor like I was. Hobi and Taehyung were also quite sober but they had already found themselves a makeshift bed of chairs to doze off on. 

Most of the staff and producers had gone home by midnight. Only the dancers and we were remaining but seeing how one by one all the members were falling asleep, I told the managers that we should be heading home. They agreed and we started waking up the members. Sejin Hyung was busy waking up Hobi and Jimin while I went to wake up the almost drowsy Jimin and Jungkook who were sitting together under one of the tables. 

How did they get there no one knows.

"Yah Jimin-ah, Get up. We are going home. Jungkook-ah Hurry. You both are in the same car." I said, crouching down to their level.

Jimin let go of table stand he was hugging and stumbled out from under the table but it seemed that Jungkook fell right back to sleep. I nudged him in the stomach and called his name but he still wasn't getting up.

Tired and now a bit irritated, I looked up and found Hobi, Namjoon and Jimin following one manger out of the room while the rest were still walking around collecting their stuff.

I sigh and look back at Jungkook and almost smile at how cute he looks while sleeping but collect myself and play my ultimate move to wake him up.

I slowly slide my hand under his shirt and slightly pinch one of his nipple. He yelps up as expected and by reflex I put a had above his head preventing him from hitting the table. 

"Hyung! Why do you always do this to me?" He adorably mumbles as he swats away my hand and crawls out of from under the table.

I stand up and pocket Jungkook's stuff from the table and wait till the youngest is standing up straight. Once he does, I take hold of his arm and make him walk faster towards the doors. Hobeom Hyung meets me at the entrance and with him is Taehyung who also seems drowsy but can still alert. He takes over Jungkook from me and we three walk towards the car parked outside.

Our maknae Manager who had not consumed anything was waiting in the car and once all were seated and belted, the car took off.

I look at Hobeom Hyung as he picks up a call from his other colleagues and ask him, "Hyung, Who all have already left?"

He slightly turns in his seat and looks at me. "Jimin, Namjoon and Hoseok left with Sejin. Yoongi is only one left. He is still finding his earpods at the venue. They should be leaving soon."

I nod and thank him quietly. I look back at the boys and see both of them passed out. I sigh and look out of the window listening the serene voices in the car.

While many good things did happen to us, many bad things happened too. Well...not exactly bad. Just stuff that made us question our inner self, our priorities.

I still remember the day I met her after the article broke out to the public. I had sneaked her out of her practice room and without second guessing anything she followed me. I found a spot in the floor where no one comes by very often and had managed to make it more conspicuous by hanging a curtain to cover most of our bodies.

That day I was terrified that she would not let me explain and would be very angry for  not telling her anything. But I was shocked and euphoric when the moment we were sure no one was around she slowly came towards me and wrapped her arms around me tightly. 

At that time I was so shocked and mindblown that I felt like a little boy who was hugging his crush for the first time. My face and ears heated up and colored and to hide that from her I hugged her back and hid my face in her hair.

We had stood there for a few minutes before she moved away and looked me straight in the eye.

"I trust you and I will believe whatever you say. So please, answer me truthfully." She said, her beautiful eyes that were lined with pearl makeup were pleading and like in a trance I nodded my head.

"You are not here to break-up with me for real, are you?"

My eye widen at that I frantically shake my head. She lifts her hand from my waist and places them on my face, stopping it from the moment. She sighed out loud and bend her head to probably hide her smile but I wanted to see it. I lifted my hands to touch her but she jerked her head up and looked at me.

"One more question." I nod and place my hands back at her waist. "Why did you not tell me anything before?"

I sigh and pull her more close to me by her waist. She squeals before hurriedly cover her mouth and then hit my shoulder with one hand when she sees a smile on my face. 

"Our phones are being tapped. That conversation was the last I could have with you without letting whoever was tapping know my plan. My manager had changed my number and cellphone the very next day and I think yours has been changed too?" I ask her. 

She nods in realisation. "So that is why we all were given a new number..."

I nod in affirmation. "Whoever wanted to find out our secret was very prepared. Bugs were found in the cars and waiting rooms we usually use and phones being tapped was only the basics. Hidden cameras around our dorms neighborhood were also found. No one could enter the company to take anything so we had disabled all communication devices that were suspicious. The member's numbers were also changed and I had asked my manager to check your dorms, cars and mobiles and we found that everything was tapped.

I was told not to tell anyone about anything but I had to somehow tell you to trust me because the article release would have made you misunderstand for sure. I am so sorry I couldn't tell you everything before or even asking for your consent baby. While I had told my company and the world that we have broken up, I have no intentions to do that. I can't loose you after finally finding you."

At this point my tone had taken a pleading turn and I was practically begging her to understand.

She stayed quite for a while before looked back up at me and smiled. "You told me to trust you and that is the only thing I did. When I was told by the company that it was you who had suggested the news of the break-up to be released, I had gone blank. When they had told me that someone was aware of the existence of the documents and were threatening us, I knew this would have followed. I expected this. Just not that you had personally taken the decision. I was so upset and angry and confused but then I remembered your last words to me and calmed my heart."

Her voice clogged and she looked away from me. Warmth and gratefulness filled my heart and thoughts and I pulled her in for a hug. She hid her face in my shoulder and I tucked her head under mine.

"I had no other option but to take that decision. If the existence of the deal had been revealed, there would be no one who would understand our story and our love. Things would only go downhill from there. If our split had been announced, the person behind all this plans would have failed as we had a deal of four months but the article came out five and half months later. 

While my company thinks that I officially called it off with you, I have no intention to actually do that. If you still want me, I want to be your man. If you will still have me, I want to be with you forever. JooHyun-ah...will you still be mine?"

My question was met with silence for a while to the point that had me worried before I felt a sharp pain on my butt. I yelped and backed away from the hug while she stood in front of me with her hands on her waist and chin tipped up.

She pulled me forward with my tie and placed her head centimetres away from mine. I was frozen with eyes wide, unable to comprehend anything. 

A small devilish smile took over her face as she said, "You are mine. Do you understand? You are tied with me forever. Don't you even dare to think of parting with me. Because I will pull you right back to me if you run away."

I smile as I visualize that smile again. I had seen such expressions of her in her groups variety show that taught me how competitive she is, but with me it was her first time.

That was nearly an year ago. 

While the fans probably forgot about us being a couple with everything that happened in this year, we both were very much aware. 

My schedules had restricted our time together drastically to the point that we couldn't meet each other for three months but thankfully  the technology of video calls made us feel we were always together. While  most of my friends had always told me a idol dating is practically impossible as we had no time to give to our partner. While that was true, both of us were victims of a impossible schedule and weirdly it just worked for us.

We would meet whenever both of us are in the same country and would just go out to have some fun late in the night or just cuddle up in any of our bedrooms.

Our members were the only one who knew of our little secret. It was pretty impossible for them to not know when both of us were either crashing at the dorms or were gone an entire night. They caught up quickly and thankfully they let us continue our secret relationship.

A smile automatically takes place on my face as my phone pings again and i fish it out of my of my pocket.

"Usual place. 1 am?'

I smile and send a confirmation. I look and realize and that we reached home.

I wake the boys up and help them move out of the car before all of enter our dorms. Jung kook and Taehyung drag themselves to their rooms while I shout behind them, 'Take and shower and sleep!' to which I get some incorrigible replies.

Hoboem Hyung laughs at the adorable maknaes and then quickly takes leave saying he will see us on the day after tomorrow as we had a break day tomorrow.

I close the door behind them and make a beeline towards the kitchen and fetch a bottle of water and walk into my bedroom.

After nearly thirty minutes when I was sure that Yoongi who had arrived ten minutes after me was asleep and the rest of the boys were in dream land, I quietly made my way out of the room.

I tiptoed towards all the rooms to double check f everyone fell asleep and once confirmed I make my way to the door and silently wear my shoes and grab a car keys that the managers probably forgot.

I put on mask and hat and exit the dorms.

The drive to our spot was faster than I had expected and by the time I got out of the car I could see a very familiar silhouette standing in the cold in front of a convenience store just a few meters walk away from her dorms.

She is standing on the opposite side of the road so I open the drivers seat and honk the horn. She jumps in fright and looks at the car suspiciously before she recognizes me and skips towards me like a small child.

I laugh as her excitement is so contagious that she runs towards me and throws herself at me. I catch hold of her and hug her tight and her arms wrap around my shoulders and legs dangle in the air.

"I missed you soo much!" She squeals in my ears which makes me wince but still laugh.

I put her down but her hands don't leave me, "I thought you hated me?"

She pouts and plays with my hair at the back of my head. "That's because of the my meme that you sent me. Anyways, I am so happy we could meet today! I thought I wouldn't  be able to meet you before I leave for Japan tomorrow. Do you even know how disappointed I was?"

I pinch her cheeks and plant a chaste kiss of her pouting lips because I just couldn't help myself. "Of course, that's why I came to meet you."

She is a little startled by the kiss but she recovers and quickly gets in the car like a excited bunny. I laugh at her antics and get in the car too.

"So ma'am...where to today?"

"Well Mr. Worldwide Handsome.... I suddenly feel like going to the beach." She says. "Will that be possible?"

"In this cold? JooHyun-ah...it's really cold outside!" I say, incredulous.

"I know....I won't get into the water like the last time I swear! I just want to see the sunrise.....and also enjoy a car ride." She says in a small voice that borderlines on aegyo but still is not quite there. Her hands grip mine and her mesmerizing eyes keep my captive till I find myself nodding a yes.

She squeals loudly and jumps in her seat in excitement. She suddenly leaps forward, takes my head into her hands and places a kiss on my cheek before going back to try connect her Bluetooth to the car system.

I stay frozen in my seat as I see her buzzing in a infectious joy and excitement. I shake my head like a lost a long battle and set the navigation to the nearest beach in the east and grown when I realize that it is a solid three hours drive one way.

She hears my groans and pauses in her sugar-high state and looks at me sympathetically.

"Is it too far? We can go somewhere near if you want..." She lets out reluctantly and I appreciate her consideration even when I know just how much she wanted to go to the beach.

"Nothing is too far if my girl wants to go." I wink at her at which I get a eye roll.

"To the beach it is!"

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The End. 

It is over. Finally done.

 After nearly eight months, I finished a book I had so fun writing. A huge huge THANK YOU to all my readers who stayed with me and my story right from the start and those who started reading as of late. It was your comments and encouragement that helped me write the next chapter every time I was stuck on one.

I hope you enjoyed reading this book as much as I enjoyed writing it. It is my first attempt at a fan-fiction and I am so overwhelmed with the response and love I have received so far.

This book initially had no good ending. My intentions right from the start was to give it a ending that I had predetermined but as I kept writing I got attached the story and realized that if I give it a bad ending I would never forgive myself lol. Not to mention that I would be accused of 'crushing a little birds fragile heart' in the process.

If you are curious about anything, please do ask me. I will be honored to answer them!

Thank you for being a part of this journey with me. I love you <3

Have a wonderful day ahead and don't forget to stay safe.

(P.S There is a little gift and surprise coming up for you if you want it.)

(PSS. Kindly do look forward to my upcoming works based off on another BTS member, You can guess who!)