I'm sorry, I forgot you matter more than me.

I truly shouldn't have done what I wanted to.

After all, you matter more than me.

Sometimes, I wonder what makes some people think I should prioritize their wellness over mine.

I really shouldn't have done what I wanted to, for that I'm sorry.

And when I do, I have to apologize.
After all, I don't have the right to enjoy my time the way I want to.

So yeah, you know how I should live my life better than I do, teach me!

Ditch what makes me happy because you don't enjoy it?
Gladly!
After all, you matter more than me.

So you know that I'm not happy because I'm not doing what you find to be gladdening, for that I'm sorry!

And I should just sit there, next to you and watch you enjoy your time, because of course I enjoy getting bored with you!

Simply impossible!
Of course I love chatting about nothing!
Now, tell me about that one kid, whom I don't know, because I'm so invested in other people's lives!

And sometimes, I just don't want to listen, because I have no taste in conversations!
For that I'm sorry!

Look, I'm sorry.
I shouldn't have thought about myself!
You know what I should do better!
I'm sorry for thinking otherwise!
Obviously I enjoy the company of those who don't even care about getting my name right, because that's what others enjoy, right?
Company!

And yeah, I'm mentally ill, because I'm different!

And I'm sorry for being this way!

I don't think you found the 666 on my head as a baby, so what's the chitchat about?

I simply don't understand the purpose of my existence!

And I've got no right to explore, because everyone else knows the answer!
It's happiness!
Which, of course, means partying!
It's an objective meaning, anyone who disagrees is mentally ill!

Like me.

And yeah, you know what?
I am mentally ill.
So leave me alone.

You are so sure I'm who you think I am!
And of course you're right!

Obviously, when you're bored, it's my duty to entertain you by listening to your interesting stories of the past!
After all, I'm not a human of my own!
I'm your personal assistant!

Sure!
Go ahead and make jokes about how I'm a nerd in front of everyone!
After all, I live to be turned into a stereotype!

How did you know that the reason I was crying, when I returned home after almost fainting away, because of overheating and being unable to breathe and having to gasp for air is because I'm going to miss school!

The same school, where the teachers use me to get a reputation and can't even get my name right!

After all, I'm nothing more than a trophy for others to hold and boast about!

What?
A personality?
What's that?
I don't have something like that!
My job here is to be a robot!

I don't have feelings or emotions!
You can throw me anywhere you want, I won't fail you!
I can't make mistakes!
I'm perfect!

And when I do, you can easily throw me into the bin!

And don't forget to remind me of how much you all love me, when the time you need me comes!

I believe every single word you say!
And of course I will do whatever you want!

Even though I don't want to do that.

And you can call me rude when I refuse!
You can act passive aggressively around me!
Because you have the right to!
How dare I do what I want to!
I apologize!
I'm sorry!

And yes, I do care about what you say!
Oh no!
You think I'm weird!
I'm so offended!
Let me start acting like everyone else, in order to become normal, like you all!

And when I break into tears in the bathroom,
And when I start fantasizing about death,
Who cares?
It's my duty to do what you told me to!
And my health's the bottom of the list!

I'm sorry!
It seems I was mistaken!
My health isn't even on the list!
Haha!

Way to go on leaving me all alone when I needed support!
After all, that's what friends, who love me, obviously, are for!

Way to go on telling me that I'm only there for you to use me, when you need me!
Of course I'm not offended!
That's my duty!

Way to go on questioning the reason behind my isolation!
Clearly it wasn't my insignificance to you!

Way to go on not reaching out!
I never actually mattered, after all!

And I'm sorry for thinking otherwise.
Of course, I don't matter.

But when I'm not smiling, what's wrong with me?
And yeah, I don't smile, because I don't want to smile!
Because I can't smile!
I haven't smiles in years!

Of course!
How could've I ever thought about not going to a party, where I'm just the stereotype of a nerd and an achievement to boast about?
I'm not just going to hide all this beauty for others to enjoy!
Who cares if I feel uncomfortable from loud songs and crowds?
At least you can boast about me in front of others!

And yes!
I'm sorry for making a decision different from before!
I have no right to try different things and grow!
After all, a red cow doesn't change its skin!

They shouldn't!

And yeah, I'm sorry for not getting along with you all because our interests don't align!
Obviously, I have to change my interests to match yours, but you shouldn't!
That's not how things work!

And I'm sorry for not interacting with people, because my trust has been broken!
The reason of my existence, after all, is to let other people boast about me!
To use me!
Of course I'm not a human!
No, I'm a robot!
I'm sorry for thinking otherwise!

Great idea!
I should definitely show people that I'm also a party animal, although I'm not actually a party animal, by acting like a party animal, because you want me to be a party animal!
After all, otherwise I wouldn't be worthy of praises!

I'm sorry!
I got that wrong!
I meant you wouldn't be worthy of praises thanks to me!

And I'm sorry for not acting like everyone else!
Obviously, I have to have a crush, or else I'm mentally ill!

And yes!
I'm sorry!