I walk to the reception desk..

"I need help."
"How can we help you?"
"Ben... My brother Ben. He was hit by a car,so you have any news?"
"Yes,yes we do."
"Is he okay?"
"You'll have to ask one of the doctors."
"Where are they?"
"Busy."
"Then what the fuck am I supposed to do!?"
"Calm your voice please."
"I will not!"
"Calm yourself or I'll remove you."
"I'm not moving anywhere until you tell me what's happened to him."
"He's in coma."
"What?"
"They're not sure what else to do. I'm sorry."

I don't know what to say,I just walk away and sit back down,picking at my nails as I see Thomas enter. Once he spots me he sits down on the chair next to mine.

"I'm loosing everyone close to me." I say to him "I won't be able to handle it if your next."
"I won't be."
"Tell me you'll never leave. That you'll be here forever."
"Of course I will,I love you with all my heart. And that's never going to change."

I rest my head on his shoulder and close my eyes,waiting and waiting for more desperate news...

I wake up from an un-called sleep to see Thomas is still there,fiddling with his hands.

"Any news?" I ask.

He doesn't say anything.

"Tom?"
"He.."
"No."
"He's stopped breathing."
"You mean he's dead?"
"I'm sorry."
"I can't believe this,everyone I ever cared for... This is all my fault."
"Don't say that."
"It is,I could've let him go. But no,I had to keep him at work. He would've of hit that car if it wasn't was me."
"Don't be so hard on yourself."
"I wish I would've fallen off that bridge."
"Please don't say that."
"I don't care about myself anymore."
"We need to take you home,it's ten O'Clock."
"I can't move."
"Then I'll carry you."

We walk out the hospital and he pulls me into his arms,carrying me bridal style as we walk back home..

I'm still scooped in his arms as we enter the apartment,he walks to his room and lies me down on the bed,kissing my fore-head softly. Then he just sits there,looking into his eyes..

I feel in the mood then crash my lips to his,pushing his hands down then straddling him as I begin to remove his shirt.

"Margo." He suddenly pulls away "Are you okay?"
"I'm fine."
"No you're not."
"What so you don't want me to fuck you then?"
"I think you need to sleep."
"I need you."
"I'll lie with you then."
"No. I need a shower."
"Okay,come here."

He pulls me up gently then walks with me to the bathroom,I sit down on the edge of the tub,my brain feels like it's floating out of position.

"Do you want me to help you?"
"Yes."

He starts to run the water in the bath gently takes off all my clothes. Once he's done I sit int he steamy water as he starts to wash me. I curl my legs up to my chin,wrapping my arms around my knees as I start to cry,louder and louder.

He later helps me into a towel then gets me dressed into my pyjamas like a baby,I lie in his bed as he walks out the room then comes back a little while later with my pills.

"Swallow these." He says,pressing them into my hands.

So I do.

Then he comes and sits next to me under the sheets,brushing my hair out of my eyes.

"Is there anything you want?"
"I'm okay,just stay with me."
"Of course."

I'm walking down a familiar path like before,I feel something creep up behind me. I turn round to see it's the creature,from before.

"Leave me alone!" I cry "Can't you see I'm happy?"
"Not for long,you don't deserve to be happy."
"What?"
"You killed everyone-Ben.your mum. You're toxic,crazy."

I start to run but it catches up with me,chanting words in my ear. Insulting me every step of the way.

"Poor little girl,chased by a demon."
"I'm not scared of anything."
"Prove it."

I burst awake,spluttering and screaming. Thomas is right beside me.

"Calm down!" He starts to wrap his arms around me but I push him away.
I grab my shoes before he can react and sprint out of the apartment.

I'm not scared.

I'm not scared of anything.