Trinitys POV

I was drinking and having so much fun. I was drunk I know I was, but it didn't matter. I went back to the hotel DeMorte with Raphael and some others. I've been kissing and dancing with them all night. I found myself in my bra and underwear dancing around. Laughing and swaying to the sound of the music. Just letting myself let go, feel free and feel nothing.

"You look so careless" Raphael says

"I'm letting go and flying free raphy, I feel no pain no emotions just put freedom" I smiled

"We'll fly free little bird" he smiled

I jumped in his arms and kissed him roughly. To which he wrapped his hands around my waist. Kissing me with just as much need and hunger.
Would I regret this tomorrow, there's a slight possibility of that. Do I care right now, no not one bit. I'm free and care about nothing right now. Suddenly I'm ripped away from Raphael and into someone's arms.

I look behind me to see four lovely people. Jace, Alec, Izzy and Magnus.

"Buzz kill" I rolled my eyes

"Kitten why do this?" Magnus asks me

"Why care, I don't, I feel free, I feel no pain nothing, absolutely nothing because" I hiccup at the end and paused

"Emotions cloud your judgment so feel nothing" I say

"Trinity what we're you thinking?" Jace snapped

"I wasn't, because I didn't need to" I smirk

"Look at yourself, why are you beings so stupid?"Alec snapped

It was like a slap in the face when it came to him. My smile faded and I sobered up a bit. I ripped my arm out of Jace's grip. I grabbed my clothes and slipped them back on.

"Stupid is as stupid does, I'm perfectly fine, don't worry about me it's not like you have before" I said with a straight face and left the room

Magnus grabbed my arm and stopped me around the corner.

"What the hell" he hissed

"Don't" I said

"You did exactly what your dream state wanted you to do, and for what to lose those you care for, why are you being so stubborn and stupid" he hissed

I was about to respond but he interrupted me.

"Don't you dare say emotions cloud your judgment because you know damn well that's a lie so snap out of it already" he hissed

I pulled my arm out of his grasp and left towards the institute. I walked back inside after a long ass walk. Then straight to my room locking the door. I then fell down into my bed and fell asleep. Only to be pulled into another dream state.
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Alec's POV

I can't believe she would be so stupid and reckless. When I saw her with the vampire I felt angry. I felt hurt and I felt betrayed. I can't explain why I feel the way I do. I just do and when I said what I said to her. She looked shocked but quickly masked it. Why isn't she being the person we used to know. She's eighteen and out here drinking and being crazy.

I worry about her, I worry she'll do something really stupid. Deep down I think it's more of that I'm worried she doesn't like me. I mean like me the way I like her and it's hard. I know I'm twenty and she's gonna be nineteen soon. I like her and I mean I really really like her.
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Dream state

Trinitys POV

"Your so stupid" the voice said

"Back off will you" i hissed

"Your ignoring the bond" a new voice said

"Who are you?" I asked

"Your ignoring the feelings you have for him because your scared he doesn't feel the same and that you'll lose him" they said

"Who are you" I yelled

"He means more to you than you know, Izzy is your parapatai match, jace your brother, and Alec he's more to you than you know, look deeper into it you'll see" the voice says

"What does that fucking mean" I yelled

"Look in the books Trinity" it said and then I shot out of bed
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I saw Izzy there with a worried and hurt expression. I smiled softly and pulled her into the bed. Doing the same thing we did in the previous hours of the day. She looked at me with sad and guilty eyes.

"I want to be your parapatai I always have, I am overly excited and we will do the ceremony tomorrow, no backing out and I wasn't before, you left before letting me explain to you and then ran off to do something stupid" she says

"I had another dream state iz" I say

"What happened?" she asked

"There was someone new this time and I couldn't seem them, but it was a woman's voice she told me he means more to me than I know and to look into the book" I say

"What does that mean?" She asks

"She's talking about Alec" I said

"Okay but what book?" She asks

"I don't know, but I'd like to know that's for sure" I said
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The next day

This is it, today is the day that me and Izzy become parapatai. I was beyond excited and I didn't know what to expect. So the first thing I did was rush to jace. He and Alec have already gone through it. So here I was knocking on his door.

"What's up sis?" He asked

"Can I talk to you about the ceremony?" I asked

"Sure come in" he says

"So what's it feel like?" I asked sitting in the edge of his bed

"It's the best feeling and it's hard to explain really, but you'll understand when it happens" he says

"Thanks J I'll see you later" I said and walked out of the room
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Later that day

I was getting ready and am so excited too. I grabbed my stele and fixed my outfit. Then headed towards the ceremony room. There were the witnesses needed for the ceremony. Izzy, jace, Alec as well which made this moment even more special.

"Izzy" I said with a smile

"Trinity" she said