July 20th-

"Good morning beautiful mama. And good morning Scarlett and Wyatt! You all look wide awake!" Danny says walking into the living room.

Jessica had one baby on each boob as she fed them for the third time in an hour. Jessica was exhausted. Danny spent long hours at the office, Jessica was all alone during the day with the babies. She loved her babies and spending the time with them, but being alone during the day was harder than she thought. Whenever she'd get lonely or needed Danny he'd never answer because he was always in a meeting.

"Hi..." Jessica says softly. She puts her head back on the couch and closes her eyes.

Danny stands above her, leans down, and kisses her forehead.

"What's wrong, you seem off." Danny says walking around the couch and sitting next to her.

The babies were almost a month old. In that month Jessica had changed, a lot. Her moods were different, she was a lot more emotional, she didn't really interact with anyone else but the babies, and her attitude had altered. Danny was noticing a change and couldn't help but worry for her.

"It's been stressful, doing this all alone." She didn't mean to say that. She wanted to say she was fine, but she wasn't.

"Honey, you aren't doing this alone." Danny rubs her back.

I am, you're never home. I spend each and everyday in this apartment with the babies. I can never leave because you have the car... and taxi cabs aren't baby friendly. I'm stuck here. On top of all that I'm a mom, who's twenty-three. I never have help. It gets frustrating because the babies need me so much. They depend on me. I have no one to depend on. You're only here on the weekend and at night. That isn't enough! I feel like a single mom, I'm crying for help Danny. I haven't slept enough. I hate asking you for help at night because I know you need to sleep for work. My head always hurts, I never have time to take a shower, clean, or even feel good about myself. My boobs always hurt. Like shards of glass are in them. I feed the babies, hourly. I feel disgusting, like you aren't attracted to me anymore. I just want you. I need you. You take me away from my hometown, my friends, and my family. The least you could do is be here and not take away my sanity.

It took Jessica a moment to answer. That's what she wanted to say, but she couldn't. She didn't have the strength to argue with Danny. She knew her deny all of it.

"I'll be fine... really. I think I'm just a little tired." Jessica forces a smile onto her face.

"You can always talk to me. I love you, baby."

"I love you too."

"And remember, next Tuesday I'm off for the day. We can have a great day and celebrate a month of life for our little munchkins!" Danny gazes at his beautiful babies who ate peacefully.

"Jessica, I'm so lucky. You've given me so much. I still can't get it through my head that we are parents to these beautiful angels."

Most dads spend time with their children and aren't always at work. But no... it's fine Daniel. Really it is. If I've given you so much, why can't I go home?

Damn it Jessica, stop having this anger towards Danny. You know he means well. He's trying. We all are.

"Jess?" Danny says snapping Jessica out of her thoughts.

"Huh?"

"I think Wyatt is finished eating."

Jessica looks down at Wyatt who was finished eating. He quickly began to fuss. Jessica closed her eyes and quickly tried to calm her nerves.

"Could you try to calm him down please? Scarlett is still eating, and she hasn't been eating as well. I can't juggle the two."

Danny looks at his watch and sighs. "I'm running late, I'm sorry." He says standing up.

"Danny!" Jessica moans

"I really want to help but I have a meeting at nine."

"It's only eight. You have time." Jessica says on the verge of tears.

"Jess, please I have to go." Danny grabs his brief case and runs out the door. When he closes the door he startles Scarlett. She stops eating and begins to scream along with Wyatt.

Jessica felt so sick... she was sleep deprived, in pain, and overwhelmed.

"Damn it!" She yells trying to soothe the babies.

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July 25th-

"Happy one month of life you little precious babies!" Jessica says strapping them into their car seats.

"You two need to stop growing. You're growing too fast for mommy." She smiles. The babies start to smile and Jessica smiles as well.

The best part of her day was being able to see her babies happy. That's all she wanted, was for them to be happy. They leaned the world to her. No matter how hard motherhood was and how hard things were for Jessica, she had her babies. That was all that mattered.

"Danny, are you ready?" Jessica says loudly

Danny comes running out of their room with an activated look on his face.

"Fuck this!" Danny says throwing his phone on the couch.

"What?" Jessica says picking up the diaper bags.

"My boss, he wants me at the office."

"No!" Jessica says sternly

"What? Jess-"

"No!"

"This is my job."

"Well this is your family. He can wait."

"It's just an appointment, right?"

"It's more than that Danny. It's our babies first month of life, their one month check up, and you promised a fun day. We haven't had those in a while because you've been busy."

"I get that, but I'm sorry."

"No, you aren't going. Not now. Every week you spend nine hours at that place. And every other day you have twelve hour work days in Buffalo. I'm tired of doing everything alone. I'm done getting rain checked. I need you, our kids need you! You decide what's more important. I'll wait for you in the car." Jessica attempted picking up both carriers.

Danny walked over to her and took her by the arms.

"I feel like such an ass. Jessica, I've been so caught up in work. I haven't realized. I'm so sorry, please forgive me. I love you, and you have me. I'm here."

Jessica wraps her arms around him and sobs. She had been holding it all it. The pain became unbearable. She hurt so much. She just needed Danny more. She loved him and didn't want to lose him.

"And look, in August we go back home for Sarah's wedding planning. We will be gone for a week. I'll shut off my work phone. Actually, I'll leave it behind. You'll have all my attention, love, and help. For weekends, we will get out more and spend more time as a family. I love you, I always have and I always will. I'm so sorry. You and the babies are my world. My world is my important than work. Family over work, forever."

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