The next few days go quickly and two days before Louis has to go back to his dad he starts to become distant and closed off. They boys notice but they don't know it's because he doesn't want to go home.

Louis has been taken off the drip and is having the antibiotics twice a day as a tablet. The boys are happy with his progress and his kidney infection is healing nicely.

Louis stays in bed mostly, he's angry and he knows in two days his life will go back to shit and he doesn't know how to handle it. He doesn't want to take his anger out on the boys though, so he avoids them as best he can.

"Hey kiddo, want to come watch a movie?" Andy asks as he comes into Louis room, the night before he has to go home.

Louis is reading on the bed, trying to take his mind off going home. 

"Not really, I'm tired" Louis says

Andy sighs and sits on the bed next to Louis, he reaches out and feels Louis forehead, he's not warm

"I'm fine Andy" Louis says frustrated as he swipes Andy's hand off his forehead.

Drew and Edward then walk in, coming to find them both.

"You okay Lou?" Edward asks

"I'm fine" Louis says, his attitude short

"Whoa, what's up babe? Why are you upset?" Drew asks concerned

"I just am" Louis says trying to be angry but he comes across as a cute kitten. 

"Okay, we were just wanting to spend some time with you before you went home tomorrow, if you're to tired that's completely okay" Andy says

"Well, I won't be around anymore or bothering you anymore, so you won't have to pretend you want to spend time with me" Louis says upset

The boys all look to each other confused

"Louis, we're not pretending, we love spending time with you" Drew says

"Then why did you never come and see me, why did you leave me" Louis says, he just blurts it out.

Louis loves his brothers to absolute death and he understands they were studying and much older than him, but he was left alone to be abused at the hands of his dad and to cope with seeing his mum so sick every single day, to pretend that everything was okay. He would never, ever blame his brothers but he resents them a little. Tomorrow he goes home to hell, while they all get to go on with their happy lives.

Troy blames Louis for his mums death, for everything turning to shit, he was the one who caused it all, the one who deserves to be beaten not his brothers, but it's just hard to see them so happy while his world is consumed with so many dark clouds that he can never talk about.

Louis, where is this coming from?" Edward asks

Louis looks to his brothers, they are all gorgeous, so successful and happy, they've built themselves a wonderful life and it's not their fault Louis was left behind.

"Nowhere, I'm sorry, forget it" Louis says

"Lou, you don't have to be sorry, tell us how you're feeling, we're here for you and to listen" Edward says

"I know we've been working alot bud, but we promise to make more time for you" Drew says

"It's not your job to make more time for me" Louis says

"We will always make time for you kiddo, we want to spend time with you, we've missed you and we're sorry we weren't there to watch you and support you growing up" Andy says

"I don't expect you to say sorry for that, you didn't move us, dad did. I know you were all busy with uni and you had every right to live your own lives" Louis says

"We know how hard it must have been to watch mum become so sick and not have anyone there to talk it through with" Andy says carefully

Louis retreats into himself, his dad started beating him when his mum got sick three years ago, started taking his frustrations out on Louis. His mum had no idea, he hid it so well, he couldn't burden her with all that. It was hard seeing his mums so sick but his dad made it so much harder to let her go.

"I don't want to talk about mum" Louis whispers

"Okay kiddo, we don't have to talk about that and you don't have to come and watch a movie or anything" Andy says gently

"We were hoping we could chat about you maybe staying one weekend a month? We would love it if you'd come stay" Drew then says trying to change the subject from their mum

"Yeah maybe, but you don't have to spend time with me, even if you feel guilty or whatever, I know mum asked you to look after me but you really don't have to" Louis says

"Louis, what? Mum asking us to look after you had nothing to do with us wanting to be there for our little brother. We love you and would do absolutely anything for you. Regardless of whether mum asked us to or not" Edward says

Louis doesn't know if he believes them, he wants to he really does but his dad tells him how worthless he is and how the boys don't really love him, maybe it is true.

Louis just nods slightly

The boys decide to leave Louis alone, he clearly is upset about something and they don't want to pressure him or upset him further, so they kiss him on the head, tell him goodnight and leave the room.

Harry and Scott are waiting in the lounge, throwing popcorn into each other's mouths from the opposite end of the couch laughing at each other when they miss

"Where's Lou?" Scott asks when he sees the boys come back in

"He's tired apparently" Andy says

"Is he still sick?" Harry asks

"He doesn't have a temperature, he's upset about something though, he's grumpy" Drew says

"Maybe you two can go talk to him" Edward says

"Yeah, he has taken a liking to you two, and vice verser" Drew says, the last part teasing

"What's that supposed to mean?" Scott asks smiling

"Oh nothing, just...you're not arseholes to him, in fact.... I clearly remember you both turning soft in the ER" Drew chuckles

Harry and Scott blush

"He's your little brother that's all" Scott says

The boys smile

"Sure, we believe you" Andy says sarcastically

"Although...weren't you two the ones who told your twelve year old nephew to stop being so dramatic when he was crying while you were stitching his head up" Edward laughs

"We were gluing his head, big difference and he was annoyingly crying, he didn't even need stitches" Harry rolls his eyes

The boys laugh.

"Well we do appreciate you being so kind to Louis, we weren't sure how you guys would feel bringing him into the circle" Drew says seriously

"Look, we do admit there's something about Louis that we are drawn too, we do feel protective over him and I guess it's similar to the bond we all have together. I mean we'd kiss your heads better and give you an icy pole if you were crying while we glued a cut back together, same with Louis" Harry says laughing in jest at the last part

The boys smile and laugh

"We can go chat to him if you like though" Scott says when the laughter dies down.

The boys sigh

"I guess it couldn't hurt, I mean you might be able to get something out of him that we couldn't" Andy says

"We will be right back" Scott says

"Don't start the movie without us" Harry says as he throws popcorn at Drew who laughs

Scott and Harry make it to Louis door and knock.

"Lou?" They both call

Louis hears Harry and Scott's voices and his first thought is to pretend to be asleep. He's getting attached to a Harry and Scott and that's never a good sign. He seems to lose everyone he grows attached too, first his brothers when they moved, then his mum, he doesn't want to get close to Harry and Scott, especially with how he has to hide his secret

Louis can't deny he wants to see Harry and Scott though,

"Yeah" he says shyly, before he can stop himself

Harry and Scott then open the door and wander in

"Hey darling, the boys said you didn't want to watch a movie?" Harry asks as he and Scott come and sit on the end of the bed

Louis shrugs not really wanting to talk about it

"Is there something bothering you?" Scott asks

"Nothing that I want to talk about" Louis says

"Okay, fair enough, well, we are going to miss having you around so wanted to spend the last night watching a movie" Scott says

"You're going to miss having to look after me? I thought you'd be keen to get rid of me" Louis says a mix of disbelief and anger in his voice

"Lou, we don't really understand where this is coming from? If there's something you need to talk about, please trust us....we don't want you to end up back in the ER, we can call Kimberly if you like?" Harry says gently

Louis completely freaks out at that, he had somehow pushed aside the reason he was in emergency, the boys and everyone think he overdosed on sleeping pills, that he was suicidal and tried to kill himself. He didn't and he doesn't want everyone thinking that he did

"I didn't try to kill myself" Louis says loudly and defensively. His breathing starts to come out irregularly

"Hey, hey, hey, calm down darling" Harry says gently

Louis is so frustrated, he tries to calm down but he can't and his breathing comes out irregular

"Just relax sweetheart, take some deep breaths for us" Scott tries

The boys are concerned, Louis is clearly having a panic attack

"Please leave me alone" Louis says as he tried to catch his breath

"We can't do that bud, not until you're breathing okay" Harry says

He reaches out for Louis hand but Louis flinches his hand out of Harry's grip straight away and backs up

"I'm not going to hurt you Lou, Scott and I would never hurt you darling" Harry says

They both see Louis becoming worse and Scott reaches out and brings Louis in front of his legs in one swift movement, he holds Louis tightly as he tries to get free

"Relax for me, I'll let you go when you're relaxed okay" Scott says

A tear falls down Louis cheek and after struggling a little he becomes tired and just relaxes against Scott

"That's it Lou, Scott's got you, just relax" Harry says as he swipes Louis fringe off his forehead

"Follow my breathing darling, in and out, I've gotcha, you're okay" Scott reassures

Louis eventually calms down and he ends up falling asleep hiccuping against scott

The boys tuck him into bed and look at each other concerned. There is definitely something going on with Louis and they need to figure out what it is. They kiss him on the head and leave him to sleep, heading to tell the boys what happened and to book Louis session with Kimberly earlier than they originally planned