My friend asked me to spend time with him this week

We're going to hang out and talk and laugh and talk some more

I will forget, for a moment, that the world is in shambles

I will forget, for a second, that my heart is hurting and my mind is fractured

I will forget, for how long I am not sure, that you told me you wanted to take a break

I am going to ignore my wish to see you face-to-face

To give you a hug and tell you sorry and ask you if we're all okay again

For now I will try to forget that we are not talking

It is easier to forget you exist entirely until you message me again

Push your name to the back of my mind and move on until we can catch up

If I give my emotions time to express themselves

I worry I will burn up from the chaos that will flare inside of me

I don't hate you

I don't love you

I don't want to let you go

I don't want to stay

I just...want to tell you I'm sorry

That things have turned out the way they have

That we changed a little too much

These stupid poems are not enough for the storm inside of me

But I'm trying

I don't want to be stuck anymore

I want to let go